RESTFUL WEEKEND
After i have finally decided to quit school for now made me feel so... FREE. parang ang gaan sa dibdib, na wala akong ibang iniisip. I'm actually looking forward to job hunting. I have to make a strategy for that pa...
consequently, i'm enjoying a very restful weekend. no worries. i even cleaned the whole house yesterday. they were all gone. sumakit ang katawan ko. pero ok lang. at least maaliwalas ang feeling. i heard mass with bucky and ate at outback. i felt the need to celebrate and congratulate myself for knowing when to back down.
i came home and slept well. after a long, long time...
sometimes, you have to take life's shit with a smile on your face AND AT SOME POINT, THROW IT BACK. as you can see, ma-angst akong tao. madaming issues. feeling madaming problema. e ano ngayon? im pushing 30 so i'm losing my right to say that all these issues are wrought from quarter-life crisis...
Saturday, October 19, 2002
Thursday, October 17, 2002
DEAR MOM & DAD...
i wrote to my parents about taking a leave-of absence and terminating my DOST scholarship. I hope they reply ASAP so i know what they think. given that, i have resolved to look for a job and help my parents with the house.
I feel as though nabunutan ako ng tinik. I just admit this now: I have been scared shit when I took the DOST scholarship. Somehow, I knew that it wasn't right but I still went on with it, hoping that my doubts would disappear. Now that I'm looking at the situation with a clearer mind and less fearful heart, I think I will not have any regrets. I was enlightened by what Pau emailed me:
"Life is full of winning and losing and also full of challenges. It doesn't matter if you lose.. if you live for yourself, then that is truly LIFE.
Some people refuse to accept the truth and to start again, thus they end up losing more and more in life. In the end, nothing can be done to bring back what they lost. If you are losing in your life now, don't continue letting yourself lose more than what you did. Put a stop to that situation and do not be afraid to start from scratch.
Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
People say that I just wasted 2.5 years of my life working in a small and struggling company and studying for a degree that I won't finish naman. Well, maybe I did. That's why I will not prolong it anymore. I think quitting school and seriously looking for a job will put an end to that "wasting of my life". I think I can pursue my Masters when I can afford it na. As of now, there are just too many restraining forces. My only regret is that I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone, face the insecurity of being unemployed or being rejected by companies. I have to face these fears so that I will know how to overcome them.
Hay, writing this makes me feel older. But al least, wala nang tinik at bigat sa loob. I can plan my life ahead and move on.
Hmmm.... this week has been a "moving on" phase for me. Hurrah!
i wrote to my parents about taking a leave-of absence and terminating my DOST scholarship. I hope they reply ASAP so i know what they think. given that, i have resolved to look for a job and help my parents with the house.
I feel as though nabunutan ako ng tinik. I just admit this now: I have been scared shit when I took the DOST scholarship. Somehow, I knew that it wasn't right but I still went on with it, hoping that my doubts would disappear. Now that I'm looking at the situation with a clearer mind and less fearful heart, I think I will not have any regrets. I was enlightened by what Pau emailed me:
"Life is full of winning and losing and also full of challenges. It doesn't matter if you lose.. if you live for yourself, then that is truly LIFE.
Some people refuse to accept the truth and to start again, thus they end up losing more and more in life. In the end, nothing can be done to bring back what they lost. If you are losing in your life now, don't continue letting yourself lose more than what you did. Put a stop to that situation and do not be afraid to start from scratch.
Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have.
Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."
People say that I just wasted 2.5 years of my life working in a small and struggling company and studying for a degree that I won't finish naman. Well, maybe I did. That's why I will not prolong it anymore. I think quitting school and seriously looking for a job will put an end to that "wasting of my life". I think I can pursue my Masters when I can afford it na. As of now, there are just too many restraining forces. My only regret is that I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone, face the insecurity of being unemployed or being rejected by companies. I have to face these fears so that I will know how to overcome them.
Hay, writing this makes me feel older. But al least, wala nang tinik at bigat sa loob. I can plan my life ahead and move on.
Hmmm.... this week has been a "moving on" phase for me. Hurrah!
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
LIFE's A BITCH.
I. gotta problem with my DOST scholarship. i opted for Independent Project instead of the real thesis for MS. pukinangina. i'm anticipating that DOST will not allow me to proceed. bitch. If I change my project in mid-year, i might have to extend till May talaga. arg. i would have to search for a thesis topic and do the same hoopla again. arg. arg. well, at least my parents agreed to be my benefactors for next sem if ever i decide to study full time. just hoping that i'll finish the courses next sem and then proceed with thesis subject until 1st sem next year. arg. arg.
what i need to do:
1) review IP proposal
2) send to DOST for approval
3) if disapprove, meet them, talk to Ms. Reena, adviser
4) if approve, review timeline of IP, start activities
II. daddyo is moving out soon. no exact date yet. but he's moving out. meaning, bigger rent (until we find new roommate), no ref (!), no more daddyo-stuff (pliers, electrical tape, etc). i wonder if randy is indeed planning to move in with us when he starts studying. also, i wonder when he'll start going to school, yada, yada.
III. Star-shows won't be aired na.
hay ang hirap maging matanda...
at least hindi ako homeless, or jobless, or boyless... (mga pang-kunsuelo de bobo)
enuf.
I. gotta problem with my DOST scholarship. i opted for Independent Project instead of the real thesis for MS. pukinangina. i'm anticipating that DOST will not allow me to proceed. bitch. If I change my project in mid-year, i might have to extend till May talaga. arg. i would have to search for a thesis topic and do the same hoopla again. arg. arg. well, at least my parents agreed to be my benefactors for next sem if ever i decide to study full time. just hoping that i'll finish the courses next sem and then proceed with thesis subject until 1st sem next year. arg. arg.
what i need to do:
1) review IP proposal
2) send to DOST for approval
3) if disapprove, meet them, talk to Ms. Reena, adviser
4) if approve, review timeline of IP, start activities
II. daddyo is moving out soon. no exact date yet. but he's moving out. meaning, bigger rent (until we find new roommate), no ref (!), no more daddyo-stuff (pliers, electrical tape, etc). i wonder if randy is indeed planning to move in with us when he starts studying. also, i wonder when he'll start going to school, yada, yada.
III. Star-shows won't be aired na.
hay ang hirap maging matanda...
at least hindi ako homeless, or jobless, or boyless... (mga pang-kunsuelo de bobo)
enuf.
Monday, October 14, 2002
SABI NG FRIEND KO...
sabi nya sa kin minsan...
alam mo..alam mo, araw araw iisipin mo, may pagkakataon kang gawin ang kahit
anuman na gusto mo. para sumaya ka. kahit pagod ka o kahit andaming problema
sa paligid mo, isipin mo na kaya mo at magiging masaya ka. gawin mo lang gusto
mo sa araw na iyon. hindi mo na maibabalik ang nangyari. lahat ng magagawa
mo, gawin mo. lahat ng gusto mong tuparin. dapat masaya ka ngayon. hindi
kanina, hindi mamaya. ngayon.
iba na namang araw bukas.
sabi nya sa kin minsan...
alam mo..alam mo, araw araw iisipin mo, may pagkakataon kang gawin ang kahit
anuman na gusto mo. para sumaya ka. kahit pagod ka o kahit andaming problema
sa paligid mo, isipin mo na kaya mo at magiging masaya ka. gawin mo lang gusto
mo sa araw na iyon. hindi mo na maibabalik ang nangyari. lahat ng magagawa
mo, gawin mo. lahat ng gusto mong tuparin. dapat masaya ka ngayon. hindi
kanina, hindi mamaya. ngayon.
iba na namang araw bukas.
CLOSURE. (...medyo private. context of the entry below to be disclosed in the near future)
Micharl is here in Manila. He called so that we could meet up in PP. Honestly, I felt kilig, then kaba. I mean, after all these years of not having to really forget what he did (or did not do, for that matter) and the pain I consequently felt, I had every right to feel that way. Unwittingly or not, all these years, the two poles of TAPOS NA and FUCK THAT ASSHOLE have been pulling me in both directions.
I was a nervous wreck on my way to PP. I asked myself "what the hell am I doing?!?!?" But whadapack, papunta na ako (in fairness, normal office clothes, not vengeful-beauty-clothes). We met at Mongkok. good thing his cousins were in the restaurant. They were nice and came from Davao too. We talked about the old times, of how he punched me because he lost to my team in the play of "shatong" and how i threw a stone at him because he punched me, how he can't hide his true age from me, how I can't believe that he doesn't have a girl (maybe not "a girl" but "girlsss").
Somewhere between feeling awkward and feeling relieved to see that he did not stay the same as the dream-of-a-hunk I so desired, I realized how futile and tiring it was to keep on being mad at him, or anyone for that matter. After a while, I even felt happy that he's here and I was talking to him like a real friend.
They wanted to watch a movie but I had to go home to study for my finals. His cousin took a picture of us. He put his arms on my shoulder... and i let him. Just like old times. I said goodbye. I went and did not look back.
Micharl is here in Manila. He called so that we could meet up in PP. Honestly, I felt kilig, then kaba. I mean, after all these years of not having to really forget what he did (or did not do, for that matter) and the pain I consequently felt, I had every right to feel that way. Unwittingly or not, all these years, the two poles of TAPOS NA and FUCK THAT ASSHOLE have been pulling me in both directions.
I was a nervous wreck on my way to PP. I asked myself "what the hell am I doing?!?!?" But whadapack, papunta na ako (in fairness, normal office clothes, not vengeful-beauty-clothes). We met at Mongkok. good thing his cousins were in the restaurant. They were nice and came from Davao too. We talked about the old times, of how he punched me because he lost to my team in the play of "shatong" and how i threw a stone at him because he punched me, how he can't hide his true age from me, how I can't believe that he doesn't have a girl (maybe not "a girl" but "girlsss").
Somewhere between feeling awkward and feeling relieved to see that he did not stay the same as the dream-of-a-hunk I so desired, I realized how futile and tiring it was to keep on being mad at him, or anyone for that matter. After a while, I even felt happy that he's here and I was talking to him like a real friend.
They wanted to watch a movie but I had to go home to study for my finals. His cousin took a picture of us. He put his arms on my shoulder... and i let him. Just like old times. I said goodbye. I went and did not look back.
AAANNNNGGGGGST.....
kainis. i wasn't able to post my blog last night because the computer stopped. Wala lang trip nya lang... ARG!
what happened to me today:
1) slept like 330am because i had to study the program that i did not make, which i have to make a defense/presentation on. good thing the program works beautifully.
2) meeting with my JPV. naasiwa ako coz i haven't submitted my program pa...
3) submitted jordan's program. I need to set up a meeting with him to present it
4) micharl is here. he invited me to go out tonight sa may san beda area. i wanted to go at first pero decided against it. too far, too late, too busy, too in love with another guy......! (charing!) funny, kinabahan pa rin ako at kinilig ng konti. pero wala na talaga. as in WALA.
gotta wrap up work.
kainis. i wasn't able to post my blog last night because the computer stopped. Wala lang trip nya lang... ARG!
what happened to me today:
1) slept like 330am because i had to study the program that i did not make, which i have to make a defense/presentation on. good thing the program works beautifully.
2) meeting with my JPV. naasiwa ako coz i haven't submitted my program pa...
3) submitted jordan's program. I need to set up a meeting with him to present it
4) micharl is here. he invited me to go out tonight sa may san beda area. i wanted to go at first pero decided against it. too far, too late, too busy, too in love with another guy......! (charing!) funny, kinabahan pa rin ako at kinilig ng konti. pero wala na talaga. as in WALA.
gotta wrap up work.
Friday, October 11, 2002
Thursday, October 10, 2002
Thursday, October 03, 2002
RANDOM, SCATTERED THOUGHTS...
hmmm... good girl today. did lotsa work and bitched some slow-moving people in the office.
gosh. need to DO my program!!!!!!
bucky went to admu at 12mn last night to line up for game 3 tickets. personally, i found it absurd. but he really wanted to go. so i stood by my man. (and he stood for me... ehehe...) i hope he got 2 tickets. if not, i'll be stuck home to watch it in TV. i might not go to moro to watch coz i need the time to make my project. i slept so early last night because i was tired from my trip going back here. i swore to wake up at around 4am to do my project. of course, my sleep got extended till 5 am. wala din naman akong nagawa masyado, coz i had no idea wat to do. i need to talk to lange about this project and maybe beg him to assist me. for the last time... nahihiya na ako...
strangely though... that i don't feel scared or anything. i feel like things will turn out right even if eveything seems so hard these days. i'm not even shedding weight because of stress. in fact, i'm getting fat!!!!! AGAIN! napapasabay kasi ang kain ko with bucky e ...
geezz.... mac grudgingly went to glorietta to breathe in some fresh, cool air. medyo hindi nya raw ma-take sa house. in times like these, what i do is just go to my room. hindi naman umaabot e... or sometimes i open the door and let the stench blow out. pero minsan, hindi kaya. I resolve to buy lysol and air freshener tonight...
hmmm... good girl today. did lotsa work and bitched some slow-moving people in the office.
gosh. need to DO my program!!!!!!
bucky went to admu at 12mn last night to line up for game 3 tickets. personally, i found it absurd. but he really wanted to go. so i stood by my man. (and he stood for me... ehehe...) i hope he got 2 tickets. if not, i'll be stuck home to watch it in TV. i might not go to moro to watch coz i need the time to make my project. i slept so early last night because i was tired from my trip going back here. i swore to wake up at around 4am to do my project. of course, my sleep got extended till 5 am. wala din naman akong nagawa masyado, coz i had no idea wat to do. i need to talk to lange about this project and maybe beg him to assist me. for the last time... nahihiya na ako...
strangely though... that i don't feel scared or anything. i feel like things will turn out right even if eveything seems so hard these days. i'm not even shedding weight because of stress. in fact, i'm getting fat!!!!! AGAIN! napapasabay kasi ang kain ko with bucky e ...
geezz.... mac grudgingly went to glorietta to breathe in some fresh, cool air. medyo hindi nya raw ma-take sa house. in times like these, what i do is just go to my room. hindi naman umaabot e... or sometimes i open the door and let the stench blow out. pero minsan, hindi kaya. I resolve to buy lysol and air freshener tonight...
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
am in tagaytay again. for the nth time. this will be my 2nd to the last time. grabe!!!! ayoko na dito!!!
i need to process (ASAP) my mind, heart, soul what my priority as of now is: work or studies. It's been quite a while that i have been debating with myself what is more practical. so many thoughts. pero i need to keep it at bay. i have so many things (more urgent things: school, work).
God, lilet is on TV. She's 28 yrs old pero she still thinks and answers like a 19 yr old. sorry, di ko sya feel.
Still not done with Java project. arg.
still have red spots.
hmmm... did we get tickets kaya. Bucky was supposed to go early in Araneta to buy tickets. Sold-out daw kanina. Joshur lined up around 4am. Unbelievable!
i need to process (ASAP) my mind, heart, soul what my priority as of now is: work or studies. It's been quite a while that i have been debating with myself what is more practical. so many thoughts. pero i need to keep it at bay. i have so many things (more urgent things: school, work).
God, lilet is on TV. She's 28 yrs old pero she still thinks and answers like a 19 yr old. sorry, di ko sya feel.
Still not done with Java project. arg.
still have red spots.
hmmm... did we get tickets kaya. Bucky was supposed to go early in Araneta to buy tickets. Sold-out daw kanina. Joshur lined up around 4am. Unbelievable!
Sunday, September 29, 2002
GAME 2
We lost. 8-point lead. In retrospect, I think we lost because LaSalle had their confidence back. I eat my words that we had the psychological advantage. Maybe we did. But the Archers entered the court prepared and hungry. Ang bilis tumakbo ng score nila 1st quarter pa lang. On the other had, the Eagles had a slow start. There were too many errors (turn-over, free throw) during the 2nd quarter. 3rd quarter came with the Archers gaining 20-ish advantage. Naghabol pa tayo. Pero in fairness to the Eagles, nakahabol naman. Hindi lang nasustain.
Honestly, I don't think we will win on Saturday. We have lesser chances. But like I said, I will stand by my school and my team, no questions, no doubts. WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE.
DERMA
Still having derma problems... arg.
We lost. 8-point lead. In retrospect, I think we lost because LaSalle had their confidence back. I eat my words that we had the psychological advantage. Maybe we did. But the Archers entered the court prepared and hungry. Ang bilis tumakbo ng score nila 1st quarter pa lang. On the other had, the Eagles had a slow start. There were too many errors (turn-over, free throw) during the 2nd quarter. 3rd quarter came with the Archers gaining 20-ish advantage. Naghabol pa tayo. Pero in fairness to the Eagles, nakahabol naman. Hindi lang nasustain.
Honestly, I don't think we will win on Saturday. We have lesser chances. But like I said, I will stand by my school and my team, no questions, no doubts. WIN OR LOSE, IT'S THE SCHOOL I CHOOSE.
DERMA
Still having derma problems... arg.
Friday, September 27, 2002
DERMA PROBLEMS
i'm having an allergy attack. it started last night, tiny red spots sprinkled on my skin. it's not itchy but it's kinda frightening. looks like German measles. Still don't know when to go to the doctor. Didn't get my CT scan results pa. Now, this... What could be next? Malaria???
CHAMPIONSHIP GAME 2
shux!!!!!!!!! this could be the year. I do not want to rely on my guts but we have bigger odds in winning game 2 because we won game 1. I dunno how that makes sense but for the team, it feels right. Kasi, they have a very big psychological advantage. Parang the players can tell themselves na KAYA TALAGA NILA. They can take and beat LaSalle anytime. Higher confidence, hence, higher chances of believing that they can win the game. LaSalle players on the other hand, is riddled with doubt. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila to assure themselves that they can win game2, the point is, THEY HAVE DOUBT. That's all it takes to crumble a strong team. They wouldn't admit it, pero i'm sure kinakabahan na sila. Even if aminin ko pa na they are the better players in terms of skills and maturity, they are doubting they play and maybe even themselves right now. The EAGLES have to make sure, however, that they give their heart into the game sa start pa lang. If not, babalik ang confidence ng LaSalle. Baka hindi makahabol if they let the archers take a big lead.
HORRIFIC TICKET-CLAIM EXPERIENCE
Thursday - reservations for game2. bucky's bro reserved for himself, bucky, me and wong. UpperB. Most in line made reservations last thursday. from what i heard, people lined up last thursday 5am just to get good tickets. upperA wiped out.
Saturday - 7:30 am. The dingy, age-old university athletics office hallway was packed with alumni who desperately want to get hold of tickets for game 2. the office was open but nobody was inside. there were no clear instructions. people had different versions of how to claim the tickets. people started to get their tickets but mayhem was starting to boil inside the office. Capistrano was nowhere in sight. when i got in to inquire about the procedure, the staff people assigned were so confused with the listssss (there were 3 stapled yellow-pad all starting with Num1 - geez, so how do they control the actual number of tickets that they can give for a particular box????) there was a line for those who reserved personally and a different line for those who reserved through the phone. People couldn't find their names on the lists, some people got other people's tickets, even those without reservations at all were able to get tickets!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN' UNFAIR. A mommy was shouting about corruption and palakasan. She even threatened the poor staff that the press/media is going to know about what happened. she complained that kung wala kang kilalang Jesuit or hindi ka nagbigay ng malaking pera or nag-sponsor ng building, hindi ka mabibigyan ng magandang tickets. (TRUE, TRUE...) In her anger, she swore never to watch any of the remaining Ateneo games.
WALANG SISTEMA. HOW HARD COULD IT BE TO MAKE A SYSTEM THAT WILL WORK FOR EVERYBODY'S ADVANTAGE. I'm doubting tuloy if the University Athletics Management can still do its job effectively and efficiently. Ateneo graduate naman si Mr. Capistrano di ba? SO WHY THIS STUPIDITY?
i'm having an allergy attack. it started last night, tiny red spots sprinkled on my skin. it's not itchy but it's kinda frightening. looks like German measles. Still don't know when to go to the doctor. Didn't get my CT scan results pa. Now, this... What could be next? Malaria???
CHAMPIONSHIP GAME 2
shux!!!!!!!!! this could be the year. I do not want to rely on my guts but we have bigger odds in winning game 2 because we won game 1. I dunno how that makes sense but for the team, it feels right. Kasi, they have a very big psychological advantage. Parang the players can tell themselves na KAYA TALAGA NILA. They can take and beat LaSalle anytime. Higher confidence, hence, higher chances of believing that they can win the game. LaSalle players on the other hand, is riddled with doubt. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila to assure themselves that they can win game2, the point is, THEY HAVE DOUBT. That's all it takes to crumble a strong team. They wouldn't admit it, pero i'm sure kinakabahan na sila. Even if aminin ko pa na they are the better players in terms of skills and maturity, they are doubting they play and maybe even themselves right now. The EAGLES have to make sure, however, that they give their heart into the game sa start pa lang. If not, babalik ang confidence ng LaSalle. Baka hindi makahabol if they let the archers take a big lead.
HORRIFIC TICKET-CLAIM EXPERIENCE
Thursday - reservations for game2. bucky's bro reserved for himself, bucky, me and wong. UpperB. Most in line made reservations last thursday. from what i heard, people lined up last thursday 5am just to get good tickets. upperA wiped out.
Saturday - 7:30 am. The dingy, age-old university athletics office hallway was packed with alumni who desperately want to get hold of tickets for game 2. the office was open but nobody was inside. there were no clear instructions. people had different versions of how to claim the tickets. people started to get their tickets but mayhem was starting to boil inside the office. Capistrano was nowhere in sight. when i got in to inquire about the procedure, the staff people assigned were so confused with the listssss (there were 3 stapled yellow-pad all starting with Num1 - geez, so how do they control the actual number of tickets that they can give for a particular box????) there was a line for those who reserved personally and a different line for those who reserved through the phone. People couldn't find their names on the lists, some people got other people's tickets, even those without reservations at all were able to get tickets!!!!!!!!!! SO FREAKIN' UNFAIR. A mommy was shouting about corruption and palakasan. She even threatened the poor staff that the press/media is going to know about what happened. she complained that kung wala kang kilalang Jesuit or hindi ka nagbigay ng malaking pera or nag-sponsor ng building, hindi ka mabibigyan ng magandang tickets. (TRUE, TRUE...) In her anger, she swore never to watch any of the remaining Ateneo games.
WALANG SISTEMA. HOW HARD COULD IT BE TO MAKE A SYSTEM THAT WILL WORK FOR EVERYBODY'S ADVANTAGE. I'm doubting tuloy if the University Athletics Management can still do its job effectively and efficiently. Ateneo graduate naman si Mr. Capistrano di ba? SO WHY THIS STUPIDITY?
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
BLUE-BLOODED
I will go Araneta today and watch GAME 1. Win or lose, I will stand by the school that has shaped me. I will believe, not in the few players who choose to be scared, but in those players who, even in the last second, choose to believe in God, in themselves, and in what his teammates can do.
Win or lose, I say to every Lasallite: We will be there every year to topple you down. Whether we succeed in each attempt or not is immaterial. What matters is that WE WILL BE THERE. We will be the constant thorn in your shoes that you cannot and will not ignore. We will hold our heads high. WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS.
I will go Araneta today and watch GAME 1. Win or lose, I will stand by the school that has shaped me. I will believe, not in the few players who choose to be scared, but in those players who, even in the last second, choose to believe in God, in themselves, and in what his teammates can do.
Win or lose, I say to every Lasallite: We will be there every year to topple you down. Whether we succeed in each attempt or not is immaterial. What matters is that WE WILL BE THERE. We will be the constant thorn in your shoes that you cannot and will not ignore. We will hold our heads high. WE WILL BE VICTORIOUS.
Chiquie's dad died yesterday. i went to the wake this evening with Mark, Rap, and Rica. Some of my dormmates were there: Dino, Bobet, Typ2, Denise and BF, JJ, Jonex. It was nice to see them again, but in a very sad occasion. Chiquie looked OK naman.
Celebreties were there too: Mark Nelson (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), patricia javier, jose marie chan.
some politicians and businessmen were there too. pau's cousin, alexin, was there with very short hair.
tapos when we dropped rica at her place we saw ex and lara.
it was a 'dorm' night for me (more likely dawn, we went home around 12mn na).
GAME ONE TOMORROW. I'm trying to believe...
Celebreties were there too: Mark Nelson (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), patricia javier, jose marie chan.
some politicians and businessmen were there too. pau's cousin, alexin, was there with very short hair.
tapos when we dropped rica at her place we saw ex and lara.
it was a 'dorm' night for me (more likely dawn, we went home around 12mn na).
GAME ONE TOMORROW. I'm trying to believe...
Monday, September 23, 2002
------ Ur bDay mOnTh & U --------
JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve Social abilities
Easily jealous
Very Stubborn
FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions
MARCH
Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assesses others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves traveling
Loves attention
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically Talented
Loves special things
Moody
APRIL
Active and dynamic
Decisive and haste but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm Standpoint
Needs no motivation
Easily consoled
Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves traveling
Dislike being at home
Restless
Not having many children
Hardworking
High spirited
Spendthrift
JUNE
Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom shows emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
JULY
Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concerned about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sparkly
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Caring and loving
Treats others equally
Strong sense of sympathy
Wary and sharp
Judges people through observations
Hardworking
No difficulties in studying
Loves to be alone
Always broods about the past and the old friends
Likes to be quiet
Homely person
Waits for friends
Never looks for friends
Not aggressive unless provoked
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
Loves to be loved
Easily hurt but takes long to recover
AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rusty
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising, Careful, cautious and
organized, Likes to point
out people's mistakes, Likes to criticize, Quiet but
able to talk well,
Calm
and cool, Kind and sympathetic, Concerned and
detailed, Trustworthy,
loyal
and honest, Does work well, Very confident, Sensitive,
Thinking,
Generous,
Good memory, Clever and knowledgeable, Loves to look
for information,
Must
control oneself when criticizing, Able to motivate
oneself,
Understanding,
Fun to be around, Secretive, Loves sports, leisure and
traveling,
Hardly
shows emotions, Tends to bottle up feelings, Choosy
especially in
relationships, Loves wide things, Systematic
OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the center
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Daydreamer
Opinionated. Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive. Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic. Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence
Loves children
NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable
DECEMBER
Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Take high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical
JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve Social abilities
Easily jealous
Very Stubborn
FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous
Spendthrift
Learns to show emotions
MARCH
Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assesses others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves traveling
Loves attention
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically Talented
Loves special things
Moody
APRIL
Active and dynamic
Decisive and haste but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm Standpoint
Needs no motivation
Easily consoled
Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves traveling
Dislike being at home
Restless
Not having many children
Hardworking
High spirited
Spendthrift
JUNE
Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Easily bored
Fussy
Seldom shows emotions
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
JULY
Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concerned about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sparkly
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Caring and loving
Treats others equally
Strong sense of sympathy
Wary and sharp
Judges people through observations
Hardworking
No difficulties in studying
Loves to be alone
Always broods about the past and the old friends
Likes to be quiet
Homely person
Waits for friends
Never looks for friends
Not aggressive unless provoked
Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
Loves to be loved
Easily hurt but takes long to recover
AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rusty
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends
SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising, Careful, cautious and
organized, Likes to point
out people's mistakes, Likes to criticize, Quiet but
able to talk well,
Calm
and cool, Kind and sympathetic, Concerned and
detailed, Trustworthy,
loyal
and honest, Does work well, Very confident, Sensitive,
Thinking,
Generous,
Good memory, Clever and knowledgeable, Loves to look
for information,
Must
control oneself when criticizing, Able to motivate
oneself,
Understanding,
Fun to be around, Secretive, Loves sports, leisure and
traveling,
Hardly
shows emotions, Tends to bottle up feelings, Choosy
especially in
relationships, Loves wide things, Systematic
OCTOBER
Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the center
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic. Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hurt but recovers easily
Daydreamer
Opinionated. Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive. Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic. Touchy and easily jealous
Concerned
Loves outdoors
Just and fair
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence
Loves children
NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked
Loves to be alone
Thinks differently from others
Sharp-minded
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love and emotions
Romantic
Uncertain in relationships
Homely
Hardworking
High abilities
Trustworthy
Honest and keeps secrets
Not able to control emotions
Unpredictable
DECEMBER
Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Take high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Logical
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