MUSINGS on MY SO-CALLED LIFE

i replied to an email i got from a friend. he was my classmate in several classes sa Masters. he had to stop studying here coz his family immigrated to Canada last year. he was asking how we are doing and here's what i wrote:

"nag-LOA din ako starting nung Nov 2002. i was on the verge of nervous breakdown. my work got so demanding, i was studying, and playing volleyball for the varsity. i took up multimedia (passed), thesis 1 (dropped), intro to software eng (pending). i have 15 units of course subjects to go, plus my thesis then i'm done. kaya lang, two years have passed already and right now, i'm thinking if i want to finish the program. i'm getting disillusioned with the IT industry (it's not as lucrative and promising as it seems...), i'm not confident with my skills (even though i'm taking masters), and i'm having some existential musings (i realize now that i don't find fulfillment in getting into the IT industry to serve only myself and/or IT companies whose main purpose really is just to make a profit... exaj bah?).

pero what do you think? i'm still thinking pa naman e. sayang din ung pagod na binigay ko for my masters tapos di ko lang tatapusin... but naisip ko rin na mas sayang na tapusin ko ung isang bagay na doesn't work for me. hay, i don't know. i'm so confused. besides, i have to save money pa for tuition and fees. ayoko ng magpa-scholar. too many strings...

anyway, i'm working full-time at the same company we made a study for Adv SAD. i'm enjoying my free time. watching dvds, thinking about what to do with my life. doing the things i wasn't able to do (because of my hectic lifestyle for 2 years). i have less things to get stressed about. I'm looking for a less-stressful job. something that will allow me to study. or maybe, i'll look for a job that's really core IT para naman magamit ko ang utak at training ko sa ADMU."

basically, that's my frame of mind right now. actually, i just want to be a bum for a while but i can't afford it. neither can i swallow my pride and ask money from my parents.

anyway, there's a job fair in glorietta tomorrow till wednesday. i'll go there and give it a shot.