the heart of life is good

sometimes life takes a sudden turn. we're caught be surprise and stumble. but we learn to get up and try to figure out where we’re headed. and hopefully enjoy the ride.

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i hate to see you cry

lying there in that position

there's things you need to hear

so turn off your tears

and listen

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

no, it wont all go the way it should

but I know the heart of life is good

you know it's nothin' new

bad news never had good timing

then the circle of your friends

will defend the silver lining

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

no it won't all go the way it should

but I know the heart of life is good

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

fear is a friend who is misunderstood

but I know the heart of life is good

i know it's good.

~ john mayer

love is tricky...

Love is tricky

It is never mundane or daily.

You can never get used to it.

You have to walk with it,

then let it walk with you.

You can never balk.

It moves you like the tide.

It takes you out to sea,

then lays you on the beach again.

Today’s struggling pain is the foundation for a certain stride through the heavens.

You can run from it,

But you can never say no.

It includes everyone.

~ Elza

By Amy Tan in The Hundred Secret Senses

Ang Lee's LUST CAUTION trailer

got this link from Borj.

http://barrioheiress.multiply.com/video/item/51/Ang_Lees_LUST_CAUTION_Trailer

sana ipalabas dito without the cuts. asa pa ako...

a WOMAN's right to refuse arrest

got this from a college friend's multiply. spread this to all the girls you know.

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The right to refuse .. (sa 'PINAS to ha..)

Please pass this on to your wife, girlfriends; and ladies, you may want to
forward this to any female relatives who may need to know this important
information.

I was talking with a lawyer friend of mine. We were discussing the law and
women`s rights. She told me about this incident - a young girl was raped by
a man posing as a plain clothes officer; he asked her to come to the police
station when she and her male friend didn't have a driver`s license to
show. He sent the boy off to get his license and asked the girl to
accompany him to the police station. Took her instead to an isolated area
where the horrendous crime was committed.

In fact, the law clearly states that between 6 pm and 6 am, a woman has the
right to REFUSE to go to the Police Station, even if an arrest warrant has
been issued against her. It is a procedural issue that a woman can be
arrested between 6 pm and 6 am ONLY IF she is arrested by a woman officer
and taken to an ALL-WOMEN police station. And if she is arrested by a male
officer, it has to be proven that a woman officer was on duty at the time
of arrest.

It is good for us to know our rights. To what extent it comes of use
remains to be seen in any situation. But as they say, knowledge is power.
Just thought I`d share this with you.

I did not know this and am sure lot of us will not know this - please be
informed.... And pass on this info to everyone you know.......

happiness is ...

I am but a simple girl. Mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko. So here is a list of simple things that make me “happy” lately:

1. hearing heavy rain splatter on the parking lot tin roof
2. folding the last piece of freshly washed and dried laundry
3. finding out that Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake is finally available after 2 weeks of craving and waiting
4. Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake and Belgian Chocolate Chocolate melting on my tongue
5. eating Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake and Belgian Chocolate Chocolate from its tub. In the dark kitchen. Alone.
6. laughing and talking to someone before going to sleep
7. the feeling of freshly cleaned floor under my bare feet (OC!!!)
8. admiring the newly scrubbed and cleaned bathroom (eto pa, OC talaga!)
9. SSB (single self behavior) after taking my pre-sleep shower
10. discovering a decent brownie shop in Takashimaya
11. the feel of body butter on my washed feet
12. slowly walking home along Novena at night
13. being able to run for 45 minutes non-stop without feeling like I’m going to die of heart attack
14. clearing my cluttered mind while running
15. running in cold rain
16. hearing “you’re doing quite well” from my dragon boat coach after just a month of learning the sport
17. feeling the adrenalin and the knots in my body after training
18. stretching after running or training
19. sharing the shower cubicle with 3 other pinay dragon boat teammates after training (isa lang kasi ang shower stall at madaming nakapila)
20. losing cms everywhere
21. being able to finally feel “independent”
22. washing up with the boys using a hose outside the shower/changing room (ang tagal kasi maligo nung isang girl!)
23. being able to sleep before 1am
24. making up after a fight
25. shopping online for someone back home, and knowing that the goods were actually delivered and received (kakatakot, kasi baka scam)
26. being able to say what I really think without feeling judged or feeling guilty
27. knowing that my ‘effort’ was appreciated
28. looking forward to going to a ‘real’ beach (or beaches)
29. knowing that I have good friends
30. seeing old friends
31. making new friends
32. dinner at NY NY, 7107, Clarke Quay, foodcourt near Kallang MRT, Marina Steamboat, Jumbo, Panyeros…
33. finding an error that took the config guy 3 days to solve (Ha! Hahahaha!)
34. delivering an urgent requirement and dashing off from the office to go to training
35. listening to Alanis, Fergie, Mandy, John Mayer, Sheryl Crow
36. missing my bakulaw of a BF
37. chatting with my mom, dad, brothers (hurrah! they finally learned how to use YM!!!)
38. knowing that my help is appreciated
39. knowing that I am missed
40. missing home… and realizing that I still know what matters most in life

Counting my blessings everyday…

Baaad day...

It’s just quarter before noon, and yet I’m already swearing to the heavens for how the day is turning out.

I just had caught Bus 139 when I suddenly remembered not blowing off the candle on my shelf beside the bed. Since the candle was above a stack of books, the mental image of the lit candle toppling over and burning the books then the curtains, then the bed, then our unit, then the whole condo flashed before my eyes (and consequently me being thrown to prison… flashes of Flor Contemplacion followed), so I hurriedly alighted at the next bus stop, which, thankfully, was just before the flyover. Running to the condo, I swore my very heavy backpack and my incapacity to not pack too much stuff for rowing this evening.

When I got to the condo, lo and behold, I couldn’t open the frigging gate because my housemates had already left, and of course, locked the gate. I had to lend the gate key to my roommate because I was going home late tonight (because of rowing), and we hadn’t duplicated the key (ang mahal kasi. Imagine, $12 for a frigging piece of metal…). By this time, my positively heeeeeaaaaaaavy backpack has positively worn me out.

To spare myself from the ire of my housemates (from having left the candle burning and not having the key copied, and possibly having burned the condo down), I called up my roommate so that I can meet her and get the gate key. But first, I had to inform my Project Manager that I couldn’t make it to the office this morning. Off I went to Paya Lebar MRT station and the saga to my roommate’s office began. Her office was somewhere near the Paya Lebar Airport Road near a dead-end after the loop… Guided only by her SMS instructions, I hailed a cab whose driver didn’t have any idea where the office was. Well, ako din naman. Even with a map, I still couldn’t figure it out (maps, directions, and I don’t mix well. it’s hereditary). After two wrong turns and the nth SMS/phone call, I finally saw her with the key.

The only saving grace of this whole brouhaha was the very nice cabbie who didn’t complain when I gave hazy directions and who didn’t charge another flag-down when I asked him to go back to the Paya Lebar MRT station after picking up the key from my roommate. He was even willing to listen to my story, and told me that going back was the right thing to do.

At the MRT station, I faintly heard a siren going off and my heart skipped a lot of beats (no, not just A beat). From the MRT platform, I saw that the siren came from an ambulance, and not a fire truck, passing by. (Me and my imagination. Paya Lebar is sooooo far from my condo. Surely there had to be another fire station near our place). Still, I couldn’t keep myself from fretting unnecessarily (which is also hereditary).

When I finally alighted at my bus stop, I checked the sky for dark smoke coming from a burning building. There was none. But still, I ran, heavy backpack and all. I got to our unit. No smoke was emanating from the crack between the door and the floor. Not even a whiff. I opened my bedroom door.

The freakin’ candle wasn’t even lighted.

I was sooooooooo relieved, yet irked at the same time. Relieved that I didn’t burn the condo down, hence sparing myself from doing a Flor-Contemplation-story, and irked (at myself) that the memory of blowing off the candle escaped me (again, this is hereditary). Having caught my breath and calmed down, I wanted to bawl over and bang my very stupid head on the floor.

The day isn’t even half done yet and I’m already sooo freakin tired…

Moral for the day: don’t light stupid scented candles in the morning when you’re hurrying to the office. You wouldn’t notice the scent anyway, and even if you did, it wouldn’t take away the stress of the early morning rush.

OR have the key duplicated already.

OR go see a shrink.

My Life Analysis: does it really come to this?

sometimes, we wonder "where" we are in our life. it's amazing to find links that actually measure life's success. based on what and who? I was curious, so I took the test and here are the results.

no reason to jump off a cliff. but of course, there is always room for improvement, big rooms in fact or a whole flat. Hahaha! =P

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This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7.1
Mind:	6.6
Body:	9.3
Spirit:	7.1
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	6.9
Finance:	7.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is in good shape, meaning that things are going well. Do all you can to maintain it, and continue to grow and move ahead.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.

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wow, di ako makap-react ng maayos. pero it seems madami na ang galit about this. how dare the writes make some off-hand comment like that. such ignoramuses...

big girls don't cry

...

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

...

~ Fergie

head over feet...

9 years and 6 months ago, this song faintly crept from joanna ang's room into my mind...

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I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess

I'm not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

Your love is think and it swallowed me whole

You're so much braver than I gave you credit for

That's not lip service

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met

You're my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before

I've never wanted something rational

I am aware now

I am aware now

~ Alanis

You know you're getting old when... (shamelessly grabbed from MAC) =P

Mac! I just had to copy this! Mega in-denial na nakaka-relate na ako. LOL! xD

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1. Your houseplants are actually alive.

2. Having sex in a twin bed is out of the question.

3. You keep more food than air in the fridge. >> and you learn to cook too, something that is actually edible

4. 6:00 a.m is when you get up, not when you go to bed.

5. You attend weddings instead of debuts. >> at mga binyag

6. There are fewer people in the office you call kuya or ate. >> and more people call you ms... or ma'm... (sarap sapakin)

7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of “hook up” and “break up.”

8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 14.

9. Jeans no longer qualify as “dressed up.”

10. You’re the one calling the tanod because those %&@# kids next door won’t stop the party at 3 AM.

11. Your titos and titas ask you when the wedding is >> everytime they friggin see you. and not only that, they tell you to hurry the hell up para di mapanis ang mga egg cells. geeez. talk about pressure).

12. You still remember when Madonna had cones in her boobs. >> and her "like a virgin" video

13. Your budget allocations include rent and utilities, and don't include photocopy - Philo handouts anymore.

14. Your favorite singers have started releasing "Greatest Hits" compilations.

15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt.

16. You take naps.

17. Dinner and a movie is the whole itinerary for Saturday night instead of the beginning of one.

18. Staying up late was something you shouldn't do but you did, anyway.

19. You go to the drug store for ibuprofen and antacid, not condoms and pregnancy tests. >> umm....

20. A PhP300 bottle of wine is no longer “pretty good shit.” (I remember Maha and Rica with this)

21. You actually eat breakfast food at breakfast time. >> and you've grown averse to McDo breakfast meals too

22. “I just can’t drink the way I used to” replaces “I’m never going to drink that much again.”

23. 90% of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real work.

24. You drink at home to save money before going to a bar.

25. When you find out your friend is pregnant you congratulate her, instead of thinking of it as THE scandal of the century.

SILENCE

This is one of the many memorable sections in Hillary Clinton's autobiog "Living History", my MRT reading material for the past month...

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Too many women in too many countries
speak the same language of silence.

My grandmother was always silent, always aggrieved.
Only her husband had the cosmic right (or so it was said)
to speak and be heard.

They say it is different now.
(After all, I am always vocal and my grandmother thinks I talk too much)
But sometimes I wonder.

When a woman shares her thoughts, as some women do,
graciously, it is allowed.

When a woman fights for power, as all women would like
to, quietly or loudly, it is questioned.

And yet, there must be freedom — if we are to speak

And yes, there must be power — if we are to be heard.

And when we have both (freedom and power) let us now be
understood.

We seek only to give words to those who cannot speak
(too many women in too many countries)

I seek to forget the sorrows of my grandmother's silence.

~ ANASUYA SENGUPTA

Top 20 Hot Female Athletes

currently my role models. see them at Barstool Sports.

Mejo "macho" (to the point of being bastos) nga lang ang tone ng article. But he may be telling the truth.

These are chicks of brawn and beauty. So who says that these two should be mutually exclusive?

Case in point: Lokelani McMichael (triathlon)

enviable hotness.

If I had my life to live over

"If I had my life to live over,

I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax;

I'd limber up.

I would be sillier than I have been this trip.

I would take fewer things seriously.

I would take more chances.

I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers.

I would eat more ice cream and less beans.

I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.

You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have.

If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dance; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.

~ Nadine Stair (attributed, probably erroneously)"

If I love You...

I’m up there waiting for you to come down the aisle

And I know that you don’t want to come

I know you don’t want to come

But that you’ll come anyway because you love me

and if I love you

if I love

You

not the woman that I’m trying to make you be

not the woman that I hope you’d become

but you

if I did, I wouldn’t be up there waiting for you
I would be letting you go.

… I really wish that you didn’t think

I wish that you knew.

~ Preston Burke

Grey's Anatomy

Didn't We Almost Have It All

S03E25

Burke’s Wedding Vows

I could promise to hold you and cherish you

I could promise to be there in sickness and in health

I could say till death do us part

But I won’t

Those vows are for optimistic couples

The ones full of hope

And I do not stand here on my wedding day

optimistic or full of hope

I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful

I am sure

I am steady

And I know

I am a heart man

I take them apart, I put them back together

I hold them in my hands

I am a heart man

So this I am sure

you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend

My heart, my heart beats for you

And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this

I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands

I promise you

Me

~ Preston Burke

Grey's Anatomy

Didn't We Almost Have It All

S03E25

my favorite Christina Yang moment

I was right

I swear I believed what I did was right

I don’t want you to forgive me

Frankly I’d find it patronizing if you did

Because while I know I was right

You think I’m wrong

Which doesn’t matter

Because I’m in this

I’m in this for the long haul

And I’m in this to finish the race

So if that means I don’t win this one

Then fine, I don’t win

You win.

~ Christina Yang

Grey’s Anatomy: Great Expectations

S03E13

... it's the school I CHOOSE.

today, the Eagles lost against the Archers ...

why does the basketball team have this psychological problem? Just when the team makes a big win, a bigger slump is almost always sure to follow. I have noticed this pattern for years now, starting when the team got strong circa late-1990's (nung nasa college pa ako). And this problem persists even with the string of stellar coaches and players.

Is it a problem of over-confidence? Caving in the pressure to perform? Angst or pamimilosopiya about not deserving the win? Kulang sa libog or sa Viagra? Or baka sobra naman tapos naubos dahil nag-celebrate ng panalo?

It's clearly not a physical problem. It's all in their heads.

heck, win or lose, it's the school I CHOOSE. ANIMO!

nothing more needs to be said.

i want to ...

1. run silly under the rain

2. feel the wind in my hair

3. bury my feet under Bora's cool, white, fine sand

4. spend an entire day lazing on the beach

5. eat Margherita pizza and drink ice cold San Miguel while watching the sun set

6. reach the peak of Mt. Apo

7. not stop dreaming

8. be understood

9. be patient

10. try new things

11. remember

12. stop being busy and just live

13. make things less complicated

14. be left alone ... sometimes

15. have more time

16. grow up but not grow old

HARANA...

Minsan, may isang dalaga. Nasa kolehiyo sya, second year. Kagagaling nya lang sa probinsya para sa pasko at bagong taon. At kaka-birthday nya lang din. Kaya nang mag-aya ang barkada nyang mag-ice cream sa Eagle’s park sa gitna ng baseball field, sumama sya. Kahit pa may kailangan syang tapusing program para kinabukasan.

Pagdating sa Eagle’s park, nandun din ang binatang nanliligaw sa kanya, kasama ang barkada.

Walang ice cream.

Pero may gitara at bulaklak. At isang lalaking namumutla sa kaba.

May kumanta at nagsimula na ang harana.

Napatigil ang dalaga. Napa-isip, “hindi na siguro nagbibiro ang kumag na ‘to. Nanginginig ang boses e. At nakakalimutan pa ang lyrics…”. Buti na lang sinasalo ng barkada nya.

Pagkatapos ng tatlong kanta, binigay ng binata ang bulaklak sa dalaga at nag-usap sila. Samantalang di matigil sa hagikhikan at tawanan ang kani-kanilang barkada.

Pagkatapos mag-picture-picture, umuwi na sila sa dorm.

Natapos ang harana nung malamig na gabing ‘yon.

Pero dun nag-simula ang lahat.

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ang baduy. pero hayaan nyo na, minsan lang ako mag-senti…


HARANA
Parokya ni Edgar

uso pa ba ang harana
marahil ikaw ay nagtataka
sino ba 'tong mukhang gago
nagkandarapa sa pagkanta
at nasisintunado sa kaba

may'rong dalang mga rosas
suot na may maong na kupas
at naryan pa ang barkada
naka-porma't naka-barong
sa awiting daig pa ang minus one
at sing-along

puno ang langit ng bitwin
at kay lamig pa ng hangin
sa 'yong tingin ako'y nababaliw giliw
at sa awitin kong ito
sana'y maibigan mo
ibubohos ko ang buong puso ko
sa isang munting harana
para sa'yo

di ba parang isang sine
isang pelikulang romantiko
di ba't ikaw ang bidang artista
at ako ang 'yong leading man
sa istoryang nagwawakas
sa pag-ibig na wagas

puno ang langit ng bitwin
at kay lamig pa ng hangin
sa 'yong tingin ako'y nababaliw giliw
at sa awitin kong ito
sana'y maibigan mo
ibubohos ko ang buong puso ko
sa isang munting harana
para sa 'yo

Uso pa ba ang harana
Marahil ngayo'y alam mo na
Basta para sa 'yo aking hirang
Kahit na magmukhang hibang

Tutupdin ang lahat liyag
Pagka't ako'y iyong bihag
At mahal kita sinta….


ONLY YOU
The Platters

Only you can make this world seem right
Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you and you alone
Can thrill me like you do
And fill my heart with love for only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
For it's true, you are my destiny.
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

You're my dream come true,
My one and only you.

One and only you.


FALLIN’
Teri de Sario

I'm afraid to fly
And I don't know why
I'm jealous of the people who
Are not afraid to die

It's just that I recall
Back when I was small
Someone promised
that they'd catch me
And then they let me fall

And now I'm fallin'
Fallin' fast again
Why do I always take a fall
When I fall in love

You think by now I've learned
Play with fire you get burned
But fire can be also warm
And that's why I return

Turn and walk away
That's what I should do
My head says go and find the door
My heart says I'll find you

And now I'm fallin', fallin’ fast again
Why do I always take a fall when I fall in love

It always turns out the same
Loving someone, losing myself
Only got me to blame

Help me im fallin fallin
Catch me if you can
Maybe this time I'll have it all
Maybe I’ll take it after all
Maybe this time I won’t fall
When I fall in love

NOT-SO-VITAL STATISTICS

I posted the entry below on Jul 7, '06 6:22 AM.

After 1 year, 1 month, and 20 days, I'm proud to say that I've finally achieved my ideal weight (operative word = "my"). Still working on the "statistics" though. Hahahaa.

What did I do?

- went to Singapore, hence, I stopped eating with BF (so hindi ko na sya sinasabayan)

- nakakatamad magluto for 1 person, so di na rin ako masyadong nagluluto (at kumakain) sa house ngayon

- commute and walk to work/home carrying 2 kilos-worth of laptop and kikay stuff for approx 2 hours a day

- less rice & carbs

- fruit or salad (no mayo) for dinner

- normal meal for lunch

- 1 piece of toast, with minimal spread, and 1 cup of non-fat milk for breakfast

Surprising results. And I didn't have to give up my once-a-month Ruffles and dark chocolate craving.

So kung gusto nyong pumayat, pumunta na rin kayong Singapore. Hahahaha!

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NOT-SO-VITAL STATISTICS

I have gained soooooooo much weight. I'm bursting out of my jeans, shirts, undies, and what-have-you. And i refuse to shop for new clothes as it will not motivate me to force myself to fit into my now-tight wardrobe. I need the motivation. I need to lose weight. FAST.

So, starting this week, I tried a modified South Beach-Oprah diet: less carbs/starches and more lean meat, fish, and veggies. I'm mortified to be without fruits, so I still eat fruits daily. My current favorite is half-pineapple sprinkled with a little salt.

Also starting this week, I did at least 30-minute cardio exercises everyday. I only rested last Thursday. But I walked from the office all the way home, which is a 30-minute walk, so I guess that counted.

I've also made a promise to myself that my measurements would go down. So here's the baseline (never mind that the whole cyberworld will be privy to such private details. Nonetheless, like I said, I need the motivation. This shall keep me in line:

Left Right
Upper Arm 11 " 11" ----------> problem area!!!
Lower Arm 9.5" 9.5"
Upper Thighs 21" 21.5" ---------> problem area!!!
Lower Thighs 17.5" 17.5"
Calves 13.4" 13"

Waist 27"
Navel 30"
Lower Abdomen 33.2" -----------> problem area!!!!
Hips/Ass 35.5"

Weight 120 lbs ---------> problem area!!!


Inches were added to practically every part of my body. Except my frigging boobs. Oh well, they're God's gifts, so might as well be happy.

Will be checking next week if there is any progress. If none, I'll be forced to resort to appetite-reducing-metabolism-accelerator pills. I swear.

I am a woman with a mission.

Your Zodiac Sign & Sex: which one are you?

Got this in my email. So funny! Who makes up this stuff???

Btw, I am a CAPRICORN. 24 years of bad luck? Madaya! Hence, this post. Ahahahaa!

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SCORPIO:. The sex addict
Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. Freak in bed. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring.
4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO:. The Virgin
Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.
7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA:. The lame lover
Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person you wanna #### with... u might end up crying... the most irresistible.
9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES:. The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to #### with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships. Addictive. Loud. best in bed.
16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS:. Does it in the water
Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS, BETTER THAN EVERYONE!
2 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

GEMINI:. Does Twosomes
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the #### out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.
9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO:. The Lion in bed
Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.
7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER:. The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

PISCES:. The Piece of ass
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN:. The passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart. BY FAR the BEST in BED.
24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS:. The Tramp
Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships.=] Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to #### with. Are the most sexiest people on earth!
15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS:. The Sexy one
Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna with you might end up crying.
4 years of bad luck if you do not Take time to Smile and Laugh!

I got this message from a dear friend. Though at first I thought it was more apt for what she's going through, I felt that the article hit me too.

Am I waiting? For what? To be ready? To grow up? I'm also waiting for an answer...

THE SACRAMENT OF WAITING
by James Donelan, SJ

The English poet John Milton once wrote that those who serve only stand and wait. I think I would go further and say that those who wait render the highest form of service. Waiting requires more self-discipline, more self-control and emotional maturity, more unshakeable faith in our cause, more unwavering hope in the future, more sustaining love in our hearts that the great deeds of derring-do that go by the name of action.

Waiting is a mystery – a natural sacrament of life – there is a meaning hidden in all the times we have to wait. It must be an important mystery because there is so much waiting in our lives.

Every day is filled with those little moments of waiting – testing our patience and our nerves, schooling us in self-control – We wait for meals to be served, for a letter to arrive, for a friend to call or show up for a date. We wait in line at cinemas and theaters, concert and circuses. Our airline terminals, railway stations and bus depots are great temples of waiting filled with men and women who wait in joy for the arrival of a loved one – or wait in sadness to saygoodbye and give that last wave of the hand. We wait for birthdays and vacations – we wait for Christmas. We wait for spring to come – or autumn – for the rains to begin or to stop.

And we wait for ourselves to grow from childhood to maturity. We wait for those inner voices that tell us when we are ready for the next stop. We wait for graduation, for our first job, our first promotion. We wait for success and recognition. We wait to grow up – to reach the stage where we make our decisions.

We cannot remove this waiting from our lives. It is part of the tapestry of living – the fabric in which the threads are woven that tells the story of our lives.

Yet the current philosophies would have us forget the need to wait, "grab all the gusto you can get." So read one of America's great beer advertisement – Get it now. Instant pleasure – Instant Transcendence. Don't wait for anything. Life is short – Eat, drink and be merry because tomorrow you'll die. And so they rationalize us into accepting unlicensed and irresponsible freedom – premarital sex and commitment – against expecting anything of anybody, or allowing them to expect anything of us – against vows and promises – against duty and responsibility – against dropping any anchors in the currents of our life that will cause us to hold and wait.

This may be the correct prescriptions for pleasure – but even that is fleeting and doubtful – what was it Shakespeare said about the mad pursuit of pleasure – "Past reason hunted, and once had, past reason hated". No if we wish to be real human beings, spirit as well as flesh, soul as well as heart, we have to learn to wait. For if not we never learn to love someone other than ourselves.

For most of all, waiting means waiting for someone else. It is a mystery, brushing by our face everyday like a stray wind or a leaf falling from a tree. Anyone who has ever loved knows how much waiting goes into it – how much waiting is important for love to grow – to flourish through a lifetime.

Why is this? Why can't we have right now what we so desperately want and need? Why must we wait – 2 years, 3 years, 5 years and seemingly waste so much time? You might as well ask why a tree should take so long to bear fruit – the seed to flower – carbon to change into diamond.

There is no simple answer – no more that there is to life's other demands – having to say goodbye to someone you love because either you or they have already made other commitments; or because they have to grow and find the meaning of their own lives – having yourself to leave home and loved ones to find your own path – Goodbyes, like waiting, are also sacraments of our lives.

All we know is that growth – the budding, the flowering of love needs patient waiting. We have to give each other time to grow. There is no way we can make someone else truly love us or we them, except through time. So we give each other that mysterious gift of waiting – of being present without making demands or asking rewards. But there is life in the gift we give.

So lovers wait for each other – until they can see things the same way – or let each other freely see things in quite different ways.

There are times when lovers hurt each other and cannot regain the balance and intimacy of the way they were. They have to wait – in silence – but still present to each other – until the pain subsides to an ache and then only a memory and the threads of the tapestry can be woven together again in a single love story.

What do we lose when we refuse to wait? When we try to find short cuts through life – when we try to incubate love and rush blindly and foolishly into a commitment we are neither mature nor responsible enough to assume? We lose the hope of ever truly loving, of being loved.

Think of all the great love stories of history and literature – Isn't it of their very essence that they are filled with this strange but common mystery – that waiting is part of the substance – the basic fabric – against which the story of that true love is written?

How can we ever either find life or true love if we are too impatient to wait for it?

FIRSTS & LASTS

so because of boredom, i have resorted to being attached to my laptop the whole morning just searching and reading about anything in cyberspace. i resolved to finish this online training for work, but the weather is so perfect for just chillin: rain, makulimlim, malamig... perfect reason to blend with the sheets.

the list below is one of the useless things i got from Friendster (thanks, Ellan), at dahil nga ayaw kong magtrabaho, i made my own list of firsts & lasts.

EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS:

1 FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: Jocelyn, since we were 8 years old
2 FIRST "real" SCHOOL: Ateneo de Davao
3 FIRST CELL PHONE COLOR : blue & black
4 FIRST FUNERAL: that i can remember, Lolo Rufo, Delima partriarch
6 FIRST BIG TRIP: that i can remember, going to Manila na nakasakay sa plane. Grade4.
7 FIRST VACATION: same
8 FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: Antonio Banderas
9 FIRST TIME OUT: college na yata. manang at atleta ako nung high school. bawal inom.
10 FIRST JOB: "analyst" cum utusan
11 FIRST MYSPACE FRIEND: wala ko nun

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:

13 LAST PERSON YOU KISSED: BF (a fuckin month ago)
14 LAST CAR RIDE: last night via a cab
15 LAST TIME YOU CRIED: can't remember
16 LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED WITH YOURFRIEND: Simpsons!
17 LAST FOOD YOU ATE: 2 slices of bread
18 LAST THING BOUGHT: lunch yesterday
19 LAST SHIRT WORN: pambahay
20 LAST PHONE CALL: bucky's frantic phone call from Pinas, asking how to pay hsbc online
21 LAST TEXT MESSAGE: bucky, asking if i was already home from gimik
22 LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: the keyboard?
23 LAST TIME AT THE MALL: weekend
24 LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FORSOMETHING: July28, when i went home
25 LAST PERSON YOU SAW: housemate ko na nanood ng tv
26 LAST THING YOU DRANK :- h2o
27 LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART: bucky
28 LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLYHAPPY: last weekend of July when i went home

TRUE or FALSE?
(from Raffy's bulletin. comment ko ung mga naka-italicize)

Girl facts:
When you catch a girl glancing at you, she wants you to look back and smile
When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you she wants you to hold her hand
When she wants a hug she will just stand there
When u break a girls heart she still feels it even when you see each other 3 years later (hindi lang 3 years...)
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind (like cursing you, and beheading you with a butter knife)
When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around (at iniisip: bakit ang tanga-tanga mo?)
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine (thinking: punyeta, manhid ka ba?)
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are playing games
When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl says she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that
When a girl is mean to you after a break-up she wants you back, but shes scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever

Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you
When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you (or he's asleep)...
When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong (or he's praying that you'll shut up)
When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minutes he means it
When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do (or you have something between your teeth and he's too embarrased to point it out)
When your laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
When a guy calls/texts you every day, he is in love
When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you," he's with you till you're done
When a guy says, "I miss you," he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

BOREDOM...
is a STATE of MIND

Bakit nga ba ako bored? After 2 months, ngayon ko lang na-feel ang desperation ng boredom. Ang OA. But really, parang ang hirap mag-isip ng gagawin. I have things to do like offline research and study for work, errands, house chores, and all the admin stuff. But in terms of necessary activities for "self-actualization" like fun and leisure, parang wala akong magawa dito. I have so many books to read, but my A.D.D. strikes most of the time. I've started 4 books, and finished none yet so far. Gusto kong pumunta sa beach, pero ang pangit ng Sentosa. Tinatamad akong mag-plan for Bintan or Batam. I'm thinking of doing some athletic/sporty activities para na rin dual purpose: fun and health. Maybe biking or wall-climbing for starters. Para kahit ako lang mag-isa, masaya pa rin. Gen found a volleyball group with games every Sunday, so maybe that too. I'm still thinking if badminton is a sport for me. Boring kasi. Then maybe late this year, learn how to dive. And I need to plan my Euro-trip with Paula.

OK, brake muna. First things first. I need to organize & project manage my life: desired future state --> current state --> gap analysis --> measurable goals --> action items (take note of milestones, and status update every week)

Umandar ang pagka-OC. Pati buhay, ino-OC. Amen.

Sayad.

Cute...

got this from Paolo Dy's blog. Title: "Love & Friendship" in one photo

Ateneo survey of sorts

(grabbed from karla who grabbed from noel who grabbed from lala)

1. What's your ID number? nakalimutan ko na...

2. Passed or wait-listed? Passed

3. How did you know about the ACET results? We all went to the Guidance Counselor’s office

4. Was Ateneo your first choice? Yes (because of my mom). Then UP. I would’ve gone to UP also but my mom was scared that I’ll turn out an “aktibista”. So since my allowance was coming from her, I didn’t argue. It turned out for the best, I think.

5. Do you know what your ACET score is? I can’t remember. All I know is that my score was enough to be accepted in my first choice degree.

6. What course was your first choice? BS MIS

7. Second choice? BS MGT yata

8. Anong course mo ngayon? I got the BS MIS degree

9. Did you have any plans of shifting? No

10. Chinito/chinita ka ba? Chinita pero morena din.

11. Taga-Ateneo High? No girls allowed…

12. Did you have fun in your OrSem? It was fun at first, then it got very tiring…

13. Saang gate ka pumasok nung first day? I came from the Eliazo, feeling fresh and bagong ligo.

14. Are you staying/did you stay in a dorm? Yes, I did.

15. Ever had an F in your grade report? In my final grade, No. but yes in some of my long exams and quizzes

16. How about an A? yes, non-majors usually. Pang-hatak ng QPI!

17. Highest grade? A

18. Lowest grade? C

19. Worst experience in ADMU? First F in Math 11 under the most horrible professor. That was my first F in everything. I thought the world was going to swallow me. It was a humbling experience, and it built character. ;P

20. Do you always attend class? Nope. I sometimes cut class, especially if the temptation of the bed is soooo strong…

21. What are/were your orgs? CERSA, Women’s Volleyball Varsity, MISA, and that org which helps during mass celebrations (I forgot the name…)

22. How many units have/did you pass/ed? all

23. Nangangarap/nangarap ka bang maglaude? Nyek, hinde. Pero nangarap akong mag-DL. Came sooo close 1 sem. I think .03 na lang, DL na. Kaso C lang ang bigay sa akin ni Caballa for some Math course…

24. When will/did you graduate? 2000

25. Fave subject? History with the funniest professor in school, plush Film Theory. I got A in both!

26. Worst subject/s? That higher calculus thing (prove that zero is a zero. Punyeta, why do I need to prove that????? Nobody’s even questioning it!!!!)

27. Fave landmark sa ADMU? What used to be Sacred Heart Hill minus the church. Memories… Hihihi!

28. Fave kainan? Clubhouse-na-Manang’s-na-ngayon

29. How do/did you get to school? walking

30. Are/were you always at the lib? Nope, for official business only: borrowing books for papers.

31. Ever gone to the infirmary when you were sick? Yes, once. I had nose-bleed. Freshmen jitters…

32. Do/did you have a crush in campus? Hay, ang dami……..

33. May balak kang mag-MS, PhD? Nag-balak. I tried completing Masters in CS. But I almost had a nervous breakdown, so I had to prioritize: Mental health or the-ilusyon-to-be-superwoman

34. Have you ever watched a graduation ceremony? Yes, mine and Bucky’s younger brother’s.

35. Do you know the "Song for Mary" by heart? Yes, but only when it’s sung with everybody else. Hahahaha.

36. Memorize mo ba ang Fabilioh? I think so… Babble si BF e. ;P

37. ...ang Halikinu? Yes.

38. ...ang Blue Eagle Spelling? Yes. Spelling lang eh…

39. Are you part of Team Ateneo? For the UAAP, yes. For Volleyball. Pero nilalampaso kami dati.

40. Who's your fave UAAP basketball player? Papah Fonacier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

41. Ever had a perfect score in an exam? nope

42. Ano ang ayaw mo sa Hell Week? The fact that you are not allowed to sleep. and almost have a breakdown

43. Dito ka ba natuto uminom ng beer? Ng san Miguel draft-light-pale, red horse, blue ice, beer na beer, ng absolut, ng cuervo, ng el hombre (yeck), ng zombie, ng chichi, ng rhum coke, ng gin-bulag, ng stolichnya (melon vodka, my favourite), gataka (gatas-tanduay-kape), gataka-a (gatas-tanduay-kape-arina) dahil kay paula at ed …

44. What do you like about our school? The peace it gives me. It feels like home.

45. Ano ang ayaw mo? Mga feeling konyo.

46. Have you ever bought anything at the A-shop? T-shirts for my dad and brothers.

47. maganda ba ID pic mo? Pano ka gaganda sa buong araw na paglalakad under the heat of the sun????

48. Done anything illegal on campus? Illegal ba mag-kiss? Hihihi! Drinking and getting drunk sa dorm, illegal ba un?

49. Bought anything at National Katips? Of course.

50. Ever gone to Starbucks Katips? Once, but it wasn’t there when we graduated. It was Tia Maria’s then.

51. May nakaaway ka na ba sa school? Meron malamang. Pero di ko na sila maalala.


Additional:

52. Did u meet your current BF/GF in school? Yes. 9yrs na kami.

53. Have u ever been drunk at school? Yes. Gumagapang pauwi or tinutulungan ang mga gumagapang pauwi ng dorm.

54. Did u ever sit in the konyo bench and pretend that you’re conyo as well? Hhahahaha! YES! some guy friends used to pee on those benches. mwahahahhaha!

55. Did you ever play hide and seek in school during the night? Nope, but some of my cervinian friends did. What I did was hide-and-hide with someone. Hihihihi!

56. Did you smoke? Yes. I learned to smoke when I was so overwhelmed with deadlines and activities. Parang blank lang utak ko for 5 minutes. but i stopped smoking when i graduated.

57. Ever saw Marikina during the night from OM? Yes, so romantic...

58. Ever walked around school very late into the night? Yes. some find it creepy. i find it romantic...

59. Ever had an embarrassing moment? Yes!!!! I think the most embarrassing was when I was signing up for my Philo class during Junior year. I talked to this guy behind the desk, deciding which professor to get (all the good ones were full). And he asked me, “Bakit ayaw mo ditto kay Mariano, maluwang pa”. I told him that people told me not to take him kasi di daw magaling. But since his slot was the best sched that will fit mine, I signed up. It turned out that the guy behind the desk was Mariano. I wanted the floor to swallow me during the first day of class. He turned out to be a good professor, albeit, in a weird-funny way. I got high grades from him too.

60. Have you ever had a heartbreak while in school? Yes, but not because of someone I met in school. Some high school jerk. Jerk. Jerk.

61. Did you have fun while in college? YES, the BEST 4 years of my life. So far. I almost cried while packing my stuff. After all the flurry of activities, orgs, meetings, inuman, papers, deadlines, terror professors, crushes... the enormity of the whole thing ending dawned on me. I realized that Ateneo was my home for 4 whole years, and I was leaving it. I was sadder leaving school than leaving my real family. But things have to end. We need to move on and grow up. The consolation I hold on to is the fact that I had a great time when I was in college. And that will never leave me.