Monday, February 25, 2008

are you strong enough to be my man?

listen

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I’d be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing’s true and nothing’s right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can’t change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It’s try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care
When I’m throwing punches in the air
When I’m broken down and I can’t stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

~ sheryl crow

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

tonight I can write the saddest lines ~ pablo neruda

Write, for example,'The night is shattered

and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms

I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.

How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.

My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.

Her voide. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms

my sould is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer

and these the last verses that I write for her.

Friday, February 01, 2008

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

By: Bo Sanchez

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i'm sure somebody posted this already. but i'm reposting it again, for all those who are married, contemplating marriage or in a long-time relationship, even a short one. something to think about. =)

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During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... because it's happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages break down. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): The Key To Succeeding in Marriage Is Not Finding The Right Person; It's Learning To Love The Person You found!

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision".. . not just a feeling.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

What about love?

Being in a relationship is hard.

You are forced to become mature, to face insecurities, to settle your issues. To learn how to compromise. To see things his way and try to understand. To bend over backwards. To listen. To be patient. To swallow your pride. To learn how to say “I’m sorry,” and mean it.

You need to look at your partner’s faults squarely, and still accept him. To believe in his potential, yet cherish whatever he is and whatever he has right now.

You need to be strong when he is not. Sometimes, you need to pretend you are weak, to validate his strength.

You have to sacrifice some of your dreams so that you can make new dreams together.

So when there are days when I find myself saying, “Ayoko na. Pagod na ako,” I listen to this song. Somehow, my tears dry up, I breathe again, I remember the reasons why choose to be in this relationship. And I move on.

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What if I took my time to love you?

What if I put no one above you?

What if I did the things that really matter?

What if I ran through hoops of disaster?

No one would care if we never made it

We’re in this alone so why don’t we face it

There is no room to blame one another

We just need time to forgive each other

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

How can I give this love a new beginning?

How can I stop the rain, its never ending?

How do I keep my soul believing?

Memories of how we should be keep calling?

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

I’ll take the river’s rise

I’ll take the happy times

I’ll take the moments of disaster

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

~ Lemar

What about love?

Being in a relationship is hard.

You are forced to become mature, to face insecurities, to settle your issues. To learn how to compromise. To see things his way and try to understand. To bend over backwards. To listen. To be patient. To swallow your pride. To learn how to say “I’m sorry,” and mean it.

You need to look at your partner’s faults squarely, and still accept him. To believe in his potential, yet cherish whatever he is and whatever he has right now.

You need to be strong when he is not. Sometimes, you need to pretend you are weak, to validate his strength.

You have to sacrifice some of your dreams so that you can make new dreams together.

So when there are days when I find myself saying, “Ayoko na. Pagod na ako,” I listen to this song. Somehow, my tears dry up, I breathe again, I remember the reasons why choose to be in this relationship. And I move on.

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What if I took my time to love you?

What if I put no one above you?

What if I did the things that really matter?

What if I ran through hoops of disaster?

No one would care if we never made it

We’re in this alone so why don’t we face it

There is no room to blame one another

We just need time to forgive each other

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

How can I give this love a new beginning?

How can I stop the rain, its never ending?

How do I keep my soul believing?

Memories of how we should be keep calling?

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

I’ll take the river’s rise

I’ll take the happy times

I’ll take the moments of disaster

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

What about love?

Being in a relationship is hard.

You are forced to become mature, to face insecurities, to settle your issues. To learn how to compromise. To see things his way and try to understand. To bend over backwards. To listen. To be patient. To swallow your pride. To learn how to say “I’m sorry,” and mean it.

You need to look at your partner’s faults squarely, and still accept him. To believe in his potential, yet cherish whatever he is and whatever he has right now.

You need to be strong when he is not. Sometimes, you need to pretend you are weak, to validate his strength.

You have to sacrifice some of your dreams so that you can make new dreams together.

So when there are days when I find myself saying, “Ayoko na. Pagod na ako,” I listen to this song. Somehow, my tears dry up, I breathe again, I remember the reasons why choose to be in this relationship. And I move on.

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What if I took my time to love you?

What if I put no one above you?

What if I did the things that really matter?

What if I ran through hoops of disaster?

No one would care if we never made it

We’re in this alone so why don’t we face it

There is no room to blame one another

We just need time to forgive each other

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

How can I give this love a new beginning?

How can I stop the rain, its never ending?

How do I keep my soul believing?

Memories of how we should be keep calling?

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

I’ll take the river’s rise

I’ll take the happy times

I’ll take the moments of disaster

What about love?

What about feeling?

What about all the things that make life worth living?

What about faith?

What about trust?

And tell me baby what about us?

Friday, January 11, 2008

Moalboal, Cebu (12.2007)

I love discovering new places. planning for a trip is both a joy and a chore for me. i get excited at the possibilities, but I also get stressed if there isn’t enough information. So as a public service (hahaha), I am posting the details of my Moalboal trip. I only wish that other travelers are as OC and generous as me. Hehehe.

It's a funny coincidence that I started doing this for my 2006 Malapascua-Bantayan-Camotes islands-amazing-race-trip, which is in Cebu din.

Disclaimer: information, prices, schedules, contact numbers may have changed as of posting. please do your own "due diligence" to avoid regrets =P

Moalboal essentials: booties, mask&snorkel, sunblock

Note 1: Cost

There are a lot of “white” tourists in Moalboal, so the prices are kinda jacked up. For the budget-conscious traveler, this might be a tad more expensive than Malapascua or Bantayan.

Note 2: Basdaku or Basdiot?

Basdaku means “big sand” (bas = sand + daku = big), while Basdiot means “small/little sand” (bas = sand + diot = small/little)

There are 2 main beaches in Moalboal, White Beach (or Basdaku) and Panagsama (or Basdiot). Technically, Panagsama doesn’t have a sandy beach anymore because a strong storm washed it away (according to the locals. I didn’t ask for the specifics). If you’re a diver or want cheaper accommodations or share day trips to Pescador Island, there are more choices in Panagsama. There are also more bars/pubs in the area so it can be a bit noisy daw. These are all according to what I’ve read on the web, the tricycle drivers, and the staff at our resort. We didn’t go to Panagsama anymore.

If, however, you want to wake up at the sight of a big, sandy beach, or have a quiet moment while waiting for sunset, or just snorkel at the house reefs, you should opt for White Beach. The accommodations are more expensive though. There were some mom-and-pop bungalows/nipa huts for rent along the shore of White Beach but I didn’t get the chance to get their info. Most likely first-come-first served basis. I couldn’t vouch for the bathrooms, maybe that’s why I wasn’t motivated to ask. Hahaha. There were campers (as in complete with tents and cookware) along the beach, but I don’t remember seeing public baths and toilets. Go figure.


Useful link for possible accommodations: http://www.moalboal.org.uk/accommodation. When I called up to make reservations (around Oct), most resorts right in White Beach had rooms for a minimum of P3000 a night. But they were all fully-booked at that time.

Day 1

  1. Taxi to South Bus Terminal P120
  2. Non-aircon Ceres bus to Badian (?) via Barili P90
  3. Food along the way P135
  4. Tricycle from bus station to resort P100
  5. Lunch @ resort P525
  6. Resort aircon room (1 day) P1,500
  7. Dinner @ resort P600

Total for 2 pax = P3,208

To go to Moalboal, take a Badian-Barili (ask the conductors in the station) Ceres bus at the South Bus Terminal. We were informed by the kundoktor that there was no airconditioned bus going to Barili (leaves every 30mins). Good thing that there was hardly any traffic and the road condition was good, not even a stretch of dirt road from the city to Moalboal proper. The bus ride took about 3 hours. From the bus station at Moalboal, we hired a tricycle (pakyaw) to take us to the Asian-Belgian Resort (see link from above). The Asian-Belgian was 2 resorts off White Beach, less than 5-minute walk along rocky shores.

Dolphin House, Club Serena, and Ravenala resorts along Basdaku, but they were all fully-booked when I made reservations last October (yes, October!) so we ended up at Asian-Belgian, which was not too bad. The rooms were clean, the bathroom was fairly big and new, and it was cheap compared to the resorts at Basdaku beach front. The staff was friendly and helpful, the food was not bad and more than enough for me (though a little expensive: P250/meal), and the place was quiet, which was what we needed.

After lunch and siesta, we crossed two neighboring resorts to get to Basdaku to catch the sunset. It was a little cloudy, but we had good-enough share of the golden sky. And, oh, the sunset is right at Basdaku, something like Boracay sunset.

Had dinner at Asian-Belgian.

Day 2

  1. Tricycle to/from Kawasan Falls P600
  2. Entrance fee to falls P20
  3. Raft (3hrs) P300
  4. 2 Bangkero P300
  5. Lunch P290
  6. Tricycle to/from Marine Sanctuary P200
  7. Dinner @ Serena resort P900

Total for 2 pax = P3,010.00

The trip to Kawasan falls took about 45minutes, via tricycle, from Moalboal proper. It’s a good 15-minute brisk walk from the parking area to the falls. We just followed the river upstream. Our bangkero was very persistent. He followed us from the parking all the way to the falls. I suggest that you get the bangkero when you reach the falls. This way, you can go up to other groups who want to go under the falls and share the cost of both the raft and the bangkero. All in hindsight. Sige na nga, Christmas naman, a season of giving.

The tables near the falls are for rent on an hourly basis, the prices depend on the location. Make sure to inquire before sitting down. The tables near the CR and “restaurant” are also for rent at P50. Only the 1st falls has a “restaurant”, which served not-too-bad liempo (either that, or sobrang gutom na kami). Sobrang tourist trap talaga. Dun ka na nga kakain sa restaurant, babayaran mo pa ung table. Anlabo.

The 2nd falls also had cottages, which are also for rent. You need to bring your own food if you plan to hang out here.

It was crowded when we went there, with both locals and tourists. I only braved jumping from a 7-foot-high rock. If not for the slippery rocks, I would’ve made a jump at the 2nd falls. Naisip ko, I’m not as limber as before.

The highlight of our Kawasan trip was going under the rocks towards the underbelly of the falls, while lying flat on our tummies on a floating kawayan raft. You would think that you can’t possibly fit in the cracks of the rocks. But we did! And being under the falls was exhilarating! It was noisy, cold, misty, and cold, and cold. We went under the force of the falls, literally. It was so strong, nalawlaw ang shorts ko! At mejo masakit.

After the falls, we went to the Marine Sanctuary, which we tried to find while snorkeling but couldn’t. I would’ve skipped the trip and went directly to Basdaku to snorkel. We spent the afternoon lounging at Basdaku and taking pictures of the sunset, which was better than the previous day.

Had dinner at Serena resort, which was a lot better than Asian-Belgian. The place also felt … romantic and sweet, with soft lights coming from candles, torches, and Christmas lights. Date-place. After dinner, we decided to eat there for the rest of our stay.

Day 3

  1. Room P1500
  2. Breakfast P700
  3. Snorkel & Mask P800
  4. Lunch P900
  5. Tricycle P100
  6. Bus P200

Total for 2 pax = P4,200

Total for 2 pax (2 nights) = P10,418.00

The resort opened late for breakfast, so we were forced to tambay at the beach with empty stomachs. Locals were digging stuff out from the stones at the shore. I just hope they weren’t destroying the corals. After our breakfast at Serena, which was way better than at Asian-Belgian, we snorkeled at the resort’s house reef. The corals were surprisingly intact. The low tides made us snorkel at the “deeper” end of the shore which had better corals. The tide was so low that we reached the coral wall which made a sudden drop to the ocean. Ang daming little fishies!

We had yummy lunch of salpicao and beef stroganoff pasta at Serena. We were supposed to go back to our resort right after lunch to pack and shower, but the water was so clear and inviting, we couldn’t resist! Ended up swimming at the beach for another half-hour. I grudgingly took myself out of the water to start heading back to the resort, and prepare for our trip back to the city.


Except for the friendly Aussie-French couple we met at the bus, the trip was uneventful. They had to go to Carcar to withdraw money. Bucky chatted with them the whole time, showing off his Areneo accent, to which the Austrialian commented that we speak very good English. Tumaas ang kilay ko. The bus was airconditioned, so there are cold busses traveling to Moalboal, I just don’t know the schedule.


If not for the expensive … everything, I would’ve stayed one more night. Sobra akong bitin!


Wednesday, January 02, 2008

thoughts on my bday

I turn 29 years old today.

I find myself at a loss for words on how to describe being 29 and so close to 30, the “dreaded” age. At a loss, maybe because I’ve accepted this reality, and I am actually at peace. I feel a certain stillness and quiet (which hopefully will not turn out to be “the calm before the storm”). Unlike last year when I turned 28, I felt as though a rebellion was erupting in my head. Constantly restless, perennially stressed, and in denial. I couldn’t take it. Maybe that’s the reason why I wanted to go away, to be with myself again, to be in a new place.

Now that I’ve had 6 months to be “alone”, I think I found the peace I was looking for. Now, I can look forward to the rest of the year, and yes, to being 30, with a little less fear, and a little more anticipation and even excitement.

Let the good times roll!

Thursday, December 13, 2007

the heart of life is good

sometimes life takes a sudden turn. we're caught be surprise and stumble. but we learn to get up and try to figure out where we’re headed. and hopefully enjoy the ride.

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i hate to see you cry

lying there in that position

there's things you need to hear

so turn off your tears

and listen

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

no, it wont all go the way it should

but I know the heart of life is good

you know it's nothin' new

bad news never had good timing

then the circle of your friends

will defend the silver lining

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

no it won't all go the way it should

but I know the heart of life is good

pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

fear is a friend who is misunderstood

but I know the heart of life is good

i know it's good.

~ john mayer

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

love is tricky...

Love is tricky

It is never mundane or daily.

You can never get used to it.

You have to walk with it,

then let it walk with you.

You can never balk.

It moves you like the tide.

It takes you out to sea,

then lays you on the beach again.

Today’s struggling pain is the foundation for a certain stride through the heavens.

You can run from it,

But you can never say no.

It includes everyone.

~ Elza

By Amy Tan in The Hundred Secret Senses

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

a WOMAN's right to refuse arrest

got this from a college friend's multiply. spread this to all the girls you know.

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The right to refuse .. (sa 'PINAS to ha..)

Please pass this on to your wife, girlfriends; and ladies, you may want to
forward this to any female relatives who may need to know this important
information.

I was talking with a lawyer friend of mine. We were discussing the law and
women`s rights. She told me about this incident - a young girl was raped by
a man posing as a plain clothes officer; he asked her to come to the police
station when she and her male friend didn't have a driver`s license to
show. He sent the boy off to get his license and asked the girl to
accompany him to the police station. Took her instead to an isolated area
where the horrendous crime was committed.

In fact, the law clearly states that between 6 pm and 6 am, a woman has the
right to REFUSE to go to the Police Station, even if an arrest warrant has
been issued against her. It is a procedural issue that a woman can be
arrested between 6 pm and 6 am ONLY IF she is arrested by a woman officer
and taken to an ALL-WOMEN police station. And if she is arrested by a male
officer, it has to be proven that a woman officer was on duty at the time
of arrest.

It is good for us to know our rights. To what extent it comes of use
remains to be seen in any situation. But as they say, knowledge is power.
Just thought I`d share this with you.

I did not know this and am sure lot of us will not know this - please be
informed.... And pass on this info to everyone you know.......

Sunday, October 28, 2007

happiness is ...

I am but a simple girl. Mababaw lang ang kaligayahan ko. So here is a list of simple things that make me “happy” lately:

  1. hearing heavy rain splatter on the parking lot tin roof
  2. folding the last piece of freshly washed and dried laundry
  3. finding out that Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake is finally available after 2 weeks of craving and waiting
  4. Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake and Belgian Chocolate Chocolate melting on my tongue
  5. eating Haagen Daz Strawberry Cheesecake and Belgian Chocolate Chocolate from its tub. In the dark kitchen. Alone.
  6. laughing and talking to someone before going to sleep
  7. the feeling of freshly cleaned floor under my bare feet (OC!!!)
  8. admiring the newly scrubbed and cleaned bathroom (eto pa, OC talaga!)
  9. SSB (single self behavior) after taking my pre-sleep shower
  10. discovering a decent brownie shop in Takashimaya
  11. the feel of body butter on my washed feet
  12. slowly walking home along Novena at night
  13. being able to run for 45 minutes non-stop without feeling like I’m going to die of heart attack
  14. clearing my cluttered mind while running
  15. running in cold rain
  16. hearing “you’re doing quite well” from my dragon boat coach after just a month of learning the sport
  17. feeling the adrenalin and the knots in my body after training
  18. stretching after running or training
  19. sharing the shower cubicle with 3 other pinay dragon boat teammates after training (isa lang kasi ang shower stall at madaming nakapila)
  20. losing cms everywhere
  21. being able to finally feel “independent”
  22. washing up with the boys using a hose outside the shower/changing room (ang tagal kasi maligo nung isang girl!)
  23. being able to sleep before 1am
  24. making up after a fight
  25. shopping online for someone back home, and knowing that the goods were actually delivered and received (kakatakot, kasi baka scam)
  26. being able to say what I really think without feeling judged or feeling guilty
  27. knowing that my ‘effort’ was appreciated
  28. looking forward to going to a ‘real’ beach (or beaches)
  29. knowing that I have good friends
  30. seeing old friends
  31. making new friends
  32. dinner at NY NY, 7107, Clarke Quay, foodcourt near Kallang MRT, Marina Steamboat, Jumbo, Panyeros…
  33. finding an error that took the config guy 3 days to solve (Ha! Hahahaha!)
  34. delivering an urgent requirement and dashing off from the office to go to training
  35. listening to Alanis, Fergie, Mandy, John Mayer, Sheryl Crow
  36. missing my bakulaw of a BF
  37. chatting with my mom, dad, brothers (hurrah! they finally learned how to use YM!!!)
  38. knowing that my help is appreciated
  39. knowing that I am missed
  40. missing home… and realizing that I still know what matters most in life

Counting my blessings everyday…

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Baaad day...

It’s just quarter before noon, and yet I’m already swearing to the heavens for how the day is turning out.

I just had caught Bus 139 when I suddenly remembered not blowing off the candle on my shelf beside the bed. Since the candle was above a stack of books, the mental image of the lit candle toppling over and burning the books then the curtains, then the bed, then our unit, then the whole condo flashed before my eyes (and consequently me being thrown to prison… flashes of Flor Contemplacion followed), so I hurriedly alighted at the next bus stop, which, thankfully, was just before the flyover. Running to the condo, I swore my very heavy backpack and my incapacity to not pack too much stuff for rowing this evening.

When I got to the condo, lo and behold, I couldn’t open the frigging gate because my housemates had already left, and of course, locked the gate. I had to lend the gate key to my roommate because I was going home late tonight (because of rowing), and we hadn’t duplicated the key (ang mahal kasi. Imagine, $12 for a frigging piece of metal…). By this time, my positively heeeeeaaaaaaavy backpack has positively worn me out.

To spare myself from the ire of my housemates (from having left the candle burning and not having the key copied, and possibly having burned the condo down), I called up my roommate so that I can meet her and get the gate key. But first, I had to inform my Project Manager that I couldn’t make it to the office this morning. Off I went to Paya Lebar MRT station and the saga to my roommate’s office began. Her office was somewhere near the Paya Lebar Airport Road near a dead-end after the loop… Guided only by her SMS instructions, I hailed a cab whose driver didn’t have any idea where the office was. Well, ako din naman. Even with a map, I still couldn’t figure it out (maps, directions, and I don’t mix well. it’s hereditary). After two wrong turns and the nth SMS/phone call, I finally saw her with the key.

The only saving grace of this whole brouhaha was the very nice cabbie who didn’t complain when I gave hazy directions and who didn’t charge another flag-down when I asked him to go back to the Paya Lebar MRT station after picking up the key from my roommate. He was even willing to listen to my story, and told me that going back was the right thing to do.

At the MRT station, I faintly heard a siren going off and my heart skipped a lot of beats (no, not just A beat). From the MRT platform, I saw that the siren came from an ambulance, and not a fire truck, passing by. (Me and my imagination. Paya Lebar is sooooo far from my condo. Surely there had to be another fire station near our place). Still, I couldn’t keep myself from fretting unnecessarily (which is also hereditary).

When I finally alighted at my bus stop, I checked the sky for dark smoke coming from a burning building. There was none. But still, I ran, heavy backpack and all. I got to our unit. No smoke was emanating from the crack between the door and the floor. Not even a whiff. I opened my bedroom door.

The freakin’ candle wasn’t even lighted.

I was sooooooooo relieved, yet irked at the same time. Relieved that I didn’t burn the condo down, hence sparing myself from doing a Flor-Contemplation-story, and irked (at myself) that the memory of blowing off the candle escaped me (again, this is hereditary). Having caught my breath and calmed down, I wanted to bawl over and bang my very stupid head on the floor.

The day isn’t even half done yet and I’m already sooo freakin tired…

Moral for the day: don’t light stupid scented candles in the morning when you’re hurrying to the office. You wouldn’t notice the scent anyway, and even if you did, it wouldn’t take away the stress of the early morning rush.

OR have the key duplicated already.

OR go see a shrink.

Monday, October 08, 2007

My Life Analysis: does it really come to this?

sometimes, we wonder "where" we are in our life. it's amazing to find links that actually measure life's success. based on what and who? I was curious, so I took the test and here are the results.

no reason to jump off a cliff. but of course, there is always room for improvement, big rooms in fact or a whole flat. Hahaha! =P

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This Is My Life, Rated
Life: 7.1
Mind: 6.6
Body: 9.3
Spirit: 7.1
Friends/Family: 5
Love: 6.9
Finance: 7.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is reasonably high. This means that you are on a good path. Continue doing what is working and set about to improve in areas which continue to lag. Do this starting today and you will begin to reap the benefits immediately.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score is not bad but can be improved. Maintain your current social net, while you try to expand it. Try new things and form new friendships. You will be rewarded greatly.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is in good shape, meaning that things are going well. Do all you can to maintain it, and continue to grow and move ahead.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. You have a rather good financial score, which is not all that common these days. Keep doing what works. Avoid common pitfalls and save for the future. You will be glad you did.