USELESS RANDOM THOUGHTS
dad is here. i met him this morning and was with him the whole day. just got into virtual reality an hour ago.
had my friends look at my resume. some of them replied. some didn't. i guess people are too busy with their work and lives or mali ang email address na pinadalhan ko.
mac wants this thingamajig from sony. me want a laptop, a car, and a hunk-of-a-man to have an affair with... sana di ako batukan ni Santa.
might have to go home earlier than Dec20, like Dec19 na lang. Dad told me that flights are so full, i might not get a seat on dec20.
nuninuniniiiiiii..............
sometimes, you have to take life's shit with a smile on your face AND AT SOME POINT, THROW IT BACK. as you can see, ma-angst akong tao. madaming issues. feeling madaming problema. e ano ngayon? im pushing 30 so i'm losing my right to say that all these issues are wrought from quarter-life crisis...
Thursday, December 12, 2002
Monday, December 09, 2002
HARRY POTTER ADDICTION
for crying out loud, i've seen the HP1&2 movies for the nth time last night! i swear. this isn't healthy anymore. i mean, what do i get from watching them over and over and over again???? i think i have a crush on that kid. he'l be a cute guy when he grows up. OK, from this moment on, after i've burned the HP1&2 cds, I will put a stop to this rubbish. i guess i'm tolerating this addiction so that i could escape harsher realities. TIME TO WAKE UP.
speaking of movies, i watched The Ring in G4 with Jo. that was some creepy movie. i could still imagine those horrifying scenes whenever i go to sleep, take a bath, brush my teeth. grabe. kainis nga coz i know it's not real pero i still get scared. RUBBISH.
anyway, i'm stuck with my job hunting. parang ayaw kong gumalaw. shyeks. i'm going to ADMU tomorrow for some "career counselling". i wonder what else they could tell me. hay naku. i'm just going there to hear some news, tips, and gather the strength to give them my resume.
jake versoza was interviewed by Grabeh.com! grabeh na ang kasikatan!
for crying out loud, i've seen the HP1&2 movies for the nth time last night! i swear. this isn't healthy anymore. i mean, what do i get from watching them over and over and over again???? i think i have a crush on that kid. he'l be a cute guy when he grows up. OK, from this moment on, after i've burned the HP1&2 cds, I will put a stop to this rubbish. i guess i'm tolerating this addiction so that i could escape harsher realities. TIME TO WAKE UP.
speaking of movies, i watched The Ring in G4 with Jo. that was some creepy movie. i could still imagine those horrifying scenes whenever i go to sleep, take a bath, brush my teeth. grabe. kainis nga coz i know it's not real pero i still get scared. RUBBISH.
anyway, i'm stuck with my job hunting. parang ayaw kong gumalaw. shyeks. i'm going to ADMU tomorrow for some "career counselling". i wonder what else they could tell me. hay naku. i'm just going there to hear some news, tips, and gather the strength to give them my resume.
jake versoza was interviewed by Grabeh.com! grabeh na ang kasikatan!
Monday, December 02, 2002
Sunday, December 01, 2002
BORED STIFF
my past blogs have been about boredom. i guess it's because wala talagan direksyon ang buhay ko ngayon at wala rin akong ganang magka-direksyon ang buhay ko. am not tired. it's just that i feel scared of doing anything because it might not work. hay, after telling other people that everything is worth a shot, here i am not even wanting to try. I need to get a grip!
honestly, i'm just pretending to be doing something in the office. i hate that my boss is here. i feel as though that i'm so useless and pabigat to CCI. I was thinking of getting a new job (no matter how menial!) just to get out of this rut. Maybe in Starbucks or something like that. However, my main consideration is the money which is not that bad (considering that my job at the moment just consists of pretending to be busy in front of the PC, going to the CR, eating lunch, going to the CR, and leaving by 5pm).
i'm still in the Harry Potter craze: i had Chamber of Secrets and Sorcerer's Stone VCD copied. Damn...
I need some serious soul searching.
my past blogs have been about boredom. i guess it's because wala talagan direksyon ang buhay ko ngayon at wala rin akong ganang magka-direksyon ang buhay ko. am not tired. it's just that i feel scared of doing anything because it might not work. hay, after telling other people that everything is worth a shot, here i am not even wanting to try. I need to get a grip!
honestly, i'm just pretending to be doing something in the office. i hate that my boss is here. i feel as though that i'm so useless and pabigat to CCI. I was thinking of getting a new job (no matter how menial!) just to get out of this rut. Maybe in Starbucks or something like that. However, my main consideration is the money which is not that bad (considering that my job at the moment just consists of pretending to be busy in front of the PC, going to the CR, eating lunch, going to the CR, and leaving by 5pm).
i'm still in the Harry Potter craze: i had Chamber of Secrets and Sorcerer's Stone VCD copied. Damn...
I need some serious soul searching.
Monday, November 25, 2002
STILL BORED...
am not doing anything in the office. I took the day off yesterday and yet i didn't feel guilty at all. Gosh, I'm getting paid just to be physically in the office. I'm not really complaining. it gives me enough time to search for jobs in the internet, edit my resume and make application letters. however, it's boring me out of my wits. i mean, i would rather spend the day at home, waking up late and watching TV or reading every goddamn book at home. but no, i have to be here in the office and find ways to amuse myself. the appeal of surfing, checking and writing emails, blogs and egroups messages has lost some of its novelty.
i slept late again last night (good thing, migraine didn't attack). I read 3 chapters of HP3. Borrowed a copy from eric because i couldnt stand not reading it after watching HP2. i'm so stuck with harry potter that i even read a fan-written HP5! the writer based the story on the hints that Rowling gave out early this year, I think. It was quite amusing. The story might even come close to what Rowling will write. well, that remains to be seen. I watched HP2 with Jaja last week. Technically, I didn't really like it. The cinematography and the production set (s) weren't really impressive. And there wasn't even a great score to help the film! Masyadong flat ang "sounds" ng movie. Moreover, there could have been many seens na funny or cute but the film wasn't able to translate it. Also, Hermione was getting to be a cry-baby. I didn't like that. Radcliffe also needs to improve his acting skills because he's the star of the show. Unlike Hermione, Ron, and the rest who (I think) did justice to their roles. And Fawkes was way ugly and acted to "robotic". The climax in the book wasn't translated well in the film. It didn't feel like climax at all: wala masyadong visual and audio effects (except for the basilisk which was quite OK), plus it wasn't faithful to that particular scene in the book.
Of course, Im saying these because I constantly compare it to the quality of Lord of the Rings. But in fairness to the film, I liked the kitchen of the Weasly home. It was exactly as i pictured it in my mind when I was reading it (just a little darker in my mind though). At ang cute nung clock! Pero it didn't show Ron's room that was decorated with Quidditch posters. I also liked the Aragog scene. It looked real and the visual (for that scene) was great. Especially ung escape scene. Kadiri yung crawling spiders!!!! There were exaggerated scenes also: flying car and Harry almost falling out, Hermione making dramatics about being a mudblood, Hermione's cat look, moaning myrtle was kinda cute (unlike in the book), and the last scene with Dumboldore, Lucius, and Harry where Harry assured Lucius that he'll be there to 'save the day'. I mea, whoa, where did that come from?!?!? That wasn't in the book. It didn't give much appeal to the ending of the movie...
Oh well, we could just hope that the 3rd movie will be better, if not, that book five will be a better read than book 4.
enuf of this harry potter craze. have to pretend to do work... hay...
am not doing anything in the office. I took the day off yesterday and yet i didn't feel guilty at all. Gosh, I'm getting paid just to be physically in the office. I'm not really complaining. it gives me enough time to search for jobs in the internet, edit my resume and make application letters. however, it's boring me out of my wits. i mean, i would rather spend the day at home, waking up late and watching TV or reading every goddamn book at home. but no, i have to be here in the office and find ways to amuse myself. the appeal of surfing, checking and writing emails, blogs and egroups messages has lost some of its novelty.
i slept late again last night (good thing, migraine didn't attack). I read 3 chapters of HP3. Borrowed a copy from eric because i couldnt stand not reading it after watching HP2. i'm so stuck with harry potter that i even read a fan-written HP5! the writer based the story on the hints that Rowling gave out early this year, I think. It was quite amusing. The story might even come close to what Rowling will write. well, that remains to be seen. I watched HP2 with Jaja last week. Technically, I didn't really like it. The cinematography and the production set (s) weren't really impressive. And there wasn't even a great score to help the film! Masyadong flat ang "sounds" ng movie. Moreover, there could have been many seens na funny or cute but the film wasn't able to translate it. Also, Hermione was getting to be a cry-baby. I didn't like that. Radcliffe also needs to improve his acting skills because he's the star of the show. Unlike Hermione, Ron, and the rest who (I think) did justice to their roles. And Fawkes was way ugly and acted to "robotic". The climax in the book wasn't translated well in the film. It didn't feel like climax at all: wala masyadong visual and audio effects (except for the basilisk which was quite OK), plus it wasn't faithful to that particular scene in the book.
Of course, Im saying these because I constantly compare it to the quality of Lord of the Rings. But in fairness to the film, I liked the kitchen of the Weasly home. It was exactly as i pictured it in my mind when I was reading it (just a little darker in my mind though). At ang cute nung clock! Pero it didn't show Ron's room that was decorated with Quidditch posters. I also liked the Aragog scene. It looked real and the visual (for that scene) was great. Especially ung escape scene. Kadiri yung crawling spiders!!!! There were exaggerated scenes also: flying car and Harry almost falling out, Hermione making dramatics about being a mudblood, Hermione's cat look, moaning myrtle was kinda cute (unlike in the book), and the last scene with Dumboldore, Lucius, and Harry where Harry assured Lucius that he'll be there to 'save the day'. I mea, whoa, where did that come from?!?!? That wasn't in the book. It didn't give much appeal to the ending of the movie...
Oh well, we could just hope that the 3rd movie will be better, if not, that book five will be a better read than book 4.
enuf of this harry potter craze. have to pretend to do work... hay...
Thursday, November 14, 2002
BORING DAYS AHEAD
haven't been doing much in the office ever since i came back from vacation. but even though i'm not really busy, i still wish that i would not have to get up early in the morning and physically take my body to the office. if only i could afford to be a bum.
started my job-hunting already. i've been surfing the internet. haven't really gone walking around makati and submitting my CV, though. have to put more order into pa...
hay...
haven't been doing much in the office ever since i came back from vacation. but even though i'm not really busy, i still wish that i would not have to get up early in the morning and physically take my body to the office. if only i could afford to be a bum.
started my job-hunting already. i've been surfing the internet. haven't really gone walking around makati and submitting my CV, though. have to put more order into pa...
hay...
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
POST-VACATION HANG-OVER
didn't go to work last monday because I just flew in that day. tamad to go to office. jo went to manalac to get her stuff. chika-chika kami till late in the afternoon. just read harry potter. decided it's good to read the book again before watching the movie.
worked yday. couldn't get out of the office to fetch bucky from the airport because of frigging work. i forgot to bring the cheques for signing pa talaga so i had to go back to the office after dinner para mahabol ko kay lino who was teaching in APS. good thing traffic was not bad in makati ave and burgos.
missed bucky so much. was very excited to go home. had dinner in Hot pero cut short nga because had to rush back to the office. after the going-back-to-the-office-fast!-episode, we went back to the house for their inuman. calich and his girl were there. they kept on pestering him about their love story to no avail. joshur was also there. he ordered pizza for all, saying that it's ok to spend the money because it belonged to the taxpayers. he's working for congress now. (he's so fat, btw. and still with charmaine, for crying out loud. that girl must be blind). but in fairness, he look decent. i guess, he has to else, baka ipatapon sya ng security sa congress. slept ahead of everybody else. medyo tired coz woke up early to do some brisk walking. have to seriously loose weight. all my jeans are getting tight (halp!)!
didn't go to work last monday because I just flew in that day. tamad to go to office. jo went to manalac to get her stuff. chika-chika kami till late in the afternoon. just read harry potter. decided it's good to read the book again before watching the movie.
worked yday. couldn't get out of the office to fetch bucky from the airport because of frigging work. i forgot to bring the cheques for signing pa talaga so i had to go back to the office after dinner para mahabol ko kay lino who was teaching in APS. good thing traffic was not bad in makati ave and burgos.
missed bucky so much. was very excited to go home. had dinner in Hot pero cut short nga because had to rush back to the office. after the going-back-to-the-office-fast!-episode, we went back to the house for their inuman. calich and his girl were there. they kept on pestering him about their love story to no avail. joshur was also there. he ordered pizza for all, saying that it's ok to spend the money because it belonged to the taxpayers. he's working for congress now. (he's so fat, btw. and still with charmaine, for crying out loud. that girl must be blind). but in fairness, he look decent. i guess, he has to else, baka ipatapon sya ng security sa congress. slept ahead of everybody else. medyo tired coz woke up early to do some brisk walking. have to seriously loose weight. all my jeans are getting tight (halp!)!
CONTINUATION...
morning came as a respite. woke up at dawn and walked the shoreline of the whole island. we saw the sand at the other side of the island. according to residents, the sand moves around the island because of the current. It was smoother and powdier than the sand in the resort's shoreline. the sun was soft and the wind temp just right. after we made the full circle, we decided to see the lighthouse. to our frustration, the gate was locked and we couldn't climb over because of a guard-kambing protecting her baby kambings playing by the gate. hence, hindi kami nakaakyat. tired, sweaty, and hungry, we went back to the resort. good thing good, greasy breakfast was already set on tables along the shore. had a hearty meal. half an hour later, we went under water again. we partly saw the black forest then got swept by the current again. didn't see much but same corals and aquarium fish. it was nice though. forgot the name of dive spot. after the dive, ate again (as usual!) then got ready and packed up for panglao. we took the smaller navy boat. took about 30 minutes to get there. the shore was great (almost like boracay's) but the beach was not very good. ang daming weeds and sea-urchins. you wouldn't wanna go barefood wading in the water. we just rested for the whole afternoon, dipped in the water and waited for sun-set. then had a wonderful dinner of shell soup (yum!), grilled pusit, shrimps, chicken, atbp. super busog after the meal. we decided to walk along the shore. we found a great resort, Alona Palm Beach, at the end of the shoreline. kaya lang super expensive. it looked really classy and well, expensive. it looked its price. we also went to a resort with rooms for only P250 per night good for 2 pax. Ok naman but the shower is common. ok lang if backpacking talaga. slept early due to exhaustion. shared a room with bucky and his parents. 3 beds:one for parents, 1 for bucky and 1 for me. they didn't trust us to be in bed together. funny! as if we could do some hanky-panky together with them around! hahaha!
woke up early. bucky tried capturing the sunrise with his "angle" (he has this illusion that he can beat jake v. in his league...) had breakfast of dinner's tira-tira and bread. got ready for the dive in Pamilacan island. we had 2 dives there. we saw a school of barracudas on the 1st dive. my dive was cut short because of my bouyancy problem. toward the end of the dive, I couldn't help but slowly going above the rest of the group. i couldn't control my BCD so no choice but to go up. sayang ung air ko. as usual, bucky was the 1st one to run out of air so nag-picture taking na lang kami sa taas. the 2nd dive's highlight was when a huge fish bit chito in the knee. sobrang funny! chito and i were buddies for the 2nd dive. we were getting into this area of the big fish. suddenly, it just went up to us baring its teeth! yes, we saw the teeth. it bit chito sa left knee. as in baon sa flesh! i think it was about to attack me next. fortunately, the dive guide drove it away with its knife. we had no choice but to go against the current (which was very tiring). we were quite rattled after the incident (but in retrospect, it was really quite funny! imagine, of all things to happen!) the spot didn't have so much corals and fish because it was just a slope. unlike if wall, there are millions of things to look at. we were almost done with the dive when we saw a frog fish. rare daw un. it didn't look like a frog though. looked liked a black coral with white spots clinging desperately on a stone. there was a very big coral beneath our boat. we stayed there for a safety stop. meanwhile, we were chasing the fish around the coral. dan went up to get the underwater cam and went under again to take some pix. namee and i went with him. took pix of them underwater. bucky threw up after the dive. he didn't feel well because of his bad sinus. wawa nga e. he didn't enjoy it very much. the boat ride going back to pangloa was bumpy and took forever pa gyud. good thing lunch was great. we are starving. hardly said a word while eating. when were were almost done, we kept on joking about chito's fish-biting incident. all too soon, the vacation in Panglao had to end. hay, grudgingly packed my stuff and showered. promised to go back when there's time and money. got back in cebu port at around 6pm. went to the pier coz dan, namee and chito were all going back to cagayan. they planned to go to camiguin. buti pa si namee!
hay, the next day was the end of the great vacation. went to davao to visit mi familia and supervise my little bro's bday celeb. oh well, some good things have to end. pero i'll have other chances to go back there. excited na ako to plan for the next. the equipment was quite expensive. but all was worth it. i spent only P2.5K+ for 5 dives. lucky me. hehee.
morning came as a respite. woke up at dawn and walked the shoreline of the whole island. we saw the sand at the other side of the island. according to residents, the sand moves around the island because of the current. It was smoother and powdier than the sand in the resort's shoreline. the sun was soft and the wind temp just right. after we made the full circle, we decided to see the lighthouse. to our frustration, the gate was locked and we couldn't climb over because of a guard-kambing protecting her baby kambings playing by the gate. hence, hindi kami nakaakyat. tired, sweaty, and hungry, we went back to the resort. good thing good, greasy breakfast was already set on tables along the shore. had a hearty meal. half an hour later, we went under water again. we partly saw the black forest then got swept by the current again. didn't see much but same corals and aquarium fish. it was nice though. forgot the name of dive spot. after the dive, ate again (as usual!) then got ready and packed up for panglao. we took the smaller navy boat. took about 30 minutes to get there. the shore was great (almost like boracay's) but the beach was not very good. ang daming weeds and sea-urchins. you wouldn't wanna go barefood wading in the water. we just rested for the whole afternoon, dipped in the water and waited for sun-set. then had a wonderful dinner of shell soup (yum!), grilled pusit, shrimps, chicken, atbp. super busog after the meal. we decided to walk along the shore. we found a great resort, Alona Palm Beach, at the end of the shoreline. kaya lang super expensive. it looked really classy and well, expensive. it looked its price. we also went to a resort with rooms for only P250 per night good for 2 pax. Ok naman but the shower is common. ok lang if backpacking talaga. slept early due to exhaustion. shared a room with bucky and his parents. 3 beds:one for parents, 1 for bucky and 1 for me. they didn't trust us to be in bed together. funny! as if we could do some hanky-panky together with them around! hahaha!
woke up early. bucky tried capturing the sunrise with his "angle" (he has this illusion that he can beat jake v. in his league...) had breakfast of dinner's tira-tira and bread. got ready for the dive in Pamilacan island. we had 2 dives there. we saw a school of barracudas on the 1st dive. my dive was cut short because of my bouyancy problem. toward the end of the dive, I couldn't help but slowly going above the rest of the group. i couldn't control my BCD so no choice but to go up. sayang ung air ko. as usual, bucky was the 1st one to run out of air so nag-picture taking na lang kami sa taas. the 2nd dive's highlight was when a huge fish bit chito in the knee. sobrang funny! chito and i were buddies for the 2nd dive. we were getting into this area of the big fish. suddenly, it just went up to us baring its teeth! yes, we saw the teeth. it bit chito sa left knee. as in baon sa flesh! i think it was about to attack me next. fortunately, the dive guide drove it away with its knife. we had no choice but to go against the current (which was very tiring). we were quite rattled after the incident (but in retrospect, it was really quite funny! imagine, of all things to happen!) the spot didn't have so much corals and fish because it was just a slope. unlike if wall, there are millions of things to look at. we were almost done with the dive when we saw a frog fish. rare daw un. it didn't look like a frog though. looked liked a black coral with white spots clinging desperately on a stone. there was a very big coral beneath our boat. we stayed there for a safety stop. meanwhile, we were chasing the fish around the coral. dan went up to get the underwater cam and went under again to take some pix. namee and i went with him. took pix of them underwater. bucky threw up after the dive. he didn't feel well because of his bad sinus. wawa nga e. he didn't enjoy it very much. the boat ride going back to pangloa was bumpy and took forever pa gyud. good thing lunch was great. we are starving. hardly said a word while eating. when were were almost done, we kept on joking about chito's fish-biting incident. all too soon, the vacation in Panglao had to end. hay, grudgingly packed my stuff and showered. promised to go back when there's time and money. got back in cebu port at around 6pm. went to the pier coz dan, namee and chito were all going back to cagayan. they planned to go to camiguin. buti pa si namee!
hay, the next day was the end of the great vacation. went to davao to visit mi familia and supervise my little bro's bday celeb. oh well, some good things have to end. pero i'll have other chances to go back there. excited na ako to plan for the next. the equipment was quite expensive. but all was worth it. i spent only P2.5K+ for 5 dives. lucky me. hehee.
Saturday, November 09, 2002
BAKASAYON: the beginning of the end...
just got back from cebu yesterday for my bro's bday celeb. it was ok but i had migrane attack so i didn't enjoy it very much. my bro and his friends have grown. they've grown almost as tall as i am and their voices have gone deeper also. it's funny to see these children grow up and before you know it, matanda ka na talaga. we're at this age... nyahhh. don't want!!! (in a bratty-voice).
anyway, to recount my vacation: (lola's bday in leyte, yada, yada...)
fetched namee and dan at the airport. we went to Tropical Island to borrow diving gear. super cheap compared to other diving shops. had a little problem with the certificates coz bucky, namee and i are not certified divers yet. had to make an excuse para makahiram kami ng gear. buti na lang hindi peak season this november, at pinayagan kaming humiram. turns out that we were the only customers for the week. we even got a one-day discount because of bucky's kakulitan. close na kami sa clerk don. after dinner, we went to the casino. bucky and i didn't have any luck at the slot machine (at all!) so we drowned our expensive sorrow with a hearty sandwich and good talk at the hotel lobby. we didn't see pia there at the waterfront coz she was in leyte. got home at around 12mn. we still didn't want to sleep so nag-inuman muna kami sa house. we had red wine, then san mig light, then pilsen. naubusan e! we talked about the dorm, the people, what happened. the topic was especially hot on the CG, better known as the Cagayan Girls. Dan told us that he heard Batin having a boyfriend whom she lost her mind with: umalis sa parents at naki-pag-live-in po with the BF against the will of the parents. eventually they broke up, then she hooked up with another guy whom she dumped for the ex-boyfriend because the sex was way better. hmmm.... she's definitely gone places. as for the others, nothing much to hear really. we talked about moomoo's and ghost. bucky, dan, and namee are self-confessed chickens. ako, well, honestly, am not. namee suggested that we sleep with the boys because she was scared. she couldn't bear seeing me sound asleep tapos sya takot sa dilim. ok lang with me kasi aircon ung room nila, sa amin sa guest room hindi. slept at the floor though.
next day, had to wake up at friggin six am to fetch chito at the pier. tried to catch some sleep then we went to have lunch at the same SUTUKIL restaurant. it means SUgba, TUla, KILaw pala. kaya SUTUKIL. lima lang kami pero ang dami naming kinain!!! i was so full we had to do some walking around the Lapu-lapu shrine. funny, turista talaga ang mga dating namin. picture-taking galore! went to shangrila-mactan again to show namee and dan the place. it was so hot so we decided to cut the trip short and then visit plantation bay na. the place was nice but i liked shang better. their pools were weird: man-made lagoons na mukhang pool na hindi. it was too... weird for my taste. at least sa shang it's either a real pool or the real beach. nothing in between. anywez... visited dive shop again to rent some additional equipment. buti na lang chito is certified na, so lalong naging confident un clerk (si laura) sa amin. went to ayala to have some mirienda at the harbor city. it's this chinese resto na super cheap and super good food. even if busog na nga ako, kumain pa rin. it was then that i felt a little dizzy. i was scared of having a stroke because of all the aligi i ate for lunch. pero wala naman. baka impatcho lang, ang takaw kasi. bought some stuff at the grocery store and then went home for dinner (kain na naman!)prepared for next day's departure. could hardly sleep because of the excitement.
woke up at around 530am to pack stuff. so excited. had breakfast pa so got to the pier at around 645 na. left at around 720. the boat ride to Balicasag was about 3 hours. we took the rubber to the island coz the boat was too big to cross the shore. the place was great. the atmosphere was like in SSI: beach was not crowded, lots of trees. there's only one resort there. we got us 2 rooms. According to the lonely planet guidebook, it costs about P2K+ per night. whew... we ate a little before the 1st dive. had to go back up the air to change my mask because the one i borrowed was leaking and i didnt want to clear my mask underwater. I got my buddy's which was was great for leaks but not for equalizing. nagawan ko naman ng paraan. the current was so strong that we didn't see much of our drop-off point. nagpa-drift na lang kami with the current. it was great. ang ganda sa ilalim. after the momentary eeriness of just hearing yourself breathing underwater, everything went ok. there was a very big school of talakitok, ang daming lapu-lapu and mol-mol, and of course the ever present clown fish. there were also different kinds of corals. the water wasn't very clear kasi maraming plankton na lumilipad-lipad. after the dive, it felt weird being on land again. i felt a little dizzy and sick in the stomach. felt better though after we had a hearty lunch of grilled pork, fish. after an hour of rest and gearing up, we had our 2nd dive. i felt more calm and confident in the 2nd dive. finally saw a lion-fish and more mol-mol and talakitok and lapu-lapu. there were more aquarium fish on the 2nd than in the 1st. mas marami but smaller. dinner was great! sobrang gutom after every dive! After the sumptuous dinner, washed up and got ready for bed. sobrang tired. my friends, however, had another idea. against my very sleepy and tired brain, i played pekwa with them. was barely thinking while playing. could barely sleep. ang init!!!!
just got back from cebu yesterday for my bro's bday celeb. it was ok but i had migrane attack so i didn't enjoy it very much. my bro and his friends have grown. they've grown almost as tall as i am and their voices have gone deeper also. it's funny to see these children grow up and before you know it, matanda ka na talaga. we're at this age... nyahhh. don't want!!! (in a bratty-voice).
anyway, to recount my vacation: (lola's bday in leyte, yada, yada...)
fetched namee and dan at the airport. we went to Tropical Island to borrow diving gear. super cheap compared to other diving shops. had a little problem with the certificates coz bucky, namee and i are not certified divers yet. had to make an excuse para makahiram kami ng gear. buti na lang hindi peak season this november, at pinayagan kaming humiram. turns out that we were the only customers for the week. we even got a one-day discount because of bucky's kakulitan. close na kami sa clerk don. after dinner, we went to the casino. bucky and i didn't have any luck at the slot machine (at all!) so we drowned our expensive sorrow with a hearty sandwich and good talk at the hotel lobby. we didn't see pia there at the waterfront coz she was in leyte. got home at around 12mn. we still didn't want to sleep so nag-inuman muna kami sa house. we had red wine, then san mig light, then pilsen. naubusan e! we talked about the dorm, the people, what happened. the topic was especially hot on the CG, better known as the Cagayan Girls. Dan told us that he heard Batin having a boyfriend whom she lost her mind with: umalis sa parents at naki-pag-live-in po with the BF against the will of the parents. eventually they broke up, then she hooked up with another guy whom she dumped for the ex-boyfriend because the sex was way better. hmmm.... she's definitely gone places. as for the others, nothing much to hear really. we talked about moomoo's and ghost. bucky, dan, and namee are self-confessed chickens. ako, well, honestly, am not. namee suggested that we sleep with the boys because she was scared. she couldn't bear seeing me sound asleep tapos sya takot sa dilim. ok lang with me kasi aircon ung room nila, sa amin sa guest room hindi. slept at the floor though.
next day, had to wake up at friggin six am to fetch chito at the pier. tried to catch some sleep then we went to have lunch at the same SUTUKIL restaurant. it means SUgba, TUla, KILaw pala. kaya SUTUKIL. lima lang kami pero ang dami naming kinain!!! i was so full we had to do some walking around the Lapu-lapu shrine. funny, turista talaga ang mga dating namin. picture-taking galore! went to shangrila-mactan again to show namee and dan the place. it was so hot so we decided to cut the trip short and then visit plantation bay na. the place was nice but i liked shang better. their pools were weird: man-made lagoons na mukhang pool na hindi. it was too... weird for my taste. at least sa shang it's either a real pool or the real beach. nothing in between. anywez... visited dive shop again to rent some additional equipment. buti na lang chito is certified na, so lalong naging confident un clerk (si laura) sa amin. went to ayala to have some mirienda at the harbor city. it's this chinese resto na super cheap and super good food. even if busog na nga ako, kumain pa rin. it was then that i felt a little dizzy. i was scared of having a stroke because of all the aligi i ate for lunch. pero wala naman. baka impatcho lang, ang takaw kasi. bought some stuff at the grocery store and then went home for dinner (kain na naman!)prepared for next day's departure. could hardly sleep because of the excitement.
woke up at around 530am to pack stuff. so excited. had breakfast pa so got to the pier at around 645 na. left at around 720. the boat ride to Balicasag was about 3 hours. we took the rubber to the island coz the boat was too big to cross the shore. the place was great. the atmosphere was like in SSI: beach was not crowded, lots of trees. there's only one resort there. we got us 2 rooms. According to the lonely planet guidebook, it costs about P2K+ per night. whew... we ate a little before the 1st dive. had to go back up the air to change my mask because the one i borrowed was leaking and i didnt want to clear my mask underwater. I got my buddy's which was was great for leaks but not for equalizing. nagawan ko naman ng paraan. the current was so strong that we didn't see much of our drop-off point. nagpa-drift na lang kami with the current. it was great. ang ganda sa ilalim. after the momentary eeriness of just hearing yourself breathing underwater, everything went ok. there was a very big school of talakitok, ang daming lapu-lapu and mol-mol, and of course the ever present clown fish. there were also different kinds of corals. the water wasn't very clear kasi maraming plankton na lumilipad-lipad. after the dive, it felt weird being on land again. i felt a little dizzy and sick in the stomach. felt better though after we had a hearty lunch of grilled pork, fish. after an hour of rest and gearing up, we had our 2nd dive. i felt more calm and confident in the 2nd dive. finally saw a lion-fish and more mol-mol and talakitok and lapu-lapu. there were more aquarium fish on the 2nd than in the 1st. mas marami but smaller. dinner was great! sobrang gutom after every dive! After the sumptuous dinner, washed up and got ready for bed. sobrang tired. my friends, however, had another idea. against my very sleepy and tired brain, i played pekwa with them. was barely thinking while playing. could barely sleep. ang init!!!!
Friday, November 01, 2002
BAKASYONISTA: TYPING IN CEBU (with prospective in-laws, nyaiks)
arrived here at oct30 about 3pm.
bucky had Mabuhay tickets so i had to wait for him finish eating. funny coz he wrapped some pika-pika in paper napkins and gave them to me. i felt so pobre.
the 1st night was fun. looked at old albums of bucky and his family. at around 10pm i was bored stiff talking to bucky and his mom about their lives. (bad...) it was however punctuated with anticipation because his dad told us that we were going to Mactan Shangri-la overnight for free. Many of the freebies his dad gets for seemingly protecting the place. Bucky's dad placed a team of navy men at the hotel mismo. the place was nice. the pool was great. medyo pangit ang beach. just dead stones and a lot of green stuff. we went into the water late afternoon na coz it was so sunny. Had dinner at the SUTUKIL (just outside the Mactan shrine with more-than-life-size statue of the half-naked Lapu-Lapu(the man)) restaurants where you choose any kind seafood, from king crabs, prawns, tingol, molmol, lapu-lapu, shells, etc. and let them cook the way you want it. GRABE, busog. ang daming food. the food was medyo expensive but the catch was fresh and everything was cooked great. Sarap, yum-yum. went back to the hotel and walked around the pool for a while. that's where i saw carlos agassi. he was wearing only board shorts. ang laki ng katawan nya. kaya lang tisoy so hindi ko type. he asked me about the water polo thing. talked for about 15 seconds and then i decided to change into my swimsuit to burn the dinner and of course, to see more of the artista. syet, baduy talaga. niloloko nga ako ni bucky pero game naman sya. even though closing time na ang pool, naligo pa rin kami. funny. after taking a shower, we ordered dessert and watched tv. walay silbi and pag-swimming. bawi dayon sa halo2. eventually slept at around 12mn. next day, took a dip both at the pool and the beach. twas so hot. have tanlines coz forgot to put on some sunblock. super fun. great place and food. should be back there sometime when lotsa money na. P5700+ for locals
gave mommy-in-law-to-be a massage. whew. got tired...
sent letter of termination to DOST already. they should be able to reply by Tuesday. I hope so. If not, I'll call them from here.
arrived here at oct30 about 3pm.
bucky had Mabuhay tickets so i had to wait for him finish eating. funny coz he wrapped some pika-pika in paper napkins and gave them to me. i felt so pobre.
the 1st night was fun. looked at old albums of bucky and his family. at around 10pm i was bored stiff talking to bucky and his mom about their lives. (bad...) it was however punctuated with anticipation because his dad told us that we were going to Mactan Shangri-la overnight for free. Many of the freebies his dad gets for seemingly protecting the place. Bucky's dad placed a team of navy men at the hotel mismo. the place was nice. the pool was great. medyo pangit ang beach. just dead stones and a lot of green stuff. we went into the water late afternoon na coz it was so sunny. Had dinner at the SUTUKIL (just outside the Mactan shrine with more-than-life-size statue of the half-naked Lapu-Lapu(the man)) restaurants where you choose any kind seafood, from king crabs, prawns, tingol, molmol, lapu-lapu, shells, etc. and let them cook the way you want it. GRABE, busog. ang daming food. the food was medyo expensive but the catch was fresh and everything was cooked great. Sarap, yum-yum. went back to the hotel and walked around the pool for a while. that's where i saw carlos agassi. he was wearing only board shorts. ang laki ng katawan nya. kaya lang tisoy so hindi ko type. he asked me about the water polo thing. talked for about 15 seconds and then i decided to change into my swimsuit to burn the dinner and of course, to see more of the artista. syet, baduy talaga. niloloko nga ako ni bucky pero game naman sya. even though closing time na ang pool, naligo pa rin kami. funny. after taking a shower, we ordered dessert and watched tv. walay silbi and pag-swimming. bawi dayon sa halo2. eventually slept at around 12mn. next day, took a dip both at the pool and the beach. twas so hot. have tanlines coz forgot to put on some sunblock. super fun. great place and food. should be back there sometime when lotsa money na. P5700+ for locals
gave mommy-in-law-to-be a massage. whew. got tired...
sent letter of termination to DOST already. they should be able to reply by Tuesday. I hope so. If not, I'll call them from here.
Monday, October 28, 2002
Saturday, October 26, 2002
RANDOM THOUGHTS on a LONELY SATURDAY NIGHT.
want to learn taichi. i need a new kind of exercise and a way to relax my brain. i'm getting kinda bored with jogging.
nothing good on TV.
jaja, nina, and kuya mike went to sang-kalayuang Taft to eat at Becky's (?). wanted to go with them but budget (or the lack of it) forced me stay within the perimeter of my house (that includes PP) and eat at Hot. wasn't quite satisfied with the sisig. went home sleepy. must be the effect of sebo creeping into my brain and my whole system.
pau slept here last night. she came from Manila Penn and wanted to go straight to the airport. she went home to bacolod today. we ate at north park. i had a craving for Tai Pao but i didn't order. weirda. so, i still have an uncured craving for tai pao. shit.
i only have P90 in my wallet. i was very tempted to use my credit card. BUT NO. baka sobrang akong mabaon sa utang. that's bad.
bucky and i were talking about what kind of business we want to get into. rather, we should get into. hmmm... ang hirap isipin. hindi pa puedeng diligan ko na lang ung pera tapos, tutubo na lang sya. i'll talk to it pa every morning. but no, hindi sya tulad ng halaman, my dear... you have to invest it somewhere. maybe in dollars or in Tbills. ang hirap sa stocks din kasi the market is so unpredictable. puedeng food business pero you gotta have a strong niche there and it has to have a fast ROI. kung sa estate naman, puede din... still don't know. the business world is definitely gonna change in the next 5-10 years. i wonder what people will need? so that we could make some good bucks out of it.
ang tagal pa ng 10:30. i wanna watch go to believe. boston public is still on air. arg. don't like that show. too much teenage angst, makes me feel sorry for them.
ok, tired of typing out loud...
want to learn taichi. i need a new kind of exercise and a way to relax my brain. i'm getting kinda bored with jogging.
nothing good on TV.
jaja, nina, and kuya mike went to sang-kalayuang Taft to eat at Becky's (?). wanted to go with them but budget (or the lack of it) forced me stay within the perimeter of my house (that includes PP) and eat at Hot. wasn't quite satisfied with the sisig. went home sleepy. must be the effect of sebo creeping into my brain and my whole system.
pau slept here last night. she came from Manila Penn and wanted to go straight to the airport. she went home to bacolod today. we ate at north park. i had a craving for Tai Pao but i didn't order. weirda. so, i still have an uncured craving for tai pao. shit.
i only have P90 in my wallet. i was very tempted to use my credit card. BUT NO. baka sobrang akong mabaon sa utang. that's bad.
bucky and i were talking about what kind of business we want to get into. rather, we should get into. hmmm... ang hirap isipin. hindi pa puedeng diligan ko na lang ung pera tapos, tutubo na lang sya. i'll talk to it pa every morning. but no, hindi sya tulad ng halaman, my dear... you have to invest it somewhere. maybe in dollars or in Tbills. ang hirap sa stocks din kasi the market is so unpredictable. puedeng food business pero you gotta have a strong niche there and it has to have a fast ROI. kung sa estate naman, puede din... still don't know. the business world is definitely gonna change in the next 5-10 years. i wonder what people will need? so that we could make some good bucks out of it.
ang tagal pa ng 10:30. i wanna watch go to believe. boston public is still on air. arg. don't like that show. too much teenage angst, makes me feel sorry for them.
ok, tired of typing out loud...
Friday, October 25, 2002
Thursday, October 24, 2002
MAC: PROSPECTIVE ROOMMIE
Tanichi or tan wants a place near Etelecare where she works. She gets ubber tired commuting. besides delikado ang mga busses ngayon. tapos her friggin shift is like 11pm-7am. she wanted to leave her place ASAP coz the her roommate/s want to get the whole place on his/her/their own (according to Gen2 na sabi ni Jaja). Plus, she's having problems with the 2 months deposit and advance thingie. I told her that we won't let her pay advance if ever kasi di naman tayo nagpapa-sublease, diba? She liked it, i think. Kaya lang I told her na to look for a place na malapit na sa etelecare. kasi kung sa atin, same story lang. she hasn't called/texted yet. let's hope that daddyo discloses her exact plan na so that we can consequently plan our lives also. hopefully, eyos will still not find a place to stay by the time daddyo leaves.
uy, kelan tayo kakain dun sa indie place???????
Tanichi or tan wants a place near Etelecare where she works. She gets ubber tired commuting. besides delikado ang mga busses ngayon. tapos her friggin shift is like 11pm-7am. she wanted to leave her place ASAP coz the her roommate/s want to get the whole place on his/her/their own (according to Gen2 na sabi ni Jaja). Plus, she's having problems with the 2 months deposit and advance thingie. I told her that we won't let her pay advance if ever kasi di naman tayo nagpapa-sublease, diba? She liked it, i think. Kaya lang I told her na to look for a place na malapit na sa etelecare. kasi kung sa atin, same story lang. she hasn't called/texted yet. let's hope that daddyo discloses her exact plan na so that we can consequently plan our lives also. hopefully, eyos will still not find a place to stay by the time daddyo leaves.
uy, kelan tayo kakain dun sa indie place???????
FREAKIN BOSSES (!&@%#@&^#&@&&!!!!!)
was preparing the report for tomorrow. they slashed most of it. well, bahala sila sa buhay nila. i'll just be there to push the mouse button and document the proceedings. Bahala silang mag-explain ng kung anu-ano. Nakakainis. Sila naman ang magre-report e. di naman ako. hmp. i'm quitting this rat hole na talaga. period. well, not until i find a new job. gosh, i just hope that we'll get a 14th month pay. para maka-out-of-the country ako. (inis-inis...)
anyway, am so excited to go to CEBU!!!!! we're going to Malapascua. it's a beach like the White Beach in Boracay daw. SO FRIGGING EXCITED!!!! 5 days na lang. I told my parents about it naman via email. they haven't responded. hope na hindi naman sila magtampo that i'll be staying longer in Cebu than in Davao! Kasi naman the original plan was I'm only going home to Davao on onchie's birthday. And then this balungan confirmed the beach outing in Cebu. Tuloy, hindi na umabot ang free ticket ko. I had to use my card to buy a ticket. well, bucky is not paying for my ticket pala.... but told mom and dad na he did para hindi magtampo na pera ko pa ang ginamit ko. (tapos hindi daw ako uuwi sa all souls'/saints' day kasi magastos... bad daughter)
mac's blog has a new look.
gotta work.
was preparing the report for tomorrow. they slashed most of it. well, bahala sila sa buhay nila. i'll just be there to push the mouse button and document the proceedings. Bahala silang mag-explain ng kung anu-ano. Nakakainis. Sila naman ang magre-report e. di naman ako. hmp. i'm quitting this rat hole na talaga. period. well, not until i find a new job. gosh, i just hope that we'll get a 14th month pay. para maka-out-of-the country ako. (inis-inis...)
anyway, am so excited to go to CEBU!!!!! we're going to Malapascua. it's a beach like the White Beach in Boracay daw. SO FRIGGING EXCITED!!!! 5 days na lang. I told my parents about it naman via email. they haven't responded. hope na hindi naman sila magtampo that i'll be staying longer in Cebu than in Davao! Kasi naman the original plan was I'm only going home to Davao on onchie's birthday. And then this balungan confirmed the beach outing in Cebu. Tuloy, hindi na umabot ang free ticket ko. I had to use my card to buy a ticket. well, bucky is not paying for my ticket pala.... but told mom and dad na he did para hindi magtampo na pera ko pa ang ginamit ko. (tapos hindi daw ako uuwi sa all souls'/saints' day kasi magastos... bad daughter)
mac's blog has a new look.
gotta work.
Tuesday, October 22, 2002
TIRED BRAIN
fucking clients. why are they so demanding. grabe. napa-praning na naman ako. we're supposed to do a presentation on the summary of what happened for NESTLE. my brain is bleeding inside. ayoko na. resolve not to work from this minute till tomorrow.
Need to look for money so that I can fucking DOST for my tuition and fees last sem. garsh. at least hindi ako matatali sa kanila for the next year. I have yet to tell DOST that I'm quitting for a while.
Need to look for a part-time job. Need moolah!!!
fucking clients. why are they so demanding. grabe. napa-praning na naman ako. we're supposed to do a presentation on the summary of what happened for NESTLE. my brain is bleeding inside. ayoko na. resolve not to work from this minute till tomorrow.
Need to look for money so that I can fucking DOST for my tuition and fees last sem. garsh. at least hindi ako matatali sa kanila for the next year. I have yet to tell DOST that I'm quitting for a while.
Need to look for a part-time job. Need moolah!!!
Sunday, October 20, 2002
BOSS NOT AROUND
i don't have anyone to look over my work so i'm doing useless stuff. in fairness, i did the Nestle stuff first before doing this. besides, i can't work without Rachel and Lino's inputs.
watched that GLOBE adventure in GMA last night. what a stupid show.
ang sakit ng katawan ko from cleaning the whole house. ow...
going to cebu and davao this break! yipee! i already applied for a leave. originally dapat for davao lang ang leave ko. but bucky invited to go diving in Bohol and Cebu. so on the last minute, i decided to go with him! this might be the last chance that I can go diving na free. Bucky's dad is retiring on January. Im so excited. i need the break! going home on nov 7 before onchie's bday. i wonder if i can still buy the PS2 cd he wants. garsh, might have to battle greenhills mob. for the 1st time since onchie turned 6 yrs old, i'll be able to attend his bday party (if he's having any). nagtampo naman ang bata. i can't bear the thought na he'll carry that grudge against me till he goes past adolescence. baka magkaroon ng issues (like his ate... )
mom and dad very supportive of my decision to go LOA. i will have to ask JPV about the nuances of such a process. i'm presenting my (jordan's) program this afternoon. yikes!
gotta make JOB-HUNTING Program for myself.
i don't have anyone to look over my work so i'm doing useless stuff. in fairness, i did the Nestle stuff first before doing this. besides, i can't work without Rachel and Lino's inputs.
watched that GLOBE adventure in GMA last night. what a stupid show.
ang sakit ng katawan ko from cleaning the whole house. ow...
going to cebu and davao this break! yipee! i already applied for a leave. originally dapat for davao lang ang leave ko. but bucky invited to go diving in Bohol and Cebu. so on the last minute, i decided to go with him! this might be the last chance that I can go diving na free. Bucky's dad is retiring on January. Im so excited. i need the break! going home on nov 7 before onchie's bday. i wonder if i can still buy the PS2 cd he wants. garsh, might have to battle greenhills mob. for the 1st time since onchie turned 6 yrs old, i'll be able to attend his bday party (if he's having any). nagtampo naman ang bata. i can't bear the thought na he'll carry that grudge against me till he goes past adolescence. baka magkaroon ng issues (like his ate... )
mom and dad very supportive of my decision to go LOA. i will have to ask JPV about the nuances of such a process. i'm presenting my (jordan's) program this afternoon. yikes!
gotta make JOB-HUNTING Program for myself.
Saturday, October 19, 2002
RESTFUL WEEKEND
After i have finally decided to quit school for now made me feel so... FREE. parang ang gaan sa dibdib, na wala akong ibang iniisip. I'm actually looking forward to job hunting. I have to make a strategy for that pa...
consequently, i'm enjoying a very restful weekend. no worries. i even cleaned the whole house yesterday. they were all gone. sumakit ang katawan ko. pero ok lang. at least maaliwalas ang feeling. i heard mass with bucky and ate at outback. i felt the need to celebrate and congratulate myself for knowing when to back down.
i came home and slept well. after a long, long time...
After i have finally decided to quit school for now made me feel so... FREE. parang ang gaan sa dibdib, na wala akong ibang iniisip. I'm actually looking forward to job hunting. I have to make a strategy for that pa...
consequently, i'm enjoying a very restful weekend. no worries. i even cleaned the whole house yesterday. they were all gone. sumakit ang katawan ko. pero ok lang. at least maaliwalas ang feeling. i heard mass with bucky and ate at outback. i felt the need to celebrate and congratulate myself for knowing when to back down.
i came home and slept well. after a long, long time...
Thursday, October 17, 2002
DEAR MOM & DAD...
i wrote to my parents about taking a leave-of absence and terminating my DOST scholarship. I hope they reply ASAP so i know what they think. given that, i have resolved to look for a job and help my parents with the house.
I feel as though nabunutan ako ng tinik. I just admit this now: I have been scared shit when I took the DOST scholarship. Somehow, I knew that it wasn't right but I still went on with it, hoping that my doubts would disappear. Now that I'm looking at the situation with a clearer mind and less fearful heart, I think I will not have any regrets. I was enlightened by what Pau emailed me:
"Life is full of winning and losing and also full of challenges. It doesn't matter if you lose.. if you live for yourself, then that is truly LIFE.
Some people refuse to accept the truth and to start again, thus they end up losing more and more in life. In the end, nothing can be done to bring back what they lost. If you are losing in your life now, don't continue letting yourself lose more than what you did. Put a stop to that situation and do not be afraid to start from scratch.
Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
People say that I just wasted 2.5 years of my life working in a small and struggling company and studying for a degree that I won't finish naman. Well, maybe I did. That's why I will not prolong it anymore. I think quitting school and seriously looking for a job will put an end to that "wasting of my life". I think I can pursue my Masters when I can afford it na. As of now, there are just too many restraining forces. My only regret is that I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone, face the insecurity of being unemployed or being rejected by companies. I have to face these fears so that I will know how to overcome them.
Hay, writing this makes me feel older. But al least, wala nang tinik at bigat sa loob. I can plan my life ahead and move on.
Hmmm.... this week has been a "moving on" phase for me. Hurrah!
i wrote to my parents about taking a leave-of absence and terminating my DOST scholarship. I hope they reply ASAP so i know what they think. given that, i have resolved to look for a job and help my parents with the house.
I feel as though nabunutan ako ng tinik. I just admit this now: I have been scared shit when I took the DOST scholarship. Somehow, I knew that it wasn't right but I still went on with it, hoping that my doubts would disappear. Now that I'm looking at the situation with a clearer mind and less fearful heart, I think I will not have any regrets. I was enlightened by what Pau emailed me:
"Life is full of winning and losing and also full of challenges. It doesn't matter if you lose.. if you live for yourself, then that is truly LIFE.
Some people refuse to accept the truth and to start again, thus they end up losing more and more in life. In the end, nothing can be done to bring back what they lost. If you are losing in your life now, don't continue letting yourself lose more than what you did. Put a stop to that situation and do not be afraid to start from scratch.
Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
People say that I just wasted 2.5 years of my life working in a small and struggling company and studying for a degree that I won't finish naman. Well, maybe I did. That's why I will not prolong it anymore. I think quitting school and seriously looking for a job will put an end to that "wasting of my life". I think I can pursue my Masters when I can afford it na. As of now, there are just too many restraining forces. My only regret is that I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone, face the insecurity of being unemployed or being rejected by companies. I have to face these fears so that I will know how to overcome them.
Hay, writing this makes me feel older. But al least, wala nang tinik at bigat sa loob. I can plan my life ahead and move on.
Hmmm.... this week has been a "moving on" phase for me. Hurrah!
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
LIFE's A BITCH.
I. gotta problem with my DOST scholarship. i opted for Independent Project instead of the real thesis for MS. pukinangina. i'm anticipating that DOST will not allow me to proceed. bitch. If I change my project in mid-year, i might have to extend till May talaga. arg. i would have to search for a thesis topic and do the same hoopla again. arg. arg. well, at least my parents agreed to be my benefactors for next sem if ever i decide to study full time. just hoping that i'll finish the courses next sem and then proceed with thesis subject until 1st sem next year. arg. arg.
what i need to do:
1) review IP proposal
2) send to DOST for approval
3) if disapprove, meet them, talk to Ms. Reena, adviser
4) if approve, review timeline of IP, start activities
II. daddyo is moving out soon. no exact date yet. but he's moving out. meaning, bigger rent (until we find new roommate), no ref (!), no more daddyo-stuff (pliers, electrical tape, etc). i wonder if randy is indeed planning to move in with us when he starts studying. also, i wonder when he'll start going to school, yada, yada.
III. Star-shows won't be aired na.
hay ang hirap maging matanda...
at least hindi ako homeless, or jobless, or boyless... (mga pang-kunsuelo de bobo)
enuf.
I. gotta problem with my DOST scholarship. i opted for Independent Project instead of the real thesis for MS. pukinangina. i'm anticipating that DOST will not allow me to proceed. bitch. If I change my project in mid-year, i might have to extend till May talaga. arg. i would have to search for a thesis topic and do the same hoopla again. arg. arg. well, at least my parents agreed to be my benefactors for next sem if ever i decide to study full time. just hoping that i'll finish the courses next sem and then proceed with thesis subject until 1st sem next year. arg. arg.
what i need to do:
1) review IP proposal
2) send to DOST for approval
3) if disapprove, meet them, talk to Ms. Reena, adviser
4) if approve, review timeline of IP, start activities
II. daddyo is moving out soon. no exact date yet. but he's moving out. meaning, bigger rent (until we find new roommate), no ref (!), no more daddyo-stuff (pliers, electrical tape, etc). i wonder if randy is indeed planning to move in with us when he starts studying. also, i wonder when he'll start going to school, yada, yada.
III. Star-shows won't be aired na.
hay ang hirap maging matanda...
at least hindi ako homeless, or jobless, or boyless... (mga pang-kunsuelo de bobo)
enuf.
Monday, October 14, 2002
SABI NG FRIEND KO...
sabi nya sa kin minsan...
alam mo..alam mo, araw araw iisipin mo, may pagkakataon kang gawin ang kahit
anuman na gusto mo. para sumaya ka. kahit pagod ka o kahit andaming problema
sa paligid mo, isipin mo na kaya mo at magiging masaya ka. gawin mo lang gusto
mo sa araw na iyon. hindi mo na maibabalik ang nangyari. lahat ng magagawa
mo, gawin mo. lahat ng gusto mong tuparin. dapat masaya ka ngayon. hindi
kanina, hindi mamaya. ngayon.
iba na namang araw bukas.
sabi nya sa kin minsan...
alam mo..alam mo, araw araw iisipin mo, may pagkakataon kang gawin ang kahit
anuman na gusto mo. para sumaya ka. kahit pagod ka o kahit andaming problema
sa paligid mo, isipin mo na kaya mo at magiging masaya ka. gawin mo lang gusto
mo sa araw na iyon. hindi mo na maibabalik ang nangyari. lahat ng magagawa
mo, gawin mo. lahat ng gusto mong tuparin. dapat masaya ka ngayon. hindi
kanina, hindi mamaya. ngayon.
iba na namang araw bukas.
CLOSURE. (...medyo private. context of the entry below to be disclosed in the near future)
Micharl is here in Manila. He called so that we could meet up in PP. Honestly, I felt kilig, then kaba. I mean, after all these years of not having to really forget what he did (or did not do, for that matter) and the pain I consequently felt, I had every right to feel that way. Unwittingly or not, all these years, the two poles of TAPOS NA and FUCK THAT ASSHOLE have been pulling me in both directions.
I was a nervous wreck on my way to PP. I asked myself "what the hell am I doing?!?!?" But whadapack, papunta na ako (in fairness, normal office clothes, not vengeful-beauty-clothes). We met at Mongkok. good thing his cousins were in the restaurant. They were nice and came from Davao too. We talked about the old times, of how he punched me because he lost to my team in the play of "shatong" and how i threw a stone at him because he punched me, how he can't hide his true age from me, how I can't believe that he doesn't have a girl (maybe not "a girl" but "girlsss").
Somewhere between feeling awkward and feeling relieved to see that he did not stay the same as the dream-of-a-hunk I so desired, I realized how futile and tiring it was to keep on being mad at him, or anyone for that matter. After a while, I even felt happy that he's here and I was talking to him like a real friend.
They wanted to watch a movie but I had to go home to study for my finals. His cousin took a picture of us. He put his arms on my shoulder... and i let him. Just like old times. I said goodbye. I went and did not look back.
Micharl is here in Manila. He called so that we could meet up in PP. Honestly, I felt kilig, then kaba. I mean, after all these years of not having to really forget what he did (or did not do, for that matter) and the pain I consequently felt, I had every right to feel that way. Unwittingly or not, all these years, the two poles of TAPOS NA and FUCK THAT ASSHOLE have been pulling me in both directions.
I was a nervous wreck on my way to PP. I asked myself "what the hell am I doing?!?!?" But whadapack, papunta na ako (in fairness, normal office clothes, not vengeful-beauty-clothes). We met at Mongkok. good thing his cousins were in the restaurant. They were nice and came from Davao too. We talked about the old times, of how he punched me because he lost to my team in the play of "shatong" and how i threw a stone at him because he punched me, how he can't hide his true age from me, how I can't believe that he doesn't have a girl (maybe not "a girl" but "girlsss").
Somewhere between feeling awkward and feeling relieved to see that he did not stay the same as the dream-of-a-hunk I so desired, I realized how futile and tiring it was to keep on being mad at him, or anyone for that matter. After a while, I even felt happy that he's here and I was talking to him like a real friend.
They wanted to watch a movie but I had to go home to study for my finals. His cousin took a picture of us. He put his arms on my shoulder... and i let him. Just like old times. I said goodbye. I went and did not look back.
AAANNNNGGGGGST.....
kainis. i wasn't able to post my blog last night because the computer stopped. Wala lang trip nya lang... ARG!
what happened to me today:
1) slept like 330am because i had to study the program that i did not make, which i have to make a defense/presentation on. good thing the program works beautifully.
2) meeting with my JPV. naasiwa ako coz i haven't submitted my program pa...
3) submitted jordan's program. I need to set up a meeting with him to present it
4) micharl is here. he invited me to go out tonight sa may san beda area. i wanted to go at first pero decided against it. too far, too late, too busy, too in love with another guy......! (charing!) funny, kinabahan pa rin ako at kinilig ng konti. pero wala na talaga. as in WALA.
gotta wrap up work.
kainis. i wasn't able to post my blog last night because the computer stopped. Wala lang trip nya lang... ARG!
what happened to me today:
1) slept like 330am because i had to study the program that i did not make, which i have to make a defense/presentation on. good thing the program works beautifully.
2) meeting with my JPV. naasiwa ako coz i haven't submitted my program pa...
3) submitted jordan's program. I need to set up a meeting with him to present it
4) micharl is here. he invited me to go out tonight sa may san beda area. i wanted to go at first pero decided against it. too far, too late, too busy, too in love with another guy......! (charing!) funny, kinabahan pa rin ako at kinilig ng konti. pero wala na talaga. as in WALA.
gotta wrap up work.
Friday, October 11, 2002
Thursday, October 10, 2002
Thursday, October 03, 2002
RANDOM, SCATTERED THOUGHTS...
hmmm... good girl today. did lotsa work and bitched some slow-moving people in the office.
gosh. need to DO my program!!!!!!
bucky went to admu at 12mn last night to line up for game 3 tickets. personally, i found it absurd. but he really wanted to go. so i stood by my man. (and he stood for me... ehehe...) i hope he got 2 tickets. if not, i'll be stuck home to watch it in TV. i might not go to moro to watch coz i need the time to make my project. i slept so early last night because i was tired from my trip going back here. i swore to wake up at around 4am to do my project. of course, my sleep got extended till 5 am. wala din naman akong nagawa masyado, coz i had no idea wat to do. i need to talk to lange about this project and maybe beg him to assist me. for the last time... nahihiya na ako...
strangely though... that i don't feel scared or anything. i feel like things will turn out right even if eveything seems so hard these days. i'm not even shedding weight because of stress. in fact, i'm getting fat!!!!! AGAIN! napapasabay kasi ang kain ko with bucky e ...
geezz.... mac grudgingly went to glorietta to breathe in some fresh, cool air. medyo hindi nya raw ma-take sa house. in times like these, what i do is just go to my room. hindi naman umaabot e... or sometimes i open the door and let the stench blow out. pero minsan, hindi kaya. I resolve to buy lysol and air freshener tonight...
hmmm... good girl today. did lotsa work and bitched some slow-moving people in the office.
gosh. need to DO my program!!!!!!
bucky went to admu at 12mn last night to line up for game 3 tickets. personally, i found it absurd. but he really wanted to go. so i stood by my man. (and he stood for me... ehehe...) i hope he got 2 tickets. if not, i'll be stuck home to watch it in TV. i might not go to moro to watch coz i need the time to make my project. i slept so early last night because i was tired from my trip going back here. i swore to wake up at around 4am to do my project. of course, my sleep got extended till 5 am. wala din naman akong nagawa masyado, coz i had no idea wat to do. i need to talk to lange about this project and maybe beg him to assist me. for the last time... nahihiya na ako...
strangely though... that i don't feel scared or anything. i feel like things will turn out right even if eveything seems so hard these days. i'm not even shedding weight because of stress. in fact, i'm getting fat!!!!! AGAIN! napapasabay kasi ang kain ko with bucky e ...
geezz.... mac grudgingly went to glorietta to breathe in some fresh, cool air. medyo hindi nya raw ma-take sa house. in times like these, what i do is just go to my room. hindi naman umaabot e... or sometimes i open the door and let the stench blow out. pero minsan, hindi kaya. I resolve to buy lysol and air freshener tonight...
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
am in tagaytay again. for the nth time. this will be my 2nd to the last time. grabe!!!! ayoko na dito!!!
i need to process (ASAP) my mind, heart, soul what my priority as of now is: work or studies. It's been quite a while that i have been debating with myself what is more practical. so many thoughts. pero i need to keep it at bay. i have so many things (more urgent things: school, work).
God, lilet is on TV. She's 28 yrs old pero she still thinks and answers like a 19 yr old. sorry, di ko sya feel.
Still not done with Java project. arg.
still have red spots.
hmmm... did we get tickets kaya. Bucky was supposed to go early in Araneta to buy tickets. Sold-out daw kanina. Joshur lined up around 4am. Unbelievable!
i need to process (ASAP) my mind, heart, soul what my priority as of now is: work or studies. It's been quite a while that i have been debating with myself what is more practical. so many thoughts. pero i need to keep it at bay. i have so many things (more urgent things: school, work).
God, lilet is on TV. She's 28 yrs old pero she still thinks and answers like a 19 yr old. sorry, di ko sya feel.
Still not done with Java project. arg.
still have red spots.
hmmm... did we get tickets kaya. Bucky was supposed to go early in Araneta to buy tickets. Sold-out daw kanina. Joshur lined up around 4am. Unbelievable!
Sunday, September 29, 2002
GAME 2
We lost. 8-point lead. In retrospect, I think we lost because LaSalle had their confidence back. I eat my words that we had the psychological advantage. Maybe we did. But the Archers entered the court prepared and hungry. Ang bilis tumakbo ng score nila 1st quarter pa lang. On the other had, the Eagles had a slow start. There were too many errors (turn-over, free throw) during the 2nd quarter. 3rd quarter came with the Archers gaining 20-ish advantage. Naghabol pa tayo. Pero in fairness to the Eagles, nakahabol naman. Hindi lang nasustain.
Honestly, I don't think we will win on Saturday. We have lesser chances. But like I said, I will stand by my school and my team, no questions, no doubts. WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE.
DERMA
Still having derma problems... arg.
We lost. 8-point lead. In retrospect, I think we lost because LaSalle had their confidence back. I eat my words that we had the psychological advantage. Maybe we did. But the Archers entered the court prepared and hungry. Ang bilis tumakbo ng score nila 1st quarter pa lang. On the other had, the Eagles had a slow start. There were too many errors (turn-over, free throw) during the 2nd quarter. 3rd quarter came with the Archers gaining 20-ish advantage. Naghabol pa tayo. Pero in fairness to the Eagles, nakahabol naman. Hindi lang nasustain.
Honestly, I don't think we will win on Saturday. We have lesser chances. But like I said, I will stand by my school and my team, no questions, no doubts. WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE.
DERMA
Still having derma problems... arg.
Friday, September 27, 2002
DERMA PROBLEMS
i'm having an allergy attack. it started last night, tiny red spots sprinkled on my skin. it's not itchy but it's kinda frightening. looks like German measles. Still don't know when to go to the doctor. Didn't get my CT scan results pa. Now, this... What could be next? Malaria???
CHAMPIONSHIP GAME 2
shux!!!!!!!!! this could be the year. I do not want to rely on my guts but we have bigger odds in winning game 2 because we won game 1. I dunno how that makes sense but for the team, it feels right. Kasi, they have a very big psychological advantage. Parang the players can tell themselves na KAYA TALAGA NILA. They can take and beat LaSalle anytime. Higher confidence, hence, higher chances of believing that they can win the game. LaSalle players on the other hand, is riddled with doubt. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila to assure themselves that they can win game2, the point is, THEY HAVE DOUBT. That's all it takes to crumble a strong team. They wouldn't admit it, pero i'm sure kinakabahan na sila. Even if aminin ko pa na they are the better players in terms of skills and maturity, they are doubting they play and maybe even themselves right now. The EAGLES have to make sure, however, that they give their heart into the game sa start pa lang. If not, babalik ang confidence ng LaSalle. Baka hindi makahabol if they let the archers take a big lead.
HORRIFIC TICKET-CLAIM EXPERIENCE
Thursday - reservations for game2. bucky's bro reserved for himself, bucky, me and wong. UpperB. Most in line made reservations last thursday. from what i heard, people lined up last thursday 5am just to get good tickets. upperA wiped out.
Saturday - 7:30 am. The dingy, age-old university athletics office hallway was packed with alumni who desperately want to get hold of tickets for game 2. the office was open but nobody was inside. there were no clear instructions. people had different versions of how to claim the tickets. people started to get their tickets but mayhem was starting to boil inside the office. Capistrano was nowhere in sight. when i got in to inquire about the procedure, the staff people assigned were so confused with the listssss (there were 3 stapled yellow-pad all starting with Num1 - geez, so how do they control the actual number of tickets that they can give for a particular box????) there was a line for those who reserved personally and a different line for those who reserved through the phone. People couldn't find their names on the lists, some people got other people's tickets, even those without reservations at all were able to get tickets!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN' UNFAIR. A mommy was shouting about corruption and palakasan. She even threatened the poor staff that the press/media is going to know about what happened. she complained that kung wala kang kilalang Jesuit or hindi ka nagbigay ng malaking pera or nag-sponsor ng building, hindi ka mabibigyan ng magandang tickets. (TRUE, TRUE...) In her anger, she swore never to watch any of the remaining Ateneo games.
WALANG SISTEMA. HOW HARD COULD IT BE TO MAKE A SYSTEM THAT WILL WORK FOR EVERYBODY'S ADVANTAGE. I'm doubting tuloy if the University Athletics Management can still do its job effectively and efficiently. Ateneo graduate naman si Mr. Capistrano di ba? SO WHY THIS STUPIDITY?
i'm having an allergy attack. it started last night, tiny red spots sprinkled on my skin. it's not itchy but it's kinda frightening. looks like German measles. Still don't know when to go to the doctor. Didn't get my CT scan results pa. Now, this... What could be next? Malaria???
CHAMPIONSHIP GAME 2
shux!!!!!!!!! this could be the year. I do not want to rely on my guts but we have bigger odds in winning game 2 because we won game 1. I dunno how that makes sense but for the team, it feels right. Kasi, they have a very big psychological advantage. Parang the players can tell themselves na KAYA TALAGA NILA. They can take and beat LaSalle anytime. Higher confidence, hence, higher chances of believing that they can win the game. LaSalle players on the other hand, is riddled with doubt. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila to assure themselves that they can win game2, the point is, THEY HAVE DOUBT. That's all it takes to crumble a strong team. They wouldn't admit it, pero i'm sure kinakabahan na sila. Even if aminin ko pa na they are the better players in terms of skills and maturity, they are doubting they play and maybe even themselves right now. The EAGLES have to make sure, however, that they give their heart into the game sa start pa lang. If not, babalik ang confidence ng LaSalle. Baka hindi makahabol if they let the archers take a big lead.
HORRIFIC TICKET-CLAIM EXPERIENCE
Thursday - reservations for game2. bucky's bro reserved for himself, bucky, me and wong. UpperB. Most in line made reservations last thursday. from what i heard, people lined up last thursday 5am just to get good tickets. upperA wiped out.
Saturday - 7:30 am. The dingy, age-old university athletics office hallway was packed with alumni who desperately want to get hold of tickets for game 2. the office was open but nobody was inside. there were no clear instructions. people had different versions of how to claim the tickets. people started to get their tickets but mayhem was starting to boil inside the office. Capistrano was nowhere in sight. when i got in to inquire about the procedure, the staff people assigned were so confused with the listssss (there were 3 stapled yellow-pad all starting with Num1 - geez, so how do they control the actual number of tickets that they can give for a particular box????) there was a line for those who reserved personally and a different line for those who reserved through the phone. People couldn't find their names on the lists, some people got other people's tickets, even those without reservations at all were able to get tickets!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN' UNFAIR. A mommy was shouting about corruption and palakasan. She even threatened the poor staff that the press/media is going to know about what happened. she complained that kung wala kang kilalang Jesuit or hindi ka nagbigay ng malaking pera or nag-sponsor ng building, hindi ka mabibigyan ng magandang tickets. (TRUE, TRUE...) In her anger, she swore never to watch any of the remaining Ateneo games.
WALANG SISTEMA. HOW HARD COULD IT BE TO MAKE A SYSTEM THAT WILL WORK FOR EVERYBODY'S ADVANTAGE. I'm doubting tuloy if the University Athletics Management can still do its job effectively and efficiently. Ateneo graduate naman si Mr. Capistrano di ba? SO WHY THIS STUPIDITY?
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
BLUE-BLOODED
I will go Araneta today and watch GAME 1. Win or lose, I will stand by the school that has shaped me. I will believe, not in the few players who choose to be scared, but in those players who, even in the last second, choose to believe in God, in themselves, and in what his teammates can do.
Win or lose, I say to every Lasallite: We will be there every year to topple you down. Whether we succeed in each attempt or not is immaterial. What matters is that WE WILL BE THERE. We will be the constant thorn in your shoes that you cannot and will not ignore. We will hold our heads high. WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS.
I will go Araneta today and watch GAME 1. Win or lose, I will stand by the school that has shaped me. I will believe, not in the few players who choose to be scared, but in those players who, even in the last second, choose to believe in God, in themselves, and in what his teammates can do.
Win or lose, I say to every Lasallite: We will be there every year to topple you down. Whether we succeed in each attempt or not is immaterial. What matters is that WE WILL BE THERE. We will be the constant thorn in your shoes that you cannot and will not ignore. We will hold our heads high. WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS.
Chiquie's dad died yesterday. i went to the wake this evening with Mark, Rap, and Rica. Some of my dormmates were there: Dino, Bobet, Typ2, Denise and BF, JJ, Jonex. It was nice to see them again, but in a very sad occasion. Chiquie looked OK naman.
Celebreties were there too: Mark Nelson (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), patricia javier, jose marie chan.
some politicians and businessmen were there too. pau's cousin, alexin, was there with very short hair.
tapos when we dropped rica at her place we saw ex and lara.
it was a 'dorm' night for me (more likely dawn, we went home around 12mn na).
GAME ONE TOMORROW. I'm trying to believe...
Celebreties were there too: Mark Nelson (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), patricia javier, jose marie chan.
some politicians and businessmen were there too. pau's cousin, alexin, was there with very short hair.
tapos when we dropped rica at her place we saw ex and lara.
it was a 'dorm' night for me (more likely dawn, we went home around 12mn na).
GAME ONE TOMORROW. I'm trying to believe...
Monday, September 23, 2002
------ Ur bDay mOnTh & U --------
JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve Social abilities
Easily jealous
Very Stubborn
FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions
MARCH
Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assesses others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves traveling
Loves attention
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically Talented
Loves special things
Moody
APRIL
Active and dynamic
Decisive and haste but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm Standpoint
Needs no motivation
Easily consoled
Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves traveling
Dislike being at home
Restless
Not having many children
Hardworking
High spirited
Spendthrift
JUNE
Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom shows emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
JULY
Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concerned about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sparkly
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Caring and loving
Treats others equally
Strong sense of sympathy
Wary and sharp
Judges people through observations
Hardworking
No difficulties in studying
Loves to be alone
Always broods about the past and the old friends
Likes to be quiet
Homely person
Waits for friends
Never looks for friends
Not aggressive unless provoked
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
Loves to be loved
Easily hurt but takes long to recover
AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rusty
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising, Careful, cautious and
organized, Likes to point
out people's mistakes, Likes to criticize, Quiet but
able to talk well,
Calm
and cool, Kind and sympathetic, Concerned and
detailed, Trustworthy,
loyal
and honest, Does work well, Very confident, Sensitive,
Thinking,
Generous,
Good memory, Clever and knowledgeable, Loves to look
for information,
Must
control oneself when criticizing, Able to motivate
oneself,
Understanding,
Fun to be around, Secretive, Loves sports, leisure and
traveling,
Hardly
shows emotions, Tends to bottle up feelings, Choosy
especially in
relationships, Loves wide things, Systematic
OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the center
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Daydreamer
Opinionated. Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive. Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic. Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence
Loves children
NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable
DECEMBER
Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Take high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical
JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve Social abilities
Easily jealous
Very Stubborn
FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions
MARCH
Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assesses others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves traveling
Loves attention
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically Talented
Loves special things
Moody
APRIL
Active and dynamic
Decisive and haste but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm Standpoint
Needs no motivation
Easily consoled
Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves traveling
Dislike being at home
Restless
Not having many children
Hardworking
High spirited
Spendthrift
JUNE
Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom shows emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
JULY
Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concerned about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sparkly
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Caring and loving
Treats others equally
Strong sense of sympathy
Wary and sharp
Judges people through observations
Hardworking
No difficulties in studying
Loves to be alone
Always broods about the past and the old friends
Likes to be quiet
Homely person
Waits for friends
Never looks for friends
Not aggressive unless provoked
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
Loves to be loved
Easily hurt but takes long to recover
AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rusty
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising, Careful, cautious and
organized, Likes to point
out people's mistakes, Likes to criticize, Quiet but
able to talk well,
Calm
and cool, Kind and sympathetic, Concerned and
detailed, Trustworthy,
loyal
and honest, Does work well, Very confident, Sensitive,
Thinking,
Generous,
Good memory, Clever and knowledgeable, Loves to look
for information,
Must
control oneself when criticizing, Able to motivate
oneself,
Understanding,
Fun to be around, Secretive, Loves sports, leisure and
traveling,
Hardly
shows emotions, Tends to bottle up feelings, Choosy
especially in
relationships, Loves wide things, Systematic
OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the center
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Daydreamer
Opinionated. Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive. Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic. Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence
Loves children
NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable
DECEMBER
Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Take high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical
Thursday, September 19, 2002
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
ESCAPE c/o joannalyn
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: NAH. I PUKE A LOT BUT EVERYTIME I DO, THINGS BECOME MORE VIVID...
* Missed school B/coz it was raining: ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IT'S RAINING. I MISSED THE FEELING OF BEING IN MY ROOM IN THE DORM AND STARE OUT THE RAINDROPS KISSING THE LEAVES...
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: NOPE. IM NOT LIKE THIS PYROMANIAC-OF-A-SPROUT (TAMA BA SPELLING) I USED TO KNOW WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE
* Been hurt emotionally: OH, YEAH...
* Kept a secret from everyone: UHUMMMM
* Had an imaginary friend: NOPE. IMAGINARY SELF/ALTER EGO(S), YES. LOTSSSSSS.... THAT'S WHY SOMETIMES PEOPLE CATCH ME TALKING TO MYSELF. THEY DON'T KNOW THAT ITS MY OTHER SELVES... (MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER BA????)
* Cried during a Movie: GOSH, LOTS!
* Had a crush on a teacher: YES. MY HISTORY TEACHER IN 4TH YR HIGH SCHOOL. SUPER INFATUATION...
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: YEAHHH.... GAMBIT! eeeeeee!!!!!
* Had a New Kids on the Block tape: NOPE. NOT MUCH OF AN AUDIO CD COLLECTOR. VCDs AKO
* Been on stage: YUP. I HATED IT.
* Cut your hair: JUST MY BANGS. IT GOT SO SHORT, IT LOOKED LIKE A DEAD RAT HANGING ON MY FOREHEAD...
------------------FavORITES------------------
*Shampoo: PANTENE
* Soap: IVORY OR ANY SHOWER GEL (FAVORITE IS BODY SHOP MINT)
*Color: ANY SHADE OF RED, ORANGE, YELLOW, and NEUTRALS
* Day/Night: SUNRISE AND 4-5PM
* Summer/Winter: UMUULAN PERO NOT TOO MUCH
* Lace or satin: OK LANG BOTH
* Fave cartoon Characters: TIGGER
* Fave Food: JUNK, BALUT, SOUR GREEN APPLES, CHOCOLATES
* Fave Advert:
* Fave Movie: EVER AFTER
* Fave Ice Cream flavor: DOUBLE DUTCH, DURIAN
*Fave Subject: BIOLOGY, GENERAL SCIENCE, SOCIAL STUDIES
* Fave 'normal' Drink: TANG POMELO JUICE
* Fave Persons to talk to online: BUCKY
----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
*Wearing: JEANS & PAMBAHAY TEE
* Hair is: SHORT & TIED WITH A BARETTE
* I'm feeling: TIRED BUT OK
*Eating : JUNK
* Drinking: H20
* Thinking about: THIS BLOG (AND ON THE SIDE: THINGS THAT I SHOULD REALLY BE DOING RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT...)
* Listening to: HUMMING OF AIRCON
* Talking to: MYSELF
*Cried: A LONG TIME AGO
* wearing a skirt: NOPE
* Met someone new: YEP. DIFFERENT PARTICIPANTS FOR WORK EVERY TUE FOR WHOLE OF SEPTEMBER
*Cleaned your room: YEP. WEEKEND
* Done laundry: YES
* Drove a car: DON'T DRIVE
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
*Yourself: OF COURSE
* Your friends: THOSE WHO ARE CLOSE TO ME...
*Santa Claus: THE TRUE IDEA THAT HE REPRESENTS, YES.
*Tooth Fairy: NOPE. MY DAD JUST YANKS THEM OUT WITHOUT ANY INCENTIVE EXCEPT ICE CANDY...
* Destiny/Fate: MOST OF THE TIME, NO
* Angels: MAYBE
*Ghosts: YES. BUT I'M GENERALLY NOT SCARED OF THEM. I JUST LET THEM BE IF THEY ARE THERE TALAGA.
*UFO's: TO SOME DEGREE YES ("IF WE'RE THE ONLY ONES IN THIS UNIVERSE, THERE'S AN AWFUL WASTE OF SPACE....")
-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: ONE REAL BOYFRIEND (4.5 YRS), TOO MANY I-WISH-HE-WAS-MY-BOYFRIEND, MANY GIRLFRIENDS...
*Like anyone?: A LOT!
* Who's the loudest : I AGREE WITH JAJA: DINO (AND ONE OF THE MOST ANNOYING TOO!)
*Who's the shyest: EX, PSYCHE
* Who's the weirdest:
*Who do you go to for advice: JA, PAU, BUCKY, MOM
* When you cried the most: FOR THE WHOLE MONTHS OF APRIL AND MAY BEFORE I CAME TO MANILA FOR COLLEGE. (BECAUSE MICHARL DIDN'T EVEN TALK TO ME. THE ASSHOLE...)
* What's the best feeling in the world: WHEN ITS RAINING AND GRAY OUTSIDE, TAPOS IM INSIDE THE HOUSE, READING A BOOK OR WRITING IN MY JOURNAL, OR WATCHING A MOVIE
* Worst feeling: HELPLESSNESS
hah! done...
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: NAH. I PUKE A LOT BUT EVERYTIME I DO, THINGS BECOME MORE VIVID...
* Missed school B/coz it was raining: ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IT'S RAINING. I MISSED THE FEELING OF BEING IN MY ROOM IN THE DORM AND STARE OUT THE RAINDROPS KISSING THE LEAVES...
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: NOPE. IM NOT LIKE THIS PYROMANIAC-OF-A-SPROUT (TAMA BA SPELLING) I USED TO KNOW WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE
* Been hurt emotionally: OH, YEAH...
* Kept a secret from everyone: UHUMMMM
* Had an imaginary friend: NOPE. IMAGINARY SELF/ALTER EGO(S), YES. LOTSSSSSS.... THAT'S WHY SOMETIMES PEOPLE CATCH ME TALKING TO MYSELF. THEY DON'T KNOW THAT ITS MY OTHER SELVES... (MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER BA????)
* Cried during a Movie: GOSH, LOTS!
* Had a crush on a teacher: YES. MY HISTORY TEACHER IN 4TH YR HIGH SCHOOL. SUPER INFATUATION...
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: YEAHHH.... GAMBIT! eeeeeee!!!!!
* Had a New Kids on the Block tape: NOPE. NOT MUCH OF AN AUDIO CD COLLECTOR. VCDs AKO
* Been on stage: YUP. I HATED IT.
* Cut your hair: JUST MY BANGS. IT GOT SO SHORT, IT LOOKED LIKE A DEAD RAT HANGING ON MY FOREHEAD...
------------------FavORITES------------------
*Shampoo: PANTENE
* Soap: IVORY OR ANY SHOWER GEL (FAVORITE IS BODY SHOP MINT)
*Color: ANY SHADE OF RED, ORANGE, YELLOW, and NEUTRALS
* Day/Night: SUNRISE AND 4-5PM
* Summer/Winter: UMUULAN PERO NOT TOO MUCH
* Lace or satin: OK LANG BOTH
* Fave cartoon Characters: TIGGER
* Fave Food: JUNK, BALUT, SOUR GREEN APPLES, CHOCOLATES
* Fave Advert:
* Fave Movie: EVER AFTER
* Fave Ice Cream flavor: DOUBLE DUTCH, DURIAN
*Fave Subject: BIOLOGY, GENERAL SCIENCE, SOCIAL STUDIES
* Fave 'normal' Drink: TANG POMELO JUICE
* Fave Persons to talk to online: BUCKY
----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
*Wearing: JEANS & PAMBAHAY TEE
* Hair is: SHORT & TIED WITH A BARETTE
* I'm feeling: TIRED BUT OK
*Eating : JUNK
* Drinking: H20
* Thinking about: THIS BLOG (AND ON THE SIDE: THINGS THAT I SHOULD REALLY BE DOING RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT...)
* Listening to: HUMMING OF AIRCON
* Talking to: MYSELF
*Cried: A LONG TIME AGO
* wearing a skirt: NOPE
* Met someone new: YEP. DIFFERENT PARTICIPANTS FOR WORK EVERY TUE FOR WHOLE OF SEPTEMBER
*Cleaned your room: YEP. WEEKEND
* Done laundry: YES
* Drove a car: DON'T DRIVE
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
*Yourself: OF COURSE
* Your friends: THOSE WHO ARE CLOSE TO ME...
*Santa Claus: THE TRUE IDEA THAT HE REPRESENTS, YES.
*Tooth Fairy: NOPE. MY DAD JUST YANKS THEM OUT WITHOUT ANY INCENTIVE EXCEPT ICE CANDY...
* Destiny/Fate: MOST OF THE TIME, NO
* Angels: MAYBE
*Ghosts: YES. BUT I'M GENERALLY NOT SCARED OF THEM. I JUST LET THEM BE IF THEY ARE THERE TALAGA.
*UFO's: TO SOME DEGREE YES ("IF WE'RE THE ONLY ONES IN THIS UNIVERSE, THERE'S AN AWFUL WASTE OF SPACE....")
-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: ONE REAL BOYFRIEND (4.5 YRS), TOO MANY I-WISH-HE-WAS-MY-BOYFRIEND, MANY GIRLFRIENDS...
*Like anyone?: A LOT!
* Who's the loudest : I AGREE WITH JAJA: DINO (AND ONE OF THE MOST ANNOYING TOO!)
*Who's the shyest: EX, PSYCHE
* Who's the weirdest:
*Who do you go to for advice: JA, PAU, BUCKY, MOM
* When you cried the most: FOR THE WHOLE MONTHS OF APRIL AND MAY BEFORE I CAME TO MANILA FOR COLLEGE. (BECAUSE MICHARL DIDN'T EVEN TALK TO ME. THE ASSHOLE...)
* What's the best feeling in the world: WHEN ITS RAINING AND GRAY OUTSIDE, TAPOS IM INSIDE THE HOUSE, READING A BOOK OR WRITING IN MY JOURNAL, OR WATCHING A MOVIE
* Worst feeling: HELPLESSNESS
hah! done...
so far my blogs have been, well, about my angst (aptly titled naman...) pero strangeness coz i feel a little lighter these days kahit na super tadtad ako sa trabaho and sa school and sa other activities pa. siguro phase lang talaga un. sometimes you're happy, sometimes you feel down right bummed out with life... right now, im just happy to be alive and to be in such a quiet and i-want-to-meditate-place.
there are jobs in p&g but im thinking of not applying muna. sometimes, we need to let opportunities pass so that we can see the bigger picture. before, i was scared of not being able to experience life to the fullest so i end up doing so many things all at the same time. kaya ako na-burn out. now, i'm thinking that it's time to focus on the important goals that i have set for myself....
napaka-serious naman nitong blog ko...
hmmm.... i wonder if i want people to see my blog.... jaja and mac have tag boards...
there are jobs in p&g but im thinking of not applying muna. sometimes, we need to let opportunities pass so that we can see the bigger picture. before, i was scared of not being able to experience life to the fullest so i end up doing so many things all at the same time. kaya ako na-burn out. now, i'm thinking that it's time to focus on the important goals that i have set for myself....
napaka-serious naman nitong blog ko...
hmmm.... i wonder if i want people to see my blog.... jaja and mac have tag boards...
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