LETTING GO
The fist step to letting go is accepting the mistake. Whether the other party or one's own, it has to be acknowledged.
My mistake has been being too short-sighted. And selfish.
I was too intent on my pain that I refused to think about what the other person was feeling. For all I knew, the other person's pain was far greater than mine.
And so I have to forgive myself and let go. We make mistakes. But life goes on. We carry on. Hopefully becoming better persons because of our mistakes.
Hopefully.
Friday, July 07, 2006
NOT-SO-VITAL STATISTICS
I have gained soooooooo much weight. I'm bursting out of my jeans, shirts, undies, and what-have-you. And i refuse to shop for new clothes as it will not motivate me to force myself to fit into my now-tight wardrobe. I need the motivation. I need to lose weight. FAST.
So, starting this week, I tried a modified South Beach-Oprah diet: less carbs/starches and more lean meat, fish, and veggies. I'm mortified to be without fruits, so I still eat fruits daily. My current favorite is half-pineapple sprinkled with a little salt.
Also starting this week, I did at least 30-minute cardio exercises everyday. I only rested last Thursday. But I walked from the office all the way home, which is a 30-minute walk, so I guess that counted.
I've also made a promise to myself that my measurements would go down. So here's the baseline (never mind that the whole cyberworld will be privy to such private details. Nonetheless, like I said, I need the motivation. This shall keep me in line:
Left Right
Upper Arm 11 " 11" ----------> problem area!!!
Lower Arm 9.5" 9.5"
Upper Thighs 21" 21.5" ---------> problem area!!!
Lower Thighs 17.5" 17.5"
Calves 13.4" 13"
Waist 27"
Navel 30"
Lower Abdomen 33.2" -----------> problem area!!!!
Hips/Ass 35.5"
Weight 120 lbs ---------> problem area!!!
Inches were added to practically every part of my body. Except my frigging boobs. Oh well, they're God's gifts, so might as well be happy.
Will be checking next week if there is any progress. If none, I'll be forced to resort to appetite-reducing-metabolism-accelerator pills. I swear.
I am a woman with a mission.
I have gained soooooooo much weight. I'm bursting out of my jeans, shirts, undies, and what-have-you. And i refuse to shop for new clothes as it will not motivate me to force myself to fit into my now-tight wardrobe. I need the motivation. I need to lose weight. FAST.
So, starting this week, I tried a modified South Beach-Oprah diet: less carbs/starches and more lean meat, fish, and veggies. I'm mortified to be without fruits, so I still eat fruits daily. My current favorite is half-pineapple sprinkled with a little salt.
Also starting this week, I did at least 30-minute cardio exercises everyday. I only rested last Thursday. But I walked from the office all the way home, which is a 30-minute walk, so I guess that counted.
I've also made a promise to myself that my measurements would go down. So here's the baseline (never mind that the whole cyberworld will be privy to such private details. Nonetheless, like I said, I need the motivation. This shall keep me in line:
Left Right
Upper Arm 11 " 11" ----------> problem area!!!
Lower Arm 9.5" 9.5"
Upper Thighs 21" 21.5" ---------> problem area!!!
Lower Thighs 17.5" 17.5"
Calves 13.4" 13"
Waist 27"
Navel 30"
Lower Abdomen 33.2" -----------> problem area!!!!
Hips/Ass 35.5"
Weight 120 lbs ---------> problem area!!!
Inches were added to practically every part of my body. Except my frigging boobs. Oh well, they're God's gifts, so might as well be happy.
Will be checking next week if there is any progress. If none, I'll be forced to resort to appetite-reducing-metabolism-accelerator pills. I swear.
I am a woman with a mission.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Disappointments
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Just half into the year, and it is already riddled with disappointments:
A friend has deeply hurt me. And I have deeply hurt her.
My trip to SG was cancelled.
I did not get the post I felt I deserved to get.
There are some things I was in control. Others, most, I did not. And so I sulk here. Feeling the pain and loss. Hoping that in letting myself go through this, things will pass. Just like everything else.
im trying to live with disappointments and the thought and guilt that i've hurt some people i love. some things are hard to forget. some things are forever lost.
But i try to see what i still have and be happy.
I've still got Bucky and his love,
my family,
my friends and their support in believing that I didn't deserve to be hurt.
I still have my life and a chance to prove myself.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Just half into the year, and it is already riddled with disappointments:
A friend has deeply hurt me. And I have deeply hurt her.
My trip to SG was cancelled.
I did not get the post I felt I deserved to get.
There are some things I was in control. Others, most, I did not. And so I sulk here. Feeling the pain and loss. Hoping that in letting myself go through this, things will pass. Just like everything else.
im trying to live with disappointments and the thought and guilt that i've hurt some people i love. some things are hard to forget. some things are forever lost.
But i try to see what i still have and be happy.
I've still got Bucky and his love,
my family,
my friends and their support in believing that I didn't deserve to be hurt.
I still have my life and a chance to prove myself.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Atenista! *BLAG* (plagiarized -and some- from Mac’s blog)
(X) admire the marikina valley at night - Every night. So many couples have come together and said goodbye in this spot.
(X) go drinking along Katipunan - every Friday and Saturday. Like clockwork. Drink to the brink at Tias, pre & post grad gulps at Gills? Kung wala pa ang allowance, sa MJD.
(X) learn how to beg for a higher grade - Never.
(X) use your cuts wisely - Just cut. Period.
( ) volunteer to be class beadle - NO, I will not be a slave and teacher’s pet.
(X) had the worst lottery schedule for reg - Thus, I got Mariano for Philo, which turned to be a blessing; got Capistrano AGAIN for an ME elective, which turned out OK because my Math 11 grade turned out OK.
(X) admire the trees on campus - Everyday. Yep, everyday. Even during summer, with all the fiery red blossoms.
(X) have forgotten about your free cut and gone to that class - at least malapit lang ang dorm.
(X) eat in the ISO canteen - para lang di ako kumain sa Cervini Caf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( ) be active in your org - I was neck-deep with CERSA, that I just existed as a member (in paper) in my other college orgs.
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it - Nope…
(X) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair - Like it helped.
(X) learn how to cram - Inevitable.
(X) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere - OO NAMAN. LECHENG CABLE GUY. --- Korek!
(X) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes - I think I made my own notes. Helped me memorize all that had to be memorized.
( ) have accidentally seen a make-out session - damn, I missed out on this… pero I’ve heard. And not accidentally. Thanks to the very masugid Blue Guards.
(X) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge - Site of many an Eliazoan's debut, etc. etc.
(X) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa - Spanish class. Summer. 2pm. I slept right through my C+.
(X) learn how to work with groupmates from hell - Group mates???? What groupmates?????
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus - Park what?
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus - They’re usually nice to girls, so I wouldn’t know.
(X) develop a love for sisig - I never new this kind of artery-clogging dish existed before I came to ADMU…
(x) learn how to pronounce “AEGIS” properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library - Typing rooms?
(X) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
(X) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella
(X) have used consultation hours properly - for Philo, ME/CS electives
(X) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn’t break any equipment - Oh yes! Lab breakage fee & dorm breakage fee. Of course, Mom and Dad didn’t know about this.
(X) visit the Guidance Officerequired and for processing of a horrendous “slashing accident” of a friend.
(X) and Infirmary - I constantly had psycho-somatic bowel disorders, so…
(X) learn to swear in different dialects - LINTE!
(X) ran in the rain (even storm) without a care in the world.
This brought a wave of nostagia.
When we were young and carefree, OK lang mag-cut, masaya kahit walang pera o kotse o kahit nasa OM lang or nasa pool dahil sobrang init sa dorm, maglalasingan kahit di na makatayo or may pasok o paper due kinabukasan at umuwi sa dorm sa kalagitnaan ng madaling araw, manilip sa cervini for that certain cute guy using binoculars, maligo sa ulan, maligo sa covered courts kasi walang tubig sa dorm, makakuha ang 10/100 sa Math11, manligaw, maligawan, magmahal, masaktan, tumawa, malito, umiyak at matumba pero ok lang, find true friends, bumangon, mag-graduate na luhuan sa tuwa at sa lungkot...
the best 4 years of my life.
As an Atenenean (pronounced by the soe-sy ones and mocking ones as Arnean), I:
(X) eat at Manang’s - Pork chop! + magic suka (still mysterious up to this day) + patis = yum, nothing like it. Soup of the day – Munggo! I crave for these even after 6 years of officially saying goodbye
(X) learn the alma mater song - We stand on a hill…. Mary for your white & blue…Win or lose, it’s the school we choose!
( ) get on the dean’s list - Almost. 0.03 shy from that coveted academic distinction. If not for Caballa’s C+ (I think). Grrr..
( ) lie down and sleep on a bench along EDSA walk - why sleep on the bench when my bed and the lulling sound of the archaic electric fan are beckoning me from the dorm????
( ) be a TNT! - Never been a TNT for the college ACP, but was a CERSA-Orientation-Manila-Tour Guide.
(X) jog around the campus in the evening - and get swallowed up by the thick fog/smog surrounding the campus sometime February 1997
( ) visit the art gallery - we had one? Joke. Never been there. Too creepy for me.
(X) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name - shux, I forgot their names. But I called all the xerox ladies by “Ate”. Ehehe.
( ) get a Jesuit for a teacher - nope… too bad
( ) itch from higad bites - thank God, I didn’t make “tambay” in the quad!
(X) have gotten an F in something - Math 11 with Capistrano. It was a very humbling & terrible experience. But it taught me a lot.
(X) have taken a crap in school - In the dorm, which in the school grounds…
(x) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game - Of course. Win or lose!
(X) give a powerpoint presentation--never-ending…
( ) study in the Caf Upstairs - too noisy
(X) watch a T.A. play - Usually for philo papers…
(X) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars - And the sacred heart hill (which is no more), and the Bel field, and the football field, and the Eagle’s point (?)
(X) eat in Full House, Martha’s Kitchen, and Ken Afford - crispy pata, sylvannas, chopseuy, and the ever loyal Manong (who was still there even after I graduated. I think these 3 restos are not in Katipunan, or anywhere for that matter, anymore. How sad.
(X) sleep in the lib – oh yes, libreng aircon and peace and quiet. Libre din ang backpains
(x) visit Mr. San Andres---hhhmmmm…
(X) go to the chapel - constantly praying for strength & determination, so that I don’t get burned out or have a nervous breakdown, at least not before I graduate; thanking God for the great opportunity He has given me.
(X) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad - syempre, uso pa ang Birks and cute socks then. Pebbles tend to be attracted to those…
(X) cut class with your block to watch a movie -- Cut class. Period.
(X) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers: Ferriols, Dacanay, David, Manacsa, Ang, Escaler, Arcilla, Totanes, and many others - Totanes was the best History prof I ever had. He had to crunch in 2 classes in one time slot. Imagine us, close to 50 in a classroom with sliding walls. Fun!
(X) go to CERSA night - But of course.
(X) have eaten siomai rice - rice, rice, rice, rice…
(X) learn how to smoke - when I was about to have a nervous breakdown (which was often as the skill of cramming was perfected during college), I would puff (more like hit-hit-buga) while staring blankly OM. but never became a serious smoker, thank God.
(XXX) fall in love - With the greatest love(r) of my life.
(X) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib -but I can’t remember the title.
( ) play cards during your free timeI slept. - My bed was only a few buildings away. --- Amen!!!
(X) dress in business attirefor all those business/case/defense presentations. - Looking great but feeling like a zombie due to lack of sleep and overdose in caffeine
(X) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight - DEFENSE.
( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC - I didn’t care. I pretended they didn’t exist.
(X) take (and enjoy) Saturday classes - and 730 am at that!!!! Cruelty.
(x) go to your immersion - Urban poor. My pillow was getting drenched because of the leak in the roof, and I couldn’t move because I was sharing the bed with another immersee. Depressing.
(X) eat Food for Thought sandwiches - Ham and egg (as in sunny-side up) + P12 bottomless iced tea
(X) get a boyfriend/girlfriend
(X) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors - Oh yes, esp the lib CR ones.... quite entertaining hehehehehe. --- I 2nd the motion.
(x) watch “Minsan Lang Sila Bata” and “Macho Dancer” for class - “Minsan lang sila bata”
(X) ate at a food fair - just to eat something different from the usual caf food
(X) do a last minute paperlike I said, skills in cramming and procrastination are perfect during college.
( ) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures - Not really. More like grad pix.
(X) get exempted from final exams - History, philo, film theory
(X) attend a college mass - as if we could avoid it…
(X) promise to quit smoking
(X) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest - and the whole campus as well. College people are scared of the school after dark. We, dormers, always wonder why…
(X) know where the best restrooms are on campus - During the years ending in 2000, those were the Lib, SS and SEC. --- true, true.
(X) join an org - CERSA, MISA, ACP Log Comm, ACMG
(X) allow yourself to make mistakes
(X) take summer classes - required. Either I take summer classes or extend 1 sem. Spanish at 2pm. Murder.
(X) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening - with the shadows of Jesus, melding into shadows that form the face of Mary. Some people find it creepy. I find it comforting.
(X) make a video for a project - video + some major ME elective. Bad idea. Good thing, we still passed, through sheer force and will power, I think…
( ) have a crush on a teacher - nope. But I’ve seen a lot of teachers (both male and female) get crushes on their students. Much to the chagrin for the rest of us normal beings.
( ) attend a Jesuit retreat (a must for everyone) - my 4 whole years in Ateneo was a very long retreat. Standing on the hill, and all that…
( ) have gotten a parking ticket - first, the car. Which was non-existent.
(X) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes - like everyday?
(X) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones - just so I can call home and tell my folks that I’m still breathing despite being neck-deep with deadlines
(X) participate in school activities - Rallies, NAMFREL, blue roast, etc…
(x) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts - that's Entertainment.
(X) date an Atenean - and his whole box-out team
(X) ride a tricycle on campus - Comm to Bel at 3pm during El Niño summer, are you kidding me???????
(X) find a tambayan (Soc Sci 4-eva, pubroom, Comm Dep) - the dorm was the best tambayan. I can be in my undies and just-woken up hair and nobody notices. Heaven.
(X) admire the marikina valley at night - Every night. So many couples have come together and said goodbye in this spot.
(X) go drinking along Katipunan - every Friday and Saturday. Like clockwork. Drink to the brink at Tias, pre & post grad gulps at Gills? Kung wala pa ang allowance, sa MJD.
(X) learn how to beg for a higher grade - Never.
(X) use your cuts wisely - Just cut. Period.
( ) volunteer to be class beadle - NO, I will not be a slave and teacher’s pet.
(X) had the worst lottery schedule for reg - Thus, I got Mariano for Philo, which turned to be a blessing; got Capistrano AGAIN for an ME elective, which turned out OK because my Math 11 grade turned out OK.
(X) admire the trees on campus - Everyday. Yep, everyday. Even during summer, with all the fiery red blossoms.
(X) have forgotten about your free cut and gone to that class - at least malapit lang ang dorm.
(X) eat in the ISO canteen - para lang di ako kumain sa Cervini Caf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( ) be active in your org - I was neck-deep with CERSA, that I just existed as a member (in paper) in my other college orgs.
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it - Nope…
(X) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair - Like it helped.
(X) learn how to cram - Inevitable.
(X) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere - OO NAMAN. LECHENG CABLE GUY. --- Korek!
(X) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes - I think I made my own notes. Helped me memorize all that had to be memorized.
( ) have accidentally seen a make-out session - damn, I missed out on this… pero I’ve heard. And not accidentally. Thanks to the very masugid Blue Guards.
(X) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge - Site of many an Eliazoan's debut, etc. etc.
(X) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa - Spanish class. Summer. 2pm. I slept right through my C+.
(X) learn how to work with groupmates from hell - Group mates???? What groupmates?????
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus - Park what?
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus - They’re usually nice to girls, so I wouldn’t know.
(X) develop a love for sisig - I never new this kind of artery-clogging dish existed before I came to ADMU…
(x) learn how to pronounce “AEGIS” properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library - Typing rooms?
(X) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
(X) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella
(X) have used consultation hours properly - for Philo, ME/CS electives
(X) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn’t break any equipment - Oh yes! Lab breakage fee & dorm breakage fee. Of course, Mom and Dad didn’t know about this.
(X) visit the Guidance Officerequired and for processing of a horrendous “slashing accident” of a friend.
(X) and Infirmary - I constantly had psycho-somatic bowel disorders, so…
(X) learn to swear in different dialects - LINTE!
(X) ran in the rain (even storm) without a care in the world.
Friday, June 16, 2006
OLYMPUS 720SW: My new Obsession
"obsession" - ob·ses·sion; Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.
in my case, obsession because I still don't have the damn thing. I'm so in love with this camera. It's shock & water proof. Perfect for someone like me who loves the outdoors and the sea.
If I could just convince myself that it's worth buying. NOW NA...
To buy:
1) It's a damn sweet camera!
2) Personal reward for all the hardwork, for swallowing corporate bullshit for the past 6 years . I haven't actually bought something "big" for myself, except for my new cellphone now (which was subsidized, so it doesn't count. hehe.) and shoes. Travels are exempted. "Big" means more than P15K.
3) I can actually spare some dough for this cam.
4) I just want to have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to buy:
1) I don't really need it. Besides, I can borrow VC's camera according to Bucky
2) I can use the money to invest in property.
3) I can share the money with my loved ones (esp Onchie and Bucky)
4) I use the money for travelling
5) I can use the money to save up for a car or a laptop or something else "bigger" that I don't really need.
So I guess, I'm buying it. =D
It's just a matter of When - Around end of June or early July
Where - Singapore c/o Daddyo. If I were to buy it in SG, it's P6K cheaper and the freebies are awesome (extra battery, card reader, extra XD card) worth around P3-5K.
[I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
"obsession" - ob·ses·sion; Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.
in my case, obsession because I still don't have the damn thing. I'm so in love with this camera. It's shock & water proof. Perfect for someone like me who loves the outdoors and the sea.
If I could just convince myself that it's worth buying. NOW NA...
To buy:
1) It's a damn sweet camera!
2) Personal reward for all the hardwork, for swallowing corporate bullshit for the past 6 years . I haven't actually bought something "big" for myself, except for my new cellphone now (which was subsidized, so it doesn't count. hehe.) and shoes. Travels are exempted. "Big" means more than P15K.
3) I can actually spare some dough for this cam.
4) I just want to have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to buy:
1) I don't really need it. Besides, I can borrow VC's camera according to Bucky
2) I can use the money to invest in property.
3) I can share the money with my loved ones (esp Onchie and Bucky)
4) I use the money for travelling
5) I can use the money to save up for a car or a laptop or something else "bigger" that I don't really need.
So I guess, I'm buying it. =D
It's just a matter of When - Around end of June or early July
Where - Singapore c/o Daddyo. If I were to buy it in SG, it's P6K cheaper and the freebies are awesome (extra battery, card reader, extra XD card) worth around P3-5K.
[I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it. I'm buying it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
Friday, June 09, 2006
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored.
Friday, June 02, 2006
When things don't work out...
Smile.
Breathe.
Get a facial and a one-hour full-body massage.
Eat 1 pint of Hagen Dazz Strawberry Cheesecake icecream.
Shop in Divisoria!!!!
Buy faux snake skin hot shorts.
Shop some more.
Get a sexy tanline.
Get a new, funky hairstyle.
Get a new petty, cuttie crush.
Giggle.
Cuddle.
Laugh.
Go to the gym and sweat it out.
Shed pounds.
Laugh some more.
Think: "God's love is greater than my disappointments, and His plans better than my dreams"
Then GET BACK ON TRACK.
Smile.
Breathe.
Get a facial and a one-hour full-body massage.
Eat 1 pint of Hagen Dazz Strawberry Cheesecake icecream.
Shop in Divisoria!!!!
Buy faux snake skin hot shorts.
Shop some more.
Get a sexy tanline.
Get a new, funky hairstyle.
Get a new petty, cuttie crush.
Giggle.
Cuddle.
Laugh.
Go to the gym and sweat it out.
Shed pounds.
Laugh some more.
Think: "God's love is greater than my disappointments, and His plans better than my dreams"
Then GET BACK ON TRACK.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
T E A M F U S I O N !!!!!
After 10 years, I got to experience how it was to be in a team and game playing a championship match. Loved every moment of it. I think our best game was semi-finals against UP. 5 sets at kami ang naghahabol. During the 5th set, UP was always up by one point. The score slid twice at 14 and 15. We finally got one good offense and 1 block that sealed our victory. Grabe, ang saya.
Pictures here were taken from our championship game against CSB (Benilde). 4 sets lang, panalo na kami. Mejo anti-climactic, but nonetheless a good game.
We won P4K worth of Mizuno products. Can't wait for the next season. Defending Champs!
After 10 years, I got to experience how it was to be in a team and game playing a championship match. Loved every moment of it. I think our best game was semi-finals against UP. 5 sets at kami ang naghahabol. During the 5th set, UP was always up by one point. The score slid twice at 14 and 15. We finally got one good offense and 1 block that sealed our victory. Grabe, ang saya.
Pictures here were taken from our championship game against CSB (Benilde). 4 sets lang, panalo na kami. Mejo anti-climactic, but nonetheless a good game.
We won P4K worth of Mizuno products. Can't wait for the next season. Defending Champs!
YM status: "emotional rollercoaster ride..."
1) going to singapore - di ko sure kung may mahahanap nga akong work dun, so parang depressed ako kasi, di natupad ung gusto ko
2) if i find work there, iiwanan ko si Bucky. it's going to be hard for both of us and i have to handle that. i know na he will resent me for going and i have to accept it
3) pay adjustment-it seems that things are better for the meantime. pero how long will this last???
4) i've finally reconnected with my other friends, like sa volleyball. i've found a new group of friends who share my interest. parang ngayon lang kami nag-gel, tapos aalis ako. sayang din.
5) i want to stay with Smart pero ayaw ko ng ka-work ung team na ka-work ko ngayon. pero mahirap lumipat...
1) going to singapore - di ko sure kung may mahahanap nga akong work dun, so parang depressed ako kasi, di natupad ung gusto ko
2) if i find work there, iiwanan ko si Bucky. it's going to be hard for both of us and i have to handle that. i know na he will resent me for going and i have to accept it
3) pay adjustment-it seems that things are better for the meantime. pero how long will this last???
4) i've finally reconnected with my other friends, like sa volleyball. i've found a new group of friends who share my interest. parang ngayon lang kami nag-gel, tapos aalis ako. sayang din.
5) i want to stay with Smart pero ayaw ko ng ka-work ung team na ka-work ko ngayon. pero mahirap lumipat...
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Buying an IPOD? Think again...
Hello to all would-be buyers of IPOD MP3 players. I’d like to share something about an after-sales policy of these products.
Did you know that when an IPOD konks out after its warranty period you cannot have it repaired, UNLESS the problem is only the battery? So if the IPOD dies because of other reasons, like the software/hardware crash/defective LCD/buttons or whatever, it CANNOT BE REPAIRED. Actually, it can be repaired… in the US only.
I just recently discovered this because my brother’s IPOD, which is 1.5 years old, suddenly had a stroke and wouldn’t restart. I had it received at the Apple Center in Power Plant and they told me what I’m telling you now. I can understand this if the IPOD got wet or fried or electrocuted. But other than these, I don’t this it’s acceptable that the product is irreparable.
So if you’re buying an IPOD, make sure it konks out within a year. Otherwise, parang nagtapon ka lang ng P15,000-20,000 thousand. [well, unless it’s easy for you to have an extra P15-20K every year…]
If you’re still buying, verify the after-sales/service terms. And pray that I’m wrong.
=)
Hello to all would-be buyers of IPOD MP3 players. I’d like to share something about an after-sales policy of these products.
Did you know that when an IPOD konks out after its warranty period you cannot have it repaired, UNLESS the problem is only the battery? So if the IPOD dies because of other reasons, like the software/hardware crash/defective LCD/buttons or whatever, it CANNOT BE REPAIRED. Actually, it can be repaired… in the US only.
I just recently discovered this because my brother’s IPOD, which is 1.5 years old, suddenly had a stroke and wouldn’t restart. I had it received at the Apple Center in Power Plant and they told me what I’m telling you now. I can understand this if the IPOD got wet or fried or electrocuted. But other than these, I don’t this it’s acceptable that the product is irreparable.
So if you’re buying an IPOD, make sure it konks out within a year. Otherwise, parang nagtapon ka lang ng P15,000-20,000 thousand. [well, unless it’s easy for you to have an extra P15-20K every year…]
If you’re still buying, verify the after-sales/service terms. And pray that I’m wrong.
=)
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
HEAR WHAT OPRAH HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. I
f a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. (Hahahaha!)
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man. D
on't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. I
f a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. (Hahahaha!)
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house.
Never co-sign for a man. D
on't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Halleluya!
As an full-grown adult, responsible, and attached (but not married) woman, I finally experienced the dread that most of us (at least my kind) feel when the hormones go haywire and the monthly female discomfort doesn't arrive. I suddenly found myself wishing, praying for THAT discomfort.
I didn't go to the doctor or do any tests as I was confident that it would arrive any day soon. But I was mistaken. When things like these happen, one is pushed to think or say, "Crap, what the fuck will I do with this???". And I did just that. It made me think of how my life and my priorities would change, and how it will affect my relationship with Bucky, my parents, my friends, my relatives.
Though I had so many fears (i actually remember trembling sometimes because of the uncertainty), it is not so tragic for me anymore. If I were in this situation 2 or 3 years ago, I would've felt dead with worry and panic. Now, I could financially support myself and a child. I have a fairly decent job, and I think I already have the skills of a mother.
But am I ready? For the whole shebang?
My gut-feel was, and still is: I am not. I still want to work abroad, shop and travel for myself without feeling guilty, drink and smoke sometimes, do whatever and whenever I like without any responsibilities. I am not ready to give up my shallow independence.
But will one ever be ready for these things? When can a person say that he's ready for parenthood and a lifelong commitment and responsibility. A parent cannot retire, as long as the chilren are alive, there's always looking and worrying after. I guess one can be ready financially, and to some extent psychologically. But we can never really know unless it already there staring at you in the face. Maybe that's how we get our dysfunctionality. Our parents always has some reservation about having us, and yet there is no other morally-correct choice but ... to have us. We just need to do our best and pray that we don't raise socio-psychopaths. I think I'm ready to cut my folks some slack. They had it harder.
So, I was in this quandary, when finally, one cold morning, my monthly visitor came. I've never been so happy. When I finally told Bucky, he was very much relieved (though he wanted to punch me because I made a joke about it- that I was on the way).
Im sort of thankful that this happened. It made me realize a lot of things. Like being more careful next time. =D
As an full-grown adult, responsible, and attached (but not married) woman, I finally experienced the dread that most of us (at least my kind) feel when the hormones go haywire and the monthly female discomfort doesn't arrive. I suddenly found myself wishing, praying for THAT discomfort.
I didn't go to the doctor or do any tests as I was confident that it would arrive any day soon. But I was mistaken. When things like these happen, one is pushed to think or say, "Crap, what the fuck will I do with this???". And I did just that. It made me think of how my life and my priorities would change, and how it will affect my relationship with Bucky, my parents, my friends, my relatives.
Though I had so many fears (i actually remember trembling sometimes because of the uncertainty), it is not so tragic for me anymore. If I were in this situation 2 or 3 years ago, I would've felt dead with worry and panic. Now, I could financially support myself and a child. I have a fairly decent job, and I think I already have the skills of a mother.
But am I ready? For the whole shebang?
My gut-feel was, and still is: I am not. I still want to work abroad, shop and travel for myself without feeling guilty, drink and smoke sometimes, do whatever and whenever I like without any responsibilities. I am not ready to give up my shallow independence.
But will one ever be ready for these things? When can a person say that he's ready for parenthood and a lifelong commitment and responsibility. A parent cannot retire, as long as the chilren are alive, there's always looking and worrying after. I guess one can be ready financially, and to some extent psychologically. But we can never really know unless it already there staring at you in the face. Maybe that's how we get our dysfunctionality. Our parents always has some reservation about having us, and yet there is no other morally-correct choice but ... to have us. We just need to do our best and pray that we don't raise socio-psychopaths. I think I'm ready to cut my folks some slack. They had it harder.
So, I was in this quandary, when finally, one cold morning, my monthly visitor came. I've never been so happy. When I finally told Bucky, he was very much relieved (though he wanted to punch me because I made a joke about it- that I was on the way).
Im sort of thankful that this happened. It made me realize a lot of things. Like being more careful next time. =D
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
THE WEDDING DATE Quotable Quotes:
1)
I just... I wanted to say thank you for not outing me in front of Ed.
I want to tell him, just not the night before our wedding.You know, with these things, timing is everything.
You're right. You shouId time it right, so that when he hears that you repeatedIy screwed his best friend,he won't feeI llke the worId is collapsing and there's no escape because you tricked him into marrying you.
- Kat...
- Don't worry. Your wedding wllI be perfect.
Tomorrow I'll say all the right things and you'll deaI with Ed when you're ready.
But right now, tonight, I'm not going to pretend it's OK.
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2) ''Every woman has the exact Iove llfe she wants.'' --- by hook or by crook!!!
1)
I just... I wanted to say thank you for not outing me in front of Ed.
I want to tell him, just not the night before our wedding.You know, with these things, timing is everything.
You're right. You shouId time it right, so that when he hears that you repeatedIy screwed his best friend,he won't feeI llke the worId is collapsing and there's no escape because you tricked him into marrying you.
- Kat...
- Don't worry. Your wedding wllI be perfect.
Tomorrow I'll say all the right things and you'll deaI with Ed when you're ready.
But right now, tonight, I'm not going to pretend it's OK.
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2) ''Every woman has the exact Iove llfe she wants.'' --- by hook or by crook!!!
Sunday, December 25, 2005
"You must act in your friend's interest whether it pleases him or not; the object of love is to serve, not to win" - Woodrow Wilson
The last quarter of 2005 was a roller coaster ride. And most of it revolved around a recurring theme which doesn't really concern me, but has deeply affected me. To this day, it still causes me sadness. But then again, it's not my life to lead, not my mistake to commit, not my stupidity to regret.
But I digress.
Looking back at the past year, I could definitely say that it was a much better year, in terms of work. I gained the weight that I lost at this time last year [after i just quit AIU]. Too much weight, in fact, that most of my clothes are Tight. notice the capital "T". Signs of a good year. I was able to manage my work-related stress better, albeit i had to manage a different kind of stress as compared to the time when i was in AIU. I still don't know which one I'd choose: AIU or Smart. I dunno. Can i just be a housewife instead? Harhar! Joke!
I've also been talking to Bucky about my plans of going to Singapore next year. I think it hit him hard knowing that I could really be leaving so soon. Whenever we discuss this, he either pretends he doesnt care ("Bahala ka...") or he tells me not to go. But lately, i think, he's more open to the idea. I think he knows that I need this. I'm also scared that we won't be able to stand the stress of long distance relationship, or that we'll find other partners, or that the love will just die out because of not being together. But then again, i don't want that as my reason for staying, that i'll stay just because of fear. I know that if I sacrifice not going to Singapore for the sake of preserving my relationship with Bucky, I will have regrets. And at some point in my life, when I've settled down with him, i will lash out at him because of those regrets. Ayoko naman ng ganun.
Going back to my main topic: "You must act in your friend's interest whether it pleases him or not; the object of love is to serve, not to win"... Someone dear to me, almost like the sister I never had, is walking into a kind of life that I know is going to be full of pain. Because of some things that were unexpected (but a blessing nonetheless), she's so intent on her decision. i've asked her to think about things because this one decision will affect her future life's happines, and 2 other people. I've already been part of the life she wants to take. I know what could happen. Hay, its unfair to always compare her future to the life that I had. But she wouldn't lose anything if she'll think about what I told her.
It's so hard to be scared for someone else. But then again, it's not my life to lead, not my mistake to commit, not my stupidity to regret. So I let it go. I've helped her in the best way I can. I hope she doesn't resent me for almost crossing the border of being mean.
I have a knack for feeling "what will most likely happen". I've proven it so many times since i was a child. Call it superstition, but I listen to my gut. And right now, my gut is telling me that she should be more discerning on what she should do and what is best for her. Despite that, I sincerely hope she'll be happy, and that i'll be proven wrong. i'll be gladly proven wrong on this one. For her sake.
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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