So, JLo is in it... this is in one of my favorite movies. here's one of the reasons why...

“All these promises that we make and we break...Why is it that you think people get married?

Because we need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet, I mean what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything...the good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mondane things...all of it, all the time, everyday. You're saying... Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed, because I will be your witness.”

~ Beverly Clark
Shall We Dance

"Once the decision has been made, don’t look back.

Do not second-guess, and do not regret a decision.

Put the "what ifs" aside.

It was the right thing to do at the time.

Now focus on what is right at this time."

can't wait for my life to begin

it's strange. i feel sad. but i do feel at peace right now. knowing that i can be anywhere i want to be, knowing that i have a choice on how my life should pan out. i think that's the peace im looking for.

does that mean i know what i want? no, not yet. but you never really know, do you? i will find that out, someday. and i will make mistakes along the way. like i said, i will surely disappoint a lot of people, including myself. but making mistakes and learning from them is something i am willing to go through. it is MY life, afterall.

right now, i don't see the point of giving a deadline or restrictions on myself... not that i don't see the value of that. to me, i've decided to take whatever life throws at me, good AND bad. as you probably know by now, we never know what life throws at us. we make decisions and live with the consequences, hope that it makes us better persons.

i can't wait for my life to begin. hahahahaha.