USELESS RANDOM THOUGHTS

dad is here. i met him this morning and was with him the whole day. just got into virtual reality an hour ago.

had my friends look at my resume. some of them replied. some didn't. i guess people are too busy with their work and lives or mali ang email address na pinadalhan ko.

mac wants this thingamajig from sony. me want a laptop, a car, and a hunk-of-a-man to have an affair with... sana di ako batukan ni Santa.

might have to go home earlier than Dec20, like Dec19 na lang. Dad told me that flights are so full, i might not get a seat on dec20.

nuninuniniiiiiii..............

HARRY POTTER ADDICTION

for crying out loud, i've seen the HP1&2 movies for the nth time last night! i swear. this isn't healthy anymore. i mean, what do i get from watching them over and over and over again???? i think i have a crush on that kid. he'l be a cute guy when he grows up. OK, from this moment on, after i've burned the HP1&2 cds, I will put a stop to this rubbish. i guess i'm tolerating this addiction so that i could escape harsher realities. TIME TO WAKE UP.

speaking of movies, i watched The Ring in G4 with Jo. that was some creepy movie. i could still imagine those horrifying scenes whenever i go to sleep, take a bath, brush my teeth. grabe. kainis nga coz i know it's not real pero i still get scared. RUBBISH.

anyway, i'm stuck with my job hunting. parang ayaw kong gumalaw. shyeks. i'm going to ADMU tomorrow for some "career counselling". i wonder what else they could tell me. hay naku. i'm just going there to hear some news, tips, and gather the strength to give them my resume.

jake versoza was interviewed by Grabeh.com! grabeh na ang kasikatan!

punyeta. nawala ang blog ko...

ok. all my blogs are up again. it was gone for a while. had to republish everything. now, how to paste pix here...

BORED STIFF

my past blogs have been about boredom. i guess it's because wala talagan direksyon ang buhay ko ngayon at wala rin akong ganang magka-direksyon ang buhay ko. am not tired. it's just that i feel scared of doing anything because it might not work. hay, after telling other people that everything is worth a shot, here i am not even wanting to try. I need to get a grip!

honestly, i'm just pretending to be doing something in the office. i hate that my boss is here. i feel as though that i'm so useless and pabigat to CCI. I was thinking of getting a new job (no matter how menial!) just to get out of this rut. Maybe in Starbucks or something like that. However, my main consideration is the money which is not that bad (considering that my job at the moment just consists of pretending to be busy in front of the PC, going to the CR, eating lunch, going to the CR, and leaving by 5pm).

i'm still in the Harry Potter craze: i had Chamber of Secrets and Sorcerer's Stone VCD copied. Damn...

I need some serious soul searching.

STILL BORED...

am not doing anything in the office. I took the day off yesterday and yet i didn't feel guilty at all. Gosh, I'm getting paid just to be physically in the office. I'm not really complaining. it gives me enough time to search for jobs in the internet, edit my resume and make application letters. however, it's boring me out of my wits. i mean, i would rather spend the day at home, waking up late and watching TV or reading every goddamn book at home. but no, i have to be here in the office and find ways to amuse myself. the appeal of surfing, checking and writing emails, blogs and egroups messages has lost some of its novelty.

i slept late again last night (good thing, migraine didn't attack). I read 3 chapters of HP3. Borrowed a copy from eric because i couldnt stand not reading it after watching HP2. i'm so stuck with harry potter that i even read a fan-written HP5! the writer based the story on the hints that Rowling gave out early this year, I think. It was quite amusing. The story might even come close to what Rowling will write. well, that remains to be seen. I watched HP2 with Jaja last week. Technically, I didn't really like it. The cinematography and the production set (s) weren't really impressive. And there wasn't even a great score to help the film! Masyadong flat ang "sounds" ng movie. Moreover, there could have been many seens na funny or cute but the film wasn't able to translate it. Also, Hermione was getting to be a cry-baby. I didn't like that. Radcliffe also needs to improve his acting skills because he's the star of the show. Unlike Hermione, Ron, and the rest who (I think) did justice to their roles. And Fawkes was way ugly and acted to "robotic". The climax in the book wasn't translated well in the film. It didn't feel like climax at all: wala masyadong visual and audio effects (except for the basilisk which was quite OK), plus it wasn't faithful to that particular scene in the book.

Of course, Im saying these because I constantly compare it to the quality of Lord of the Rings. But in fairness to the film, I liked the kitchen of the Weasly home. It was exactly as i pictured it in my mind when I was reading it (just a little darker in my mind though). At ang cute nung clock! Pero it didn't show Ron's room that was decorated with Quidditch posters. I also liked the Aragog scene. It looked real and the visual (for that scene) was great. Especially ung escape scene. Kadiri yung crawling spiders!!!! There were exaggerated scenes also: flying car and Harry almost falling out, Hermione making dramatics about being a mudblood, Hermione's cat look, moaning myrtle was kinda cute (unlike in the book), and the last scene with Dumboldore, Lucius, and Harry where Harry assured Lucius that he'll be there to 'save the day'. I mea, whoa, where did that come from?!?!? That wasn't in the book. It didn't give much appeal to the ending of the movie...

Oh well, we could just hope that the 3rd movie will be better, if not, that book five will be a better read than book 4.

enuf of this harry potter craze. have to pretend to do work... hay...

BORING DAYS AHEAD

haven't been doing much in the office ever since i came back from vacation. but even though i'm not really busy, i still wish that i would not have to get up early in the morning and physically take my body to the office. if only i could afford to be a bum.

started my job-hunting already. i've been surfing the internet. haven't really gone walking around makati and submitting my CV, though. have to put more order into pa...

hay...

POST-VACATION HANG-OVER

didn't go to work last monday because I just flew in that day. tamad to go to office. jo went to manalac to get her stuff. chika-chika kami till late in the afternoon. just read harry potter. decided it's good to read the book again before watching the movie.

worked yday. couldn't get out of the office to fetch bucky from the airport because of frigging work. i forgot to bring the cheques for signing pa talaga so i had to go back to the office after dinner para mahabol ko kay lino who was teaching in APS. good thing traffic was not bad in makati ave and burgos.

missed bucky so much. was very excited to go home. had dinner in Hot pero cut short nga because had to rush back to the office. after the going-back-to-the-office-fast!-episode, we went back to the house for their inuman. calich and his girl were there. they kept on pestering him about their love story to no avail. joshur was also there. he ordered pizza for all, saying that it's ok to spend the money because it belonged to the taxpayers. he's working for congress now. (he's so fat, btw. and still with charmaine, for crying out loud. that girl must be blind). but in fairness, he look decent. i guess, he has to else, baka ipatapon sya ng security sa congress. slept ahead of everybody else. medyo tired coz woke up early to do some brisk walking. have to seriously loose weight. all my jeans are getting tight (halp!)!

CONTINUATION...

morning came as a respite. woke up at dawn and walked the shoreline of the whole island. we saw the sand at the other side of the island. according to residents, the sand moves around the island because of the current. It was smoother and powdier than the sand in the resort's shoreline. the sun was soft and the wind temp just right. after we made the full circle, we decided to see the lighthouse. to our frustration, the gate was locked and we couldn't climb over because of a guard-kambing protecting her baby kambings playing by the gate. hence, hindi kami nakaakyat. tired, sweaty, and hungry, we went back to the resort. good thing good, greasy breakfast was already set on tables along the shore. had a hearty meal. half an hour later, we went under water again. we partly saw the black forest then got swept by the current again. didn't see much but same corals and aquarium fish. it was nice though. forgot the name of dive spot. after the dive, ate again (as usual!) then got ready and packed up for panglao. we took the smaller navy boat. took about 30 minutes to get there. the shore was great (almost like boracay's) but the beach was not very good. ang daming weeds and sea-urchins. you wouldn't wanna go barefood wading in the water. we just rested for the whole afternoon, dipped in the water and waited for sun-set. then had a wonderful dinner of shell soup (yum!), grilled pusit, shrimps, chicken, atbp. super busog after the meal. we decided to walk along the shore. we found a great resort, Alona Palm Beach, at the end of the shoreline. kaya lang super expensive. it looked really classy and well, expensive. it looked its price. we also went to a resort with rooms for only P250 per night good for 2 pax. Ok naman but the shower is common. ok lang if backpacking talaga. slept early due to exhaustion. shared a room with bucky and his parents. 3 beds:one for parents, 1 for bucky and 1 for me. they didn't trust us to be in bed together. funny! as if we could do some hanky-panky together with them around! hahaha!

woke up early. bucky tried capturing the sunrise with his "angle" (he has this illusion that he can beat jake v. in his league...) had breakfast of dinner's tira-tira and bread. got ready for the dive in Pamilacan island. we had 2 dives there. we saw a school of barracudas on the 1st dive. my dive was cut short because of my bouyancy problem. toward the end of the dive, I couldn't help but slowly going above the rest of the group. i couldn't control my BCD so no choice but to go up. sayang ung air ko. as usual, bucky was the 1st one to run out of air so nag-picture taking na lang kami sa taas. the 2nd dive's highlight was when a huge fish bit chito in the knee. sobrang funny! chito and i were buddies for the 2nd dive. we were getting into this area of the big fish. suddenly, it just went up to us baring its teeth! yes, we saw the teeth. it bit chito sa left knee. as in baon sa flesh! i think it was about to attack me next. fortunately, the dive guide drove it away with its knife. we had no choice but to go against the current (which was very tiring). we were quite rattled after the incident (but in retrospect, it was really quite funny! imagine, of all things to happen!) the spot didn't have so much corals and fish because it was just a slope. unlike if wall, there are millions of things to look at. we were almost done with the dive when we saw a frog fish. rare daw un. it didn't look like a frog though. looked liked a black coral with white spots clinging desperately on a stone. there was a very big coral beneath our boat. we stayed there for a safety stop. meanwhile, we were chasing the fish around the coral. dan went up to get the underwater cam and went under again to take some pix. namee and i went with him. took pix of them underwater. bucky threw up after the dive. he didn't feel well because of his bad sinus. wawa nga e. he didn't enjoy it very much. the boat ride going back to pangloa was bumpy and took forever pa gyud. good thing lunch was great. we are starving. hardly said a word while eating. when were were almost done, we kept on joking about chito's fish-biting incident. all too soon, the vacation in Panglao had to end. hay, grudgingly packed my stuff and showered. promised to go back when there's time and money. got back in cebu port at around 6pm. went to the pier coz dan, namee and chito were all going back to cagayan. they planned to go to camiguin. buti pa si namee!

hay, the next day was the end of the great vacation. went to davao to visit mi familia and supervise my little bro's bday celeb. oh well, some good things have to end. pero i'll have other chances to go back there. excited na ako to plan for the next. the equipment was quite expensive. but all was worth it. i spent only P2.5K+ for 5 dives. lucky me. hehee.

BAKASAYON: the beginning of the end...

just got back from cebu yesterday for my bro's bday celeb. it was ok but i had migrane attack so i didn't enjoy it very much. my bro and his friends have grown. they've grown almost as tall as i am and their voices have gone deeper also. it's funny to see these children grow up and before you know it, matanda ka na talaga. we're at this age... nyahhh. don't want!!! (in a bratty-voice).

anyway, to recount my vacation: (lola's bday in leyte, yada, yada...)

fetched namee and dan at the airport. we went to Tropical Island to borrow diving gear. super cheap compared to other diving shops. had a little problem with the certificates coz bucky, namee and i are not certified divers yet. had to make an excuse para makahiram kami ng gear. buti na lang hindi peak season this november, at pinayagan kaming humiram. turns out that we were the only customers for the week. we even got a one-day discount because of bucky's kakulitan. close na kami sa clerk don. after dinner, we went to the casino. bucky and i didn't have any luck at the slot machine (at all!) so we drowned our expensive sorrow with a hearty sandwich and good talk at the hotel lobby. we didn't see pia there at the waterfront coz she was in leyte. got home at around 12mn. we still didn't want to sleep so nag-inuman muna kami sa house. we had red wine, then san mig light, then pilsen. naubusan e! we talked about the dorm, the people, what happened. the topic was especially hot on the CG, better known as the Cagayan Girls. Dan told us that he heard Batin having a boyfriend whom she lost her mind with: umalis sa parents at naki-pag-live-in po with the BF against the will of the parents. eventually they broke up, then she hooked up with another guy whom she dumped for the ex-boyfriend because the sex was way better. hmmm.... she's definitely gone places. as for the others, nothing much to hear really. we talked about moomoo's and ghost. bucky, dan, and namee are self-confessed chickens. ako, well, honestly, am not. namee suggested that we sleep with the boys because she was scared. she couldn't bear seeing me sound asleep tapos sya takot sa dilim. ok lang with me kasi aircon ung room nila, sa amin sa guest room hindi. slept at the floor though.

next day, had to wake up at friggin six am to fetch chito at the pier. tried to catch some sleep then we went to have lunch at the same SUTUKIL restaurant. it means SUgba, TUla, KILaw pala. kaya SUTUKIL. lima lang kami pero ang dami naming kinain!!! i was so full we had to do some walking around the Lapu-lapu shrine. funny, turista talaga ang mga dating namin. picture-taking galore! went to shangrila-mactan again to show namee and dan the place. it was so hot so we decided to cut the trip short and then visit plantation bay na. the place was nice but i liked shang better. their pools were weird: man-made lagoons na mukhang pool na hindi. it was too... weird for my taste. at least sa shang it's either a real pool or the real beach. nothing in between. anywez... visited dive shop again to rent some additional equipment. buti na lang chito is certified na, so lalong naging confident un clerk (si laura) sa amin. went to ayala to have some mirienda at the harbor city. it's this chinese resto na super cheap and super good food. even if busog na nga ako, kumain pa rin. it was then that i felt a little dizzy. i was scared of having a stroke because of all the aligi i ate for lunch. pero wala naman. baka impatcho lang, ang takaw kasi. bought some stuff at the grocery store and then went home for dinner (kain na naman!)prepared for next day's departure. could hardly sleep because of the excitement.

woke up at around 530am to pack stuff. so excited. had breakfast pa so got to the pier at around 645 na. left at around 720. the boat ride to Balicasag was about 3 hours. we took the rubber to the island coz the boat was too big to cross the shore. the place was great. the atmosphere was like in SSI: beach was not crowded, lots of trees. there's only one resort there. we got us 2 rooms. According to the lonely planet guidebook, it costs about P2K+ per night. whew... we ate a little before the 1st dive. had to go back up the air to change my mask because the one i borrowed was leaking and i didnt want to clear my mask underwater. I got my buddy's which was was great for leaks but not for equalizing. nagawan ko naman ng paraan. the current was so strong that we didn't see much of our drop-off point. nagpa-drift na lang kami with the current. it was great. ang ganda sa ilalim. after the momentary eeriness of just hearing yourself breathing underwater, everything went ok. there was a very big school of talakitok, ang daming lapu-lapu and mol-mol, and of course the ever present clown fish. there were also different kinds of corals. the water wasn't very clear kasi maraming plankton na lumilipad-lipad. after the dive, it felt weird being on land again. i felt a little dizzy and sick in the stomach. felt better though after we had a hearty lunch of grilled pork, fish. after an hour of rest and gearing up, we had our 2nd dive. i felt more calm and confident in the 2nd dive. finally saw a lion-fish and more mol-mol and talakitok and lapu-lapu. there were more aquarium fish on the 2nd than in the 1st. mas marami but smaller. dinner was great! sobrang gutom after every dive! After the sumptuous dinner, washed up and got ready for bed. sobrang tired. my friends, however, had another idea. against my very sleepy and tired brain, i played pekwa with them. was barely thinking while playing. could barely sleep. ang init!!!!

BAKASYONISTA: TYPING IN CEBU (with prospective in-laws, nyaiks)

arrived here at oct30 about 3pm.

bucky had Mabuhay tickets so i had to wait for him finish eating. funny coz he wrapped some pika-pika in paper napkins and gave them to me. i felt so pobre.

the 1st night was fun. looked at old albums of bucky and his family. at around 10pm i was bored stiff talking to bucky and his mom about their lives. (bad...) it was however punctuated with anticipation because his dad told us that we were going to Mactan Shangri-la overnight for free. Many of the freebies his dad gets for seemingly protecting the place. Bucky's dad placed a team of navy men at the hotel mismo. the place was nice. the pool was great. medyo pangit ang beach. just dead stones and a lot of green stuff. we went into the water late afternoon na coz it was so sunny. Had dinner at the SUTUKIL (just outside the Mactan shrine with more-than-life-size statue of the half-naked Lapu-Lapu(the man)) restaurants where you choose any kind seafood, from king crabs, prawns, tingol, molmol, lapu-lapu, shells, etc. and let them cook the way you want it. GRABE, busog. ang daming food. the food was medyo expensive but the catch was fresh and everything was cooked great. Sarap, yum-yum. went back to the hotel and walked around the pool for a while. that's where i saw carlos agassi. he was wearing only board shorts. ang laki ng katawan nya. kaya lang tisoy so hindi ko type. he asked me about the water polo thing. talked for about 15 seconds and then i decided to change into my swimsuit to burn the dinner and of course, to see more of the artista. syet, baduy talaga. niloloko nga ako ni bucky pero game naman sya. even though closing time na ang pool, naligo pa rin kami. funny. after taking a shower, we ordered dessert and watched tv. walay silbi and pag-swimming. bawi dayon sa halo2. eventually slept at around 12mn. next day, took a dip both at the pool and the beach. twas so hot. have tanlines coz forgot to put on some sunblock. super fun. great place and food. should be back there sometime when lotsa money na. P5700+ for locals

gave mommy-in-law-to-be a massage. whew. got tired...

sent letter of termination to DOST already. they should be able to reply by Tuesday. I hope so. If not, I'll call them from here.

TYPING WITH STRESSED SHOULDERS

damn, my shoulders have been feeling tired all day yesterday until today.

my boss suddenly appeared on my back while typing email to mom. wonder if she read that i'm off to cebu tomorrow? bahala sya.

tired talaga...

RANDOM THOUGHTS on a LONELY SATURDAY NIGHT.

want to learn taichi. i need a new kind of exercise and a way to relax my brain. i'm getting kinda bored with jogging.

nothing good on TV.

jaja, nina, and kuya mike went to sang-kalayuang Taft to eat at Becky's (?). wanted to go with them but budget (or the lack of it) forced me stay within the perimeter of my house (that includes PP) and eat at Hot. wasn't quite satisfied with the sisig. went home sleepy. must be the effect of sebo creeping into my brain and my whole system.

pau slept here last night. she came from Manila Penn and wanted to go straight to the airport. she went home to bacolod today. we ate at north park. i had a craving for Tai Pao but i didn't order. weirda. so, i still have an uncured craving for tai pao. shit.

i only have P90 in my wallet. i was very tempted to use my credit card. BUT NO. baka sobrang akong mabaon sa utang. that's bad.

bucky and i were talking about what kind of business we want to get into. rather, we should get into. hmmm... ang hirap isipin. hindi pa puedeng diligan ko na lang ung pera tapos, tutubo na lang sya. i'll talk to it pa every morning. but no, hindi sya tulad ng halaman, my dear... you have to invest it somewhere. maybe in dollars or in Tbills. ang hirap sa stocks din kasi the market is so unpredictable. puedeng food business pero you gotta have a strong niche there and it has to have a fast ROI. kung sa estate naman, puede din... still don't know. the business world is definitely gonna change in the next 5-10 years. i wonder what people will need? so that we could make some good bucks out of it.

ang tagal pa ng 10:30. i wanna watch go to believe. boston public is still on air. arg. don't like that show. too much teenage angst, makes me feel sorry for them.

ok, tired of typing out loud...

EXCITED!

one day less, 4 more days and i'm off to vacation!!!!!

pau's going to bacolod tomorrow na. ang haba ng bakasyon ng gaga. we might have dinner later in the indie place. at last.

MAC: PROSPECTIVE ROOMMIE

Tanichi or tan wants a place near Etelecare where she works. She gets ubber tired commuting. besides delikado ang mga busses ngayon. tapos her friggin shift is like 11pm-7am. she wanted to leave her place ASAP coz the her roommate/s want to get the whole place on his/her/their own (according to Gen2 na sabi ni Jaja). Plus, she's having problems with the 2 months deposit and advance thingie. I told her that we won't let her pay advance if ever kasi di naman tayo nagpapa-sublease, diba? She liked it, i think. Kaya lang I told her na to look for a place na malapit na sa etelecare. kasi kung sa atin, same story lang. she hasn't called/texted yet. let's hope that daddyo discloses her exact plan na so that we can consequently plan our lives also. hopefully, eyos will still not find a place to stay by the time daddyo leaves.

uy, kelan tayo kakain dun sa indie place???????

FREAKIN BOSSES (!&@%#@&^#&@&&!!!!!)

was preparing the report for tomorrow. they slashed most of it. well, bahala sila sa buhay nila. i'll just be there to push the mouse button and document the proceedings. Bahala silang mag-explain ng kung anu-ano. Nakakainis. Sila naman ang magre-report e. di naman ako. hmp. i'm quitting this rat hole na talaga. period. well, not until i find a new job. gosh, i just hope that we'll get a 14th month pay. para maka-out-of-the country ako. (inis-inis...)

anyway, am so excited to go to CEBU!!!!! we're going to Malapascua. it's a beach like the White Beach in Boracay daw. SO FRIGGING EXCITED!!!! 5 days na lang. I told my parents about it naman via email. they haven't responded. hope na hindi naman sila magtampo that i'll be staying longer in Cebu than in Davao! Kasi naman the original plan was I'm only going home to Davao on onchie's birthday. And then this balungan confirmed the beach outing in Cebu. Tuloy, hindi na umabot ang free ticket ko. I had to use my card to buy a ticket. well, bucky is not paying for my ticket pala.... but told mom and dad na he did para hindi magtampo na pera ko pa ang ginamit ko. (tapos hindi daw ako uuwi sa all souls'/saints' day kasi magastos... bad daughter)

mac's blog has a new look.

gotta work.

TIRED BRAIN

fucking clients. why are they so demanding. grabe. napa-praning na naman ako. we're supposed to do a presentation on the summary of what happened for NESTLE. my brain is bleeding inside. ayoko na. resolve not to work from this minute till tomorrow.

Need to look for money so that I can fucking DOST for my tuition and fees last sem. garsh. at least hindi ako matatali sa kanila for the next year. I have yet to tell DOST that I'm quitting for a while.

Need to look for a part-time job. Need moolah!!!

BOSS NOT AROUND

i don't have anyone to look over my work so i'm doing useless stuff. in fairness, i did the Nestle stuff first before doing this. besides, i can't work without Rachel and Lino's inputs.

watched that GLOBE adventure in GMA last night. what a stupid show.

ang sakit ng katawan ko from cleaning the whole house. ow...

going to cebu and davao this break! yipee! i already applied for a leave. originally dapat for davao lang ang leave ko. but bucky invited to go diving in Bohol and Cebu. so on the last minute, i decided to go with him! this might be the last chance that I can go diving na free. Bucky's dad is retiring on January. Im so excited. i need the break! going home on nov 7 before onchie's bday. i wonder if i can still buy the PS2 cd he wants. garsh, might have to battle greenhills mob. for the 1st time since onchie turned 6 yrs old, i'll be able to attend his bday party (if he's having any). nagtampo naman ang bata. i can't bear the thought na he'll carry that grudge against me till he goes past adolescence. baka magkaroon ng issues (like his ate... )

mom and dad very supportive of my decision to go LOA. i will have to ask JPV about the nuances of such a process. i'm presenting my (jordan's) program this afternoon. yikes!

gotta make JOB-HUNTING Program for myself.

RESTFUL WEEKEND

After i have finally decided to quit school for now made me feel so... FREE. parang ang gaan sa dibdib, na wala akong ibang iniisip. I'm actually looking forward to job hunting. I have to make a strategy for that pa...

consequently, i'm enjoying a very restful weekend. no worries. i even cleaned the whole house yesterday. they were all gone. sumakit ang katawan ko. pero ok lang. at least maaliwalas ang feeling. i heard mass with bucky and ate at outback. i felt the need to celebrate and congratulate myself for knowing when to back down.

i came home and slept well. after a long, long time...

DEAR MOM & DAD...

i wrote to my parents about taking a leave-of absence and terminating my DOST scholarship. I hope they reply ASAP so i know what they think. given that, i have resolved to look for a job and help my parents with the house.

I feel as though nabunutan ako ng tinik. I just admit this now: I have been scared shit when I took the DOST scholarship. Somehow, I knew that it wasn't right but I still went on with it, hoping that my doubts would disappear. Now that I'm looking at the situation with a clearer mind and less fearful heart, I think I will not have any regrets. I was enlightened by what Pau emailed me:

"Life is full of winning and losing and also full of challenges. It doesn't matter if you lose.. if you live for yourself, then that is truly LIFE.
Some people refuse to accept the truth and to start again, thus they end up losing more and more in life. In the end, nothing can be done to bring back what they lost. If you are losing in your life now, don't continue letting yourself lose more than what you did. Put a stop to that situation and do not be afraid to start from scratch.

Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want; it is the realization of how much you already have.

Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forwards."

People say that I just wasted 2.5 years of my life working in a small and struggling company and studying for a degree that I won't finish naman. Well, maybe I did. That's why I will not prolong it anymore. I think quitting school and seriously looking for a job will put an end to that "wasting of my life". I think I can pursue my Masters when I can afford it na. As of now, there are just too many restraining forces. My only regret is that I was too scared to get out of my comfort zone, face the insecurity of being unemployed or being rejected by companies. I have to face these fears so that I will know how to overcome them.

Hay, writing this makes me feel older. But al least, wala nang tinik at bigat sa loob. I can plan my life ahead and move on.

Hmmm.... this week has been a "moving on" phase for me. Hurrah!