Disappointments

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Just half into the year, and it is already riddled with disappointments:

A friend has deeply hurt me. And I have deeply hurt her.
My trip to SG was cancelled.
I did not get the post I felt I deserved to get.

There are some things I was in control. Others, most, I did not. And so I sulk here. Feeling the pain and loss. Hoping that in letting myself go through this, things will pass. Just like everything else.

im trying to live with disappointments and the thought and guilt that i've hurt some people i love. some things are hard to forget. some things are forever lost.

But i try to see what i still have and be happy.

I've still got Bucky and his love,
my family,
my friends and their support in believing that I didn't deserve to be hurt.

I still have my life and a chance to prove myself.